The Abyss

Roleplayer, Argentina y Queer como Belgrano. Escribo para desestresarme.

[free-my-mindd]

George Orwell on writing:

[ronwebeth]

Orgullosa de hacer pjs totalmente desesperados por cariño. Nunca dejaré atrás la costumbre de escribir a un hombre perdidamente enamorado de su crush.

PD: YO TAMBIÉN TE AMO JOAQUÍN.

[weltenwellen]

Monologue of Despair Penelope Alegria

[thecollectibles]

Succubi by Aleksandra Wojcik

[hereticaas]

it's the way that ruben's abuse towards everyone else is pure rage and violence, but with niall it is always the abuse of a father. punishing niall like he's a disobedient child: clean the house, mow the lawn, show me a picture when you're done so i know you've done it well. i pay for everything you have.

on top of the emasculation and on top of the way he resorts to sexual violence every single time. it's the way he calls him son as much as he calls him brother.

AND the worst part of it is that it's the making of that bond that creates the vehicle for the violence! ruben insists that niall is family (they both do) and so he's allowed to hurt niall in the way that he learned family is allowed to hurt each other. he does love niall, and so he has to love him in the same way that he learned to be loved.

[wulfhalls]

Half Man // Fyodor Dostoevsky

[haggravated-lassault]

[hellgram]

i am gonna lose it.

[redwinevinegar47]

WHAT

[apricustar]

insane production design choice to put a 1984 poster on niall’s bedroom door, because the immediate shorthand of the novel is obviously ‘big brother is always watching’—this idea of an omnipresent authority that continues governing your behavior even in moments of physical absence—which feels inextricable from the way ruben operates within the show. but what makes 1984 so genuinely horrifying is the psychological consequence of prolonged domination: the erosion of a private self, the way fear and control become so thoroughly internalized that the watcher no longer needs to stand in the room because he has already taken up residence inside you, rewriting how you understand love, loyalty, safety—and what you believe you deserve from all three.

that is exactly what ruben’s violence has done. even in his absence, everyone continues organizing themselves around him—anticipating him, contracting around wounds he opened years earlier, the past remaining not behind them but invasively, insistently present. he’s a specter lingering over everything.

which makes the placement on niall’s door so devastating, because this episode is about niall reaching—toward autonomy, toward a life expansive enough to finally contain honesty and desire. just away—far enough to exhale, far enough to start anew. and yet gadd frames his most private space with a novel about what total surveillance does to a person’s interiority and selfhood.

niall is trying to become someone. the poster is gadd telling you, in the most precise way possible, that big brother already got there first.

because in the end, winston smith—the protagonist of 1984—doesn’t just submit to big brother. he loves him.

[likeahauntingmelody]

before sunrise (1995)

[weltenwellen]

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[weltenwellen]

Wildness Before Something Sublime Leila Chatti

[goth-queen]

[rocktheholygrail]

Jennifer's Body (2009) Gone Girl (2014) Hannibal (2013-2015)

[6thlovelanguage-deactivated2020]

Our Experience of Grief is Unique as a Fingerprint

[ronwebeth]

Caí en un espiral horrendo de leer desquiciadamente fanfics PaulxFeyd-Rautha (ship cuestionables si los hay) y ahora un poco (mucho) necesito un rol ambientado en Dune.

[weltenwellen]

Adrift Mark Nepo

[thecollectibles]

Artemis Leading the Hunt — MTG Style by Ivana Abbate