thinking!

[passivites]

[mona-l1sa]

[fencehopping]

Embroidered snowy steps>

[rosecolouredflags]

A reason is a turning point that gives you an alternate route to act out your own frustration. This acting out of frustration removes any sense of responsibility for your own hurt, it’s all id. You’re an open wound and you can’t be touched by anything because you’re convinced your body will heal this wound on its own. To have so much faith in your physical body, that you don’t need to flex anything in your mind is a confidence or blind faith I can’t hold onto. You can luxuriate in the ‘reason’ for someone hurting you and lean into the victimhood of this. Each second you spend in this space is time you do not recognise your own power and autonomy to have control over the thoughts speeding through your head.

My best revenge is not thinking about you at all. You had a reason but that wasn’t an excuse to hurt me.

[spectrologie-deactivated2023041]

Jeremy Wiens

[daughterofchaos]

Domenico Fetti, Sleeping Girl, detail, ca 1620-1622

Museum of Fine Arts, Budapest

[unsubconscious]

 ‘Snow Circles’ by Andy Goldsworthy 

[uwubean]

Drew Barrymore in Bill Nye the Science Guy 1996

s04ep10: Flowers

[keiscult]

in love with this weird little gem.

may (2002)

[bongjoonhoe]

PEARL (2022) dir. Ti West

[autisticandroids]

many problems are caused by the mindset that the world is divided into good people and bad people and the bad people can be "found out" and removed, eventually leading to a utopia containing only good people.

[andthenyourealizethat]

IS THERE AN EMPATH ON THE PLANE

[evilvillain123456789]

heres whats gonna happen. me and my domme are gonna go to mall of america and get cinnabon or jamba juice. whatever we want, i mean whatever we are feeling. in that moment. im gonna put rat poison in our drinks. then we hit up sealife aquarium. i pay the $15 admission fee. by the time we get to the little underwater tunnel part our bodies are weakening. Ill explain everything, Mistress will understand. we share a last kiss there with the sharks swimming along side us and rays soaring above our heads like birds. after we drag ourselves through the shimmering tableaus of the seahorse zone well finally collapse on the wiry carpet under the gentle blacklight of the jellyfish display were we breathe our last.. our love will be memorialized on the third or fourth page of the minneapolis star tribune

[lamignonette]

[what-even-is-thiss]

The thing is that at some point you need to confront the fact that thinking you’re the worst person on planet earth is also a form of ego.

“You’re not the main character” often applies to people who think everything will go their way. But not every story is a heroes journey. Some are tragedies. Do you see yourself as the main character of a tragedy? You’re not the main character applies to that as well.

Thinking that you’re so uniquely annoying that that literally nobody on planet earth would like you is also a form of thinking you’re special and can also in certain ways be harmful to the people around you.

At some point you need to realize that there is no main character. Nobody on planet earth is inherently at their core more or less lovable than other people and even with very big mistakes almost nobody is beyond redemption or love. And you are not some special exception to either of those things. Thinking that you are is just your ego and mental illnesses talking.

Sometimes getting better involves being kind to yourself. Sometimes it involves getting a damn grip. Which one do you need? That’s up to you to find out. Probably some combination of both.

[merrikstryfe]

“Last month, when a Twitter thread by a woman who sent her neighbors homemade chili went viral, the woman was accused of being a “white savior” and inconsiderate to autistic people (the woman who wrote the thread is autistic). It’s just one example of how high the stakes seem to be for interpersonal encounters that are objectively nobody’s business, and how so often our thirst for drama is really a thirst for punishment. Because none of these encounters matter. It literally doesn’t matter that someone made chili for their neighbors because you were never meant to know about it in the first place. It’s not your business. To demand retribution against someone who says they enjoy coffee with their husband or makes surprise chili for strangers — or even someone who complains about these things! — reflects something far more disturbing than humblebrags or being a presumptuous neighbor. It’s that these reactions are so normalized online that they’re almost boring. Of course people are going to freak out about someone’s misguided problematic author spreadsheet even though it has zero bearing on the real world whatsoever, and of course people are going to accuse a beloved indie rocker of ableism for being annoyed by constant flash photography. It doesn’t have to be this way! People in their regular lives don’t react this way to things. It’s only on platforms where controversy and drama are prioritized for driving engagement where we’re rewarded for despising each other.”

— Every “Chronically Online” Conversation Is The Same, Rebecca Jennings

[deerchasingheadlights]

Guardian angels on earth: In the human condition to protect