rezeki kita lain-lain, ikut apa yang sesuai untuk kita, mungkin kita rasa tak cukup tapi hakikatnya He knows whats best for us.. just wait patiently.. and be in your own lane, Allah blesses us differently ❤️
have you ever question yourself after doing soo much..but that one thing/goal you're trying to achieve just lets you down?
if you ask me.. yes, i've faced that ever since i was in primary school, i got rejected
to three schools in each stage of my school journey.. primary school, middle school and one biggest heartbreak of all was being rejected by my dream high school. eventhough i did have good grades to enter that "dream" school..
it was rough for me to accept it because my father was one of the alumni of that "dream" school (i put my hopes high to enter).. after that rejection..i downgraded myself soo hard that time, i hated myself soo bad eventho i wasnt pressured by my parents.. and i even loss ppl i love.. which made things even worse.
and during my finals i did real bad.. i got my first fail in addmaths and that had to be a closure to one of my worst year in highschool during form 4.. tbh i didnt study srsly.. i had a burnt out.. and most of the time i'd cry..but behind doors... and my friends knew nothing abt it.. im good at hiding this from them i guess..
after all the dreadful feelings, the constant self hate and abusive habits ive done to myself that year... my dad.. helped me to get back up.. that was when he told me that he was never ashamed of me because i got rejected, he never was.. and he hugged me and said that i was enough just where i am.. that helped me, alhamdulillah i have him.. i couldnt imagine what else bad things i'd done to myself if he didnt reassure me... i think... i was suicidal.. i think lah but it was close to...
but now.. i'm done with highschool.. and alhamdulillah i got one of the best grades ive ever managed to get throughout my years of learning ❤️ alhamdulillah.. ngl i never thought i actually managed to get it alhamdulillah.. and plus i managed to get into my "dream" uni when i was like in form 1... and i even got a chance to pursue in a course im in love with (lol) but yeah..
see? Allah delays something to give you something even better..
see? goals that were rejected for you, is a redirection from Allah for your own path.. Allah plans our path uniquely different..
and each path is unique for everyone..nobody on earth deserves to be downgraded just because their path is different.
see? you loss people you love, yet you still have chances to connect with new ppl that loves you for you..and you know how amazing they are, and how exciting it is to get to know these new ppl.
see? how these hard times.. just reminds you to be closer to Allah.. think of it as a message from him..cause he misses your tears in your prayers..and he loves you.. thats why you had to face them..