RandomOrArranged.

As the title implies: life, this blog, can either be random or arranged. Order in chaos. Agreement is however it works, harmony can be a consequence of the seemingly haphazard. Or something. I like the marriage of words and images. Sometimes, though, they...

[fuckyeahnostalgicbeauty]

L’Oreal Zazu Colorburst and Zazu Colorwash “makeup for hair” print ads, US Vogue Jan 1987

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7.18

I still think about how absolutely disappointing he was. What a messed up fucked up individual. But one that I wanted so badly to love. Much more than the other monster. That one can just go straight to hell.

But how can I still (at times) miss someone like that? Someone who was just AWFUL to me? Just a terrible DICK.

[forbes]

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This saddens me a little actually....

[24hoursinthelifeofawoman]

““Depression is melancholy minus its charms.” ― Susan Sontag, Illness as Metaphor”

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[persephore-blog]

“Your job — as students who are receiving an education — is to be aware of your privilege. And use this particular privilege called “education” to do your best to achieve great things, all the while advocating for those in the rows behind you.”

source

[nightmaresarestilldreams]

This…

[prettyboyshyflizzy]

Wow this is a masterpiece

[buzzfeed]

21 Things That Fit Reeeaaal Good

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25

Morning news, wtf🙄

I’ve self-diagnosed myself with mild gastroparesis, particularly in the morning, even though I don’t have n/v. The problem isn’t that a small amount of food makes me full- it’s that when I’m hungry, I’m just hungry the way I always am, and start shoveling it in, and don’t feel the consequences until it’s too late. And most of the time I’ve been ok. But lately, it’s been all screwed up. Especially with morning meals, after running…it’s just weird, weird and inconsistent is the best way I can describe it. And my last bender really pushed it over again. I guess eating instant mashed potatoes at 12:30am and then again in the morning with bacon did not sit well with my tummy. Maybe it still would have years ago, maybe it’s my age.

The only other time those more severe type of “gas trap” attacks happened seem to be associated to a period that I was not taking care of myself at all- no exercise, lots of drinking and more frequently, and smoking too. It happened at work once, after going out for pizza and beer, once before meeting Lora, I remember (so this must have started ages ago), and must have happened at least 1 or 2 other times I can’t remember distinctly, aside from this last. It’s not fun. I can only guess that when i have normal indigestion after running, it’s cuz I’ve gulped down a whole lot of air. Then naturally, afterward, I’ll eat a load, too much too fast. Maybe the combo of that, + just the recent abuse I’ve been torturing my stomach with, resulted in my episode. Idk. 

Swear, healing properties👌🏼

What a beauutiful, sunny day for a change

Trying to channel late 90s/early 00s full and fluffy Cindy Crawford-type mane. But could also be a promo for a new Japanese horror film

[nevver]

Street life, Jonathan Higbee

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In a world full of Beys, be an Aaliyah

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Kung ayaw mo, di huwag.

Francia  S

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Summing up my 2017

[24hoursinthelifeofawoman]

Gordon Parks

Untitled, New York, New York 1956

[forbes]

5 Reasons Why Extreme Early Rising Can Be Beneficial For You

[roras]

While I’m on work-hiatus to tend to familial matters, I don’t have to adhere to any rigorous schedule that requires me to start my day at 5-5:30am. Lovely as that’s been in some sense, I feel myself slipping down the rabbit hole of unproductivity and sloth😮

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(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xbGIt1puWEA)

This song NEVER fails to put me in the best mood

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[24hoursinthelifeofawoman]

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I’ve done a ton of amateur research on narcissism since being involved with one. Lots of helpful information and advice out there for anyone dealing with it. 

This article encapsulates some of the major behaviors to look out for. It especially hit a personal nerve because it describes the covert narcissist- the one whose behavior isn’t over-the-top, screaming for attention (the way society typically views narcissistic behavior).

“What I didn’t understand at the time and do now is that the narcissist shows his true colors in conflict”- I had to learn this the hard way time and again.