Noah/ @hotanimeboy is an abuser and here's every reason why.
It’s time I just come out and tell everyone the shit that’s been happening to me for the past year. I didn’t wanna have to come out and make another post about another shitty person but oh well!! Noah/hotanimeboy is not some innocent little kid like some people treat him. He is not the sweet kind person he presents himself as. He is manipulative, abusive, he lacks empathy and is overall a shitty toxic person. We met about a year ago, we were both going through bad times, big breakups and we helped each other through them. He was a legitimately good friend who cared about me, and stopped me from hurting myself when things got bad. And then unfortunately the relationship progressed and became sexual. From then on he became kind of…distant, unless of course the concern was sex. It got me paranoid as hell, thinking he just wanted to fuck me and no longer cared for me as a person. Later down the line we both confessed that we had feelings for eachother, so naturally I asked if he wanted to date me and he just replied “idk”. Yet another thing that got me paranoid, a very vague ambiguous answer. It was a big mistake but I told him I loved him idk maybe almost a month later ?? He couldn’t reciprocate but I just snapped because I couldn’t handle a sex only no commitment thing and told him I had to go. There was a very distinct goodbye, and things were over…for about 2 months. It was my birthday, I had a new boyfriend, despite the loneliness I was doing much, MUCH better without Noah in my life. Needless to say I was very happy..until Noah messaged me. I blocked him literally everywhere except this ONE twitter account I forgot about, and he messaged me saying smth along the lines of “sorry I was jerking off thinking about you and thought I should message you”. He knew I was dating someone and decided to tell me that. Despite knowing I shouldn’t give him a reaction, we talk for a little. I’m sure he knows by now I’m still very vulnerable to him and not enough time has passed for those feelings to fully die out. He tells me he’s falling for me, that he’s sorry for making me feel like he’s using me for sex, ( he says he didn’t recall ever saying goodbye despite the VERY CLEAR goodbye msg I left him. Thanks for gaslighting me lol) etc so me, gullible enough to think he’s changed, gives him another chance. I breakup with my boyfriend (big big mistake that I will always regret) and tell him if he really is ready to treat me right, I’ll let him back in…and he blocks me. I unblock him from my main and message him asking why he just wordlessly blocked me. He says he’s “not some home wrecker” which WOULD be an understandable and good thing to say..had he not messaged someone’s girlfriend talking about how he got off to her and loved her ? Anyways before all this I saw on his twitter that he was planning on killing himself New Year’s Eve. Even though he treated me like absolute shit I didn’t want him to die, so I messaged him that night on a seperate, unblocked twitter trying to make him not go through with it. He asks “why do you care” and I tell him I just didn’t wanna let someone die, and of course he says “you still love me” (well it’s obvious that I do), I say “yeah, do you?” And he says no. But of course, at least his sexual feelings are still there ! Now, I know I’m not entitled to anyone’s feelings but for someone to tell you they’ve fallen for you, only to tell you a week later that they don’t like you beyond sex is just ..weird ? Like how legitimate were those feelings if they fizzled into only sex like a week later. So after all that we made a deal, we’d visit each other during summer (no sex unless we were dating) and see how things went. It was pretty ok from then on….UNTIL he started changing his mind 24/7, going From “I can’t wait to see you” to “I don’t think I can see you”. It makes me sad, but what can you do. It’s not 100% my decision whether he comes or not. A little down the line he starts..becoming very affectionate. He starts asking for pictures of me, calling me cute/beautiful etc, things he NEVER says to me, and eventually he asks me to be his gf. I knew I should’ve asked why this sudden change happened, but I knew that I wouldn’t like the answer. I was so happy to finally be with the person I’ve been pining over for like the last…half a year ? More probably. It was so nice..until he dumped me the next day. He tells me he though the relationship would change him, but nope, he’s still obsessed over his ex (who he’s been obsessed with since we met. That isn’t really my problem, but Jesus why would you ask someone out if you’re still thinking of another girl). Basically he used me and my feelings for him to try and change, stringing me along all the while. He says he’s sorry, he understands what he did was wrong. Fair enough. We don’t talk for about the next week. Going back a bit, he made it clear that I was the only girl he wanted to have any sexual interactions with. Following the breakup, I went on his NSFW blog for fun, no big reason I just wanted to. And I see..he’s talking about fucking some random girl on anon. This destroyed me tbh, even if it’s silly sex was the closest thing to affection I could get out of him, it was our thing and ours only and some random stranger was getting it from him. I snap (I use this term lightly Cus I was WAY too soft on him.) and ask if he just wants to end things between us. He responds..apathetically , saying “do what you want”, “I told you I was bad”, etc just …acting like it’s my fault for having faith in him not to fuck my life up. So I block him once again. And he comes back, once again. He tells me he’s sorry, tells me that he was in an abusive relationship since we went our seperate ways and how he tried to kill himself. And man, am I easy to manipulate or what. Cuz I believe every word he tells me. He tells me how nice and kind I am, how “good people don’t come around very often”, and I didn’t see it then but like …why does it take someone abusing you to understand how nice someone was to you. Why did it take so much pain on both of our sides for him to lukewarmly appreciate the effort I put into caring for him. He tells me, once again, that his feelings were developing for me again. Once we start talking on his main blog he’s SUPER affectionate, telling me I stole his heart, asking me to reblog his selfies Cus “he likes me”, and overall being very…affectionate and sweet. And then of course he stops feeling that way not even a week later and says his feelings are purely sexual. I ask him if he’s just talking to me purely for sex, and he says yes. He messaged me at like 1 am saying his sexual desires. Nothing really happens from then on out until like 3 weeks later, I’ve had enough of his shitty treatment and I go off at him, telling him that I only ever wanted to love and care for him but he is nothing but abusive and manipulative towards me. It’s a pretty long rant, but still I feel like it was too nicely worded. I mostly decided to finally go off at him because I saw he was calling himself an innocent boy blah blah blah , tbh I went soft in him bc If I went off, no holds barred he would definitely try to victimize himself even more than he already does. He straight up calls me fucking delusional for trying to “make him out to be a bad guy”, and how “I’m completely wrong about him” (even though everyone I tell about him agree that he’s abusive as fuck?) and ..blocks me before I can respond. So yeah, TL;DR Noah has used me for sex, drove me to suicide and self harm, gas lighted me, ruined my attempts to be happy without and just have relationships in general. He’s abusive, manipulative and victimizes himself to hell and back. Oh and he also posts lolicon on his nsfw (which I think is deactivated now) this post is incredibly rough and I’ll probably clean it up later but yeah that’s about it.
Oh I forgot to add the fact that when I told him his constant ambiguity hurt me he literally said “I guess I’m just too damaged for you” like ??? Ok dude
ALSO FORGOT TO ADD that he fucked with my ex and best friend, later admitting that he just wanted to bait reactions out of them because he likes to feel in control of people’s emotions
