Real talk here, how do you know you deserve friends?
Can a broken person be with someone without exhausting others, when will it be impossible to cover up everything until it simply slips out?
I've been thinking about it lately. I don't have close friends per say, but friends nonetheless. People who I care about and care how they see me. It's because I like them that the best option should be leaving them alone
I'm not a good person, don't have anything outstanding to me, mediocre at everything I do. I'd love to be someone deserving of human connection but time and time again I'm left alone with my myself and realized "Oh, it's me! Chucks jaja!"
I want to be a better friend, a better person, better at everything.. but maybe I'm not meant to in this life. Right now it's just waiting until the final straw and bite the bullet, but for that I'd need to be alone so not to worry anyone.
Sorry for this post, just laying my thoughts
