I don’t want to feel this pain. I lost my best friend. I can’t shut it off. I feel alone. I just want to numb myself. I don’t want to feel this. My chest hurts so much…how can someone walk away from someone they love so easily…
how am I going to do this, I need to find something to numb this pain because I don’t think I can function with it. I’m sure having panic attacks 3 nights in a row is not healthy. I wish I could just pass out and not be awake right now













