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A patient, explaining what their relationship is to their new visitor who was headed up to see them, said, “he’s my guardian,” and I said “oh I didn’t you had a legal guardian,” and the patient said, “he’s not my legal guardian, he’s my spiritual and physical guardian. He is also my brother. Well, I say he’s my brother. He’s like a brother. He’s my husband.” And I say this with genuinely no judgment, just pure curiosity, what

cosmoshunger

I love Ronan’s arc in the first two books because at the start you think Ronan attempted suicide but then you find out that’s actually a cover story for the fact that he was attacked by a dream creature. And then you find out said creature is called Manifestationofmy Suicidalthoughts.

donkeyparalyzed

Dreamer

oorione

you met me at a very strange time in my life

(@ahotknife has been talking about a pynch fight club AU and I may have become too obsessed with it)

pygmypouter

on his terms or not at all!!!

sunflowergf

the only other scene equal to the repugnant scene #to me was when hennessy was like do you think ur boyfriend loves u 5ever or do you think you're a pretty toy to play with to pass his time? and ronan was like hey remember when your clones –who were basically your family and the only people you loved– got brutally murdered?

videogameoutofcontext

kidspawn

so-called free thinkers on monday morning

illmamnim-art

Adam's relationship with Cabeswater is something else

ahotknife

adam parrish has pure O type OCD & there is textual evidence of this + maggie said it herself first so this = another hill for me to die on

ahotknife

the knocking (#knockwatch). he’s regularly shown knocking on things three times PRIOR to persephone teaching him to read. this is obviously foreshadowing his pre existing psychic ability, but it is a repetitive and useless behavior he Only does when he’s upset or making a decision, so: compulsion

he is rigidly moral & very black and white when it comes to his own truth & responsibility (“in matters of money, he was quick to assign credit or blame”, etc) in the first few books (this later changes when he learns that lies can/do benefit him)

constantly over analyzes his own behavior and his own responses, to the point he convinces himself there is something wrong/immoral/other about his reactions to things (thinking they should kill opal & then regretting it, “too much monster blood”, etc)

at least twice we see him obsessively washing his hands to remove dirt that isn’t there, he compulsively picks at or thinks about others noticing flaws in his clothing or appearance

the gansey murder tree dream

staunchly independent and strict about his own moral code/life choices to the point of neuroticism (the whole “on adam parrish’s own terms or not at all” bit, ronan observing adam thinks the only right way to do something is the way that “causes pain”) despite the fact this causes hardship and tension in his life and relationships he literally cannot accept doing something any way other than the way he’s decided he’s going to do it

feels like he can’t trust his eyes or his mind, second guesses the way he observes things as if there is something flawed about his worldview/vision. multiple times in the text he punishes himself for his intrusive thoughts

pursuant to the above point, he excessively lingers in regret, engages in doom spirals and traps himself in damaging cycles of negative self talk/thought

expects the truth & good behavior from other people, to the point he entirely dismisses or actively despises people who do not adhere to those rules (kavinsky, etc)

the most telling one to me is “i am such a damaged thing.” where he observes that everything “inside his head” is “tangled” but like (gestures broadly) open any of his pov chapters and luxuriate in the horrors

and from maggie: