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I just make things for fun

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So I feel like not many people talk about how much patience and forgiveness Aphmau has. Garroth, her second-in-command, the person who's been in the village longer than her, the same person who went there for shelter, betrayed her. He not only turned his back on the village, but he also sided with Zane. A man whose crimes were a mile long. Aphmau, while she has kept some secrets from him, which were to protect him in the end, has told him so much. The one time she didn't tell him stuff about the village was towards the end. Keep in mind, it was because he was already acting weird. And the topic was about an amulet that turned a child into a Shadow Knight, so, of course, she turned to the literary Shadow Knight.

And after all of that, he made her miss 15 YEARS of her sons' lives. And I'm not even going to mention the love thing, where she's treated like a prize rather than a person.

And after all of the HE'S STILL HER RIGHT HAND MAN. It's nonsense. When other characters like Michi have done less than that. She was ready to kill her. I can get her to be a good person, and want Garroth out of the Irene realm. Because being stuck in the Irene realm with Zane locked in combat sucks. But the rush she was in, and the level of forgiveness she gives him, is insane. I can chalk some of it off with the loss of Aaron, but even after 3 three years. He is still her right-hand man, best friend, and is trusted enough to be an uncle, or, depending on your ships, a dad, to her children. It's madness.

And we still have people like Laurance, who, after turning his back on the group twice, Aphamu still wants in the group. And Brian, who doesn't even get a mention. Dude, let's look at the opposing forces in the war they were in. Donna talks about it after the battle. And yet, in season 2, nothing. Not even a passing remark.

I'd like people to discuss this. Have my boy Yip talk about it. He has lost Aphmau for 15 years, since he was a child. The woman who let him into her village. And nothing. Levin and Malachi, her sons who lost a mother, don't talk about it. No rage.

If Aphmau were real, and her actions were known. I can bet psychologists and philosophers would be drooling at the chance to evaluate her mind.

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Coronation is something every Lord goes through. It's a whole thing, a day where a Lord is crowned and the village celebrates. The celebration will vary depending on how liked the new Lord is. But a celebration is still held.

Expect Aphmau never got one. She became Lord at a rough time. People were getting hurt and she had to step up. Originally it was just temporary. In fact she often told people she wasn't a Lord just a placeholder.

But as time went on, the temporary lordship became permanent. And it happened gradually too, as people slowly started to think of Aphmau as their Lord.

After a while, right after she came back from her mission to find Levin's birth mother, only to be asked to raise Levin by the women who Aphmau was sure died as soon as Aphmau left. She just kinda accepted her role. She didn't like it at first. But she grew on it. So what.

But for some reason the history books claim Aphmau had a Coronation day, when she didn't. Many, and I mean many, of her newer guards after the Phoenix Alliance Island was made believe her Coronation day was just a random day in Aphmau's first year. The day wasn't even anything big, Aphmau remembers nothing happening on that day, just her fixing the town.

When people ask her about it, she just tells them she didn't have one. But no one believes her.

Garroth is having fun. He also tells people the truth, but he says it in such a way that people think he's playing into Aphmau's humble nature. When in reality he's just trolling his best friend.

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Can we talk about how perfect Falconclaw would be for O'Khasis runaways? Because it wouldn't be anyone's first thought to ever check the village that people were massacred supposedly by the mad Lord. Or if they did, it would at least take a while. Maybe a captain or a high rank guard would check a week or so after the runaway child was declared missing. But that still gives the runaway plenty of time to rest, eat, plan, and leave. I used this idea for a character I made once a whim, and I made it a whole thing. For example, runaways that travel through Falconclaw would get a tattoo. They tattoo a falcon on their wrist.

Imagine a whole operation of runaways from O'Khasis. Merchants, thieves, people who specialize in hiding and dealing with certain people. It would be this organization called the "Child Of The Falcon", and the members could be found anywhere. Anywhere but O'Khasis of course. It would get to the point where Falconclaw would have supplies store away for future runaways, notes laying on the tombstones about where you possibly could go. Money, people left after they ran away and came back to hide the money, to help more kids in Aaron's old home.

And I can't help but imagine Aaron's reaction to it seeing his home turned into a place of refuge. The ever place that he connects to tragedy. Or Garroth who ran away himself, seeing people help those kids by giving them resources he didn't have when he ran away. Or Aphmau who saw the group, first by meeting them before the O'Khasis arc, and seeing its effect on Falconclaw when she actually sees the village.

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Aphmau was many things. But something you can always say is that she was a protective mother. For a good chuck of the five years, Levin didn't leave the property. The one time Aphmau took him out, when the boy was learning to walk, he got hurt. After that she kept him inside or in the yard.

It took a lot of compromising (bribing) from Zoey, Garroth, and other mothers to get Aphmau to let Levin play on the beach and such with the other kids. Which did lead to some funny and scary moments.

Stories for another time.

She was like a mama wolf trying to protect her cubs. It did get better when Malachi showed up. Because Malachi really wanted to play with the other kids, and Aphmau just couldn't say no to her little ghost son and her youngest boy.

They perfected the puppy eyes together. Which worked 50% of the time.

By the time Lilith and Alina came around, she mellowed out. Mainly because they always had a babysitter and guard with them.

But best believe the second her babies are in danger, she will tear down her enemies.

Garroth and Zoey just sip tea together and try to hold Aphmau back from checking on them every five minutes.

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Alina Dantea Phoenix-Lycan

Lilith Garnet Phoenix-Lycan

We all know why Lilith was given her first and middle name. One in honor of a woman who was held dear in her family, and one for the first friend and protector of her family.

Alina was a fun story. Alina wasn't really named by Aphmau. Aphmau had a list of names picked out, but Alina was born premature and so Aphmau never properly picked the name. All Aphmau knew was she wanted Alina's name to start with an A. But due to the many complications of giving birth, Aphmau wasn't able to name Alina. Since she was unconscious.

So Levin and Malachi named her. The name means 'Noble' and 'Light'. A perfect fit for the young lady. And of course, Alina was given her middle name to honor Dante. A man who was incredibly loyal, willing to sacrifice 15 years of his life just waiting in a village that was falling apart. Well before Levin became Lord of said village anyway.

The girl's last name was complicated. See Aphmau didn't have issues with the other three, since they were adopted, no one minded that she was a single mother. But with Alina, she was a bastard child. Something people didn't approve of.

Did Aphmau truly care? No. In her eyes, all her children were perfect. Flaws and all. And to honor her lover, she gave Lilith and Alina both her and Aaron's last name. Lilith already had it and Alina, while born after the man's death, still was his daughter.

Fun facts:

Aphmau never calls her kids by their last name. It got to the point where they didn't respond to it. Even now.

Levin forgot his middle and last name during the 15 year time skip, as Zoey kept Aphmau's tradition of referring the boys by their first name. Malachi barely remembers his last name, he did forget his middle name though.

It was a funny moment during the year before Garroth was brought back when the boys realized that not only do they have middle and last names, but they were given the last name of the literal village they watch over.

Levin still uses Zoey's last name, but sometimes he combines the two like Malachi. Aphmau doesn't mind. She actually finds it sweet, Aphmau is forever thankful that Zoey took her boys in. She sees Zoey as the boy's second mother. (Queer-platonic Zoemau anyone?)

Growing up, Aphmau made sure that the girls knew their middle and last name, not by calling them by it. But having them write it whenever they write letters and such.

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Levin's full name is Levin Raven Phoenix.

While Malachi's is Malachi Ungrth Phoenix.

At least their last name was Phoenix. However both of them took Zoey's last name after she adopted when Aphmau disappeared. Levin took Amakiir, while Malachi made his last name Amakiir-Phoenix.

When Aphmau chose the boy's middle names, she actually thought pretty hard about it. Each of their names tells a story.

Levin's tells the story about him surviving death. As he was meant to die in the fire that killed his father. His first name, the name Aphmau kept out of respect for Levin's biological mother, means his past. Raven is a bird that symbolizes wisdom, death, transformation, and prophecy. Aphmau knew that Levin was going to do great things.

Malachi's name is about miracles of life. Like Levin's, Malachi's first name connected him to his past. No matter how bad it was. Ungrth, despite being Laurance's wyvern, was a name that Aphmau associated with miracles. The wyvern had somehow broken the realm barrier to save Laurance, and his soul was used to clear Phoenix Drop of the darkness after Zane cursed the town. And when Malachi was turned human, another miracle, after wanting to give him a name fitting for it.

In the family Aphmau made, she chose the last name Phoenix for two reasons. One, and the one she tells people if they ever ask, because she was the Current Lord of Phoenix Drop. But the second, and somewhat real reason, it means rebirth. Aphmau had no memories, no clue who she was, this was a fresh start. And she wanted it to show for her, and her kids.

I'll do Alina and Lilith's later. Have a good day my stars.

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Starting to rethink keeping Aaron alive. As stated in this and this post, at the start of my rewrite, I kept Aaron alive. But I'm thinking about letting him die. I'm thinking about allowing Shad to possess Aaron after his death. And after Shad is defeated, he is sent to become his true self. Aaron would come back and then become Aphmau's husband. Not immediately, of course. But later down the line.

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Aphmau's full name: Aphmau Alicia Pheonix

Her forgotten name: Amira Naomi Shalashaska

No one calls Aphmau by her middle or last name. She prefers her first name. The only reason Aphmau would use her full name is if she's filling out paperwork that requires it.

Fun Fact: Each part of Aphmau's current name was picked for a different reason. One for mocking, one as a half joke, and one for paperwork.

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Let's be real. Aphmau has a LOT of issues. Both mental and physical. Below is a list of the conditions Aph suffers from, along with some brief information on each. Please keep in mind that none of this is based on scientific or realistic principles. If you don't feel comfortable, that's completely fine. Feel free to ignore this if you don't feel comfortable

Mental

Aphmau suffers from extreme PTSD. From both her old days as a Lord and even now as the head of the alliance island. Two wars, both she led, the whole Irene dimension, Zane, and just being a lord and general.

2. Depression. She saw a lot of loss and blames herself for a lot of it.

3. Self-worth issues. She sometimes thinks she's not enough. Plus, she doesn't think people would listen to her issues.

3. Way WAY too much stress. Aphmau isn't alone, however, running a whole island that is all about five other villages, plus the island itself. It's a lot. Especially in times of need.

4. She's a bit insane. In a good way. But still.

5. Masking. Aphmau is autistic, but not everyone likes that. So in the early days, she learned to hide her true self.

Physical

She needs glasses. I mentioned this in a previous post, but Aphmau needs glasses. She only uses it when she's doing paperwork. But her eyesight is fading.

2. High blood pressure. Stress is a bad thing, and it's affecting her health. She has to be careful. Just look up what this can cause. However, stress wasn't the only factor that caused this. Lack of sleep also played a factor.

3. Aftereffects of her pregnancy. Birth was hard on her body; she almost died from it.

4. Constant fatigue. Nightmares, having two young girls, and her mind, caused her to lose a lot of sleep.

With all this said. I want to make something clear. All things are serious and shouldn't be taken lightly. If you are dealing with any of these. Please know you aren't alone. Some people and professionals can help.

And yes, Aphmau is aware she isn't healthy. She's slowly getting better. It's not easy, it never is. But with the help of her friends and her lover, she is slowly trying to get better.

Stay safe, my stars.

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Aphmau started to have gray hairs pretty early on. With all the stress she's been through, she aged fast. People often think she's much older than she is. For example she looked 21 at the start of MCD but at the end of Phoenix Drop Scalewind war, she looked like she was 20 year older, despite it only being 6-7 years since she became Lord. And the funny thing is, the lighter piece of her hair, this post for context, remains the same. So when she's 40, she has few black hair left.

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Most of Aphmau's original wolves were buried in Scalewind. They were with Kiki after all. But Cookie was buried in Meteli, because she went with Cadenza. So when Aphmau visits both villages, she takes a day to go visit the graves of her wolves. Each one was buried with something that made them special. A collar, a flower crown, etc. The girls sometimes join her and Garroth visits occasionally. Kiki and Cadenza also visit occasionally.

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Aphmau didn't want to be Lord at first. She had no memories, didn't understand what was going on, and two people were hurt. She just wanted to explore but life had different plans. She agreed to be Lord, as she realized two things: Someone had to do it, and everyone else was pointing at her. And this could help her friends to get stuff they needed. Like medical supplies.

So she became a Lord, and a mother. For five years. She grew to accept it, and was a great Lord. But after the timeskip, a part of her was happy she didn't have to be Lord anymore. Yeah, what happened sucked. And she wished that she had to be a mother to her kids more. But now she gets to explore.

But exploring taught her a lot more. Things were definitely different now. And people weren't safe anymore. So she made the island. She ended back at square one. But this time, she was going to protect a ton more people.

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Okay sorry for the late post. As I said previously, I was working on something in the background. Sadly, it's not for Tumblr just some real life stuff. It's currently being worked on. But in the meantime please understand that post will take a while. Sorry again. Now on the main topic. I did poll awhile asking, what you guys would like to see. this was the last thing that got votes. Aphmau's Shadow.

So, many people can guess from my introduction to Aphmau's old family that Aphmau was once a girl named Amara. To put things simply when Vylad summoned Aphmau, something odd happened. Irene wanted a replacement, someone she can mold into a heartless goddess. But she can't do that if Amara already has her own views and beliefs. Also Amara definitely worships Kul'zak, so she tried to erase Amara. And she kinda succeed. Only one problem Amara wasn't gone, just not active.

I call Amara Aphmau's shadow cause that's how she was for the first season. She was a voice in Aphmau's head in her darkest moments telling her something was wrong. Amara doesn't hate Aphmau cause they are the same. But they're also different. They have different views on things and different ways of doing things.

After the timeskip, Irene joins the mind party. In the worst way. Irene tried to control Aphmau's every moment. And failed a lot, cause Amara didn't want Irene to control Aphmau. And Aphmau didn't want that either. So both would work together to keep Irene locked in Aphmau's head.

During the pregnancy, things got worse. Aphmau's energy went to making Alina. So determined to end this they recruited Lucinda's and Travis's help. Both of them combined Amara and Aphmau as one and sealed Irene in the darkest parts of Aphmau's mind. Now this didn't get rid of Irene, only temporarily shut her up. And Aphmau didn't regain any memories. Yet.

It wasn't until the end of the Tul'la shadow war, did Irene finally get kicked out and was forced to face the afterlife and Judgement's wrath.

Aphmau's old family would get to meet her, and a lot happened. But that's a story for another day.

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Part 3 and final part. This is going to be all over the place, so I'll try my best to make this coherent. The first half is going to a question, and the rest is going to be how Leona found out about her heritage and the aftermath. Contains: crussing

The question I wanted to address is, Did the other Ro'maves know? And the answer is not for a while.

Aphmau tried to tell Garroth about Leona during the war after Lillian left the village. However Garroth was still being a dumbass, so he didn't really listen to Aphmau. The conversation went like this

Aphmau: Garroth, we have to talk. It's important. (Talking about Leona)

Garroth: I already know. (Upset about something serious that's why he's not talking to Aphmau. I'm not having the whole 'Fake Aphmau and Laurance kiss on my rewrite)

Aphmau: are you sure you know what I'm talking about, I didn't even say anything.

Garroth: I figured it out. Lord Aphmau.

He did find out about the truth, but it was after the whole Irene dimension, and after he faced some hatred for what he did. Garroth was so disappointed in himself for not listening. Plus he took one look at 15 year old Leona and immediately saw Zane.

Vylad didn't know until after the timeskip, this part is important. He wasn't happy with what Zane did, but gladly accepted Leona.

Zianna wouldn't find out until during the Tul'la war.

And as for Leona, she found out because of circumstances and Yip.

So as previously stated when Leona's father was first revealed. Yip was in the barn, and for obvious reasons he was terrified. Zane had burned down his village and killed everyone he knew. So to hear that the daughter of the man he feared was a few feet away from him. He was extremely scared and didn't like Leona anymore.

Logan and Donna would try to help Yip, but they couldn't force Yip to do anything he didn't want to. Kiki while upset that Yip wasn't as friendly with Leona as before understood the situation. Aphmau just asked Yip to keep the secret and be respectful. Which Yip could do.

After the timeskip Yip got to see Leona again. And he couldn't help but see Zane. He tried so hard not to, but it was hard. It took a long time for Yip to be comfortable around Leona. And the whole time Leona thought it was because Yip was challenging her.

When the Tul'la shadow war first broke out, Yip would take refugees from destroyed villages to the Alliance Island. One of these missions Leona tagged along. She would meet people who compared her to Zane to her face. And she would also learn about the amulet that she was made from. Leona remembered the amulet that her mother kept close to her, so she figured out that her father likely wasn't even a werewolf. So determined to get answers, she cornered Yip. And after Yip tried so hard to avoid telling her. He finally caved.

Leona was pissed. At Yip, at her family, at Aphmau. At the world. But she also conflicted. She hated Zane for all the bad things she grew up hearing he did. But she couldn't deny that she wished she had at least met the man. So when they finally got back to the island, she went straight for her mother. Determined to get the full story. And she did. And she felt sick to her stomach. Her father was a bad man, and she shared blood with him. But what could she do.

She tried to focus on the positives. She had Garroth and Vylad as uncles. And she was technically royalty. Even if she had no plans on taking the throne. During the war and even after it, she and her father's family had a long long talk about the whole thing. And she would keep living out her normal life, on the condition she would visit O'Khasis every once in a while. Zianna wanted to spend time with her granddaughter.

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Here is part 2. This is going to cover Kiki's point of view after Zane left until the time skip. This contains people who wanted to kill a baby.

Kiki soon fell ill after the baby shower. Her brother thought it was some flu. Illness isn't uncommon, but it got worse. She could barely walk at times. She was in pain every second of every day. Despite everything, she refused to take off that necklace of hers. She loved the amulet Zane gave her. Unknowingly that amulet was draining her. Creating life out of a few drops of blood isn't easy. It needed life Energy, and it has one constantly nearby. So naturally it took what it needed.

It was killing Kiki, by the time Aphmau got her to the werewolf tribe, she didn't have much time left. Thankfully, she had ties to them. Werewolves' tribes are LOYAL, they don't like their tribe members being taken advantage of and Kiki was just taken advantage of. Khira, the female leader of the tribe, wasn't happy. She liked Kiki, she trusted her enough to allow her in the tribe, however, she didn't like Zane. She wanted the child dead, but Aphmau stopped her. Aphmau being a chosen mother herself decided to let Kiki decide.

It took a while, but with the werewolves' help, Kiki got better. Werewolves are very connected to nature and helped Kiki reconnect with nature. She helped Bodolf, and regain some of her strength. It wasn't much, but it was enough to keep her standing during long periods. After Aphmau came back with Logan, Donna, Garroth, and Laurance (she was confused when did they leave Pheonix drop), and two new people.

When she arrived back home, she immediately went home. She would attend the party later, but now she's tired. She told her brother about the child, and he wasn't happy for obvious reasons. But Kiki wanted to keep the child. She no longer loved Zane, as Khira and Bodolf told her everything Zane had done to the werewolves. But she didn't want to get rid of the child, as she felt like she could raise the child well.

And for a while, all went well. She manages to give the amulet enough life energy, and a baby girl is born. For some reason, the child had werewolf traits such as an ear in the tail. Kiki had read up on the amulet as soon she got back, Emmalyn was confused why she wanted the books in the first place. Apparently, the tribe the amulet was from was Meif'was. So, the amulet adds traits depending on what the main mother is close to, and in Kiki's case, it was werewolves. She didn't mind; it made it easier hide the child's origins.

However, the truth came out one day. It was after Zane and the Lord of Scalewind declared war on Phoenix Drop. While all the town folks were in the barn, outside of Garroth who was moping in his room, Lillian walked in and decided to cause chaos.

She revealed to everyone in the barn that Kiki had Zane's child. This scared some people Especially Yip, whose tribe was massacred in front of him due to the man. Lillian says it would be better for everyone if Kiki took Leona's life. Kiki refused and begged Aphmau not to make her. Aphmau claimed that she won't make Kiki kill her own child and asked (more like demanded) Lillian to leave town. Lillian left but not before saying "That child will doom this village to Judgements wrath."

Aphmau made Kiki swear that she would never reveal Leona's father to her. Aphmau then asked the town to keep quiet as well, they don't need more problems. Some weren't as happy, but all agreed.

When Bodolf and the wolf tribe came to Phoenix Drop, Aphmau pulled Bodolf and Khira aside. She explained the situation and asked for their advice. Surprisingly it was Khira who suggested that they claim that the child is Bodolf. Bodolf was surprised, and Kiki tried to refuse, while she loved Bodolf once she respected the two union. Khira explained that it would be something between them and the child. To anyone else, the child is just a werewolf Kiki is close to. It took some time, but as Kiki was packing to leave town, she walked up to Khira and agreed.

So, Leona was known for a long time as the daughter of Kiki and Bodolf.

But things can't stay that way forever.

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I'm still working on that thing and other real-life stuff. So, here's a little snippet released early. Heads up this contains: Zane being terrible. Zane isn't nice in my rewrite. This is part one

Leona. The daughter of Kiki. And sadly, also the child of Zane Ro'Meave.

During the wedding arc, Zane stayed in Brendan's house. Brendan stayed with his sister, which she gladly let happen. She could use the extra hands anyway. But since Phoenix is a small town, with only a population of 28ish people, well 27 at this point, Dante hasn't come yet.

So, she was bound to run into the handsome young priest. Zane being the charmer he is, easily talked his way into Kiki's heart. However, Zane never once considered Kiki as a romantic partner. Kiki for the most part just wanted to get over the werewolf that held her heart, even after all these years.

Power is something that Zane always wanted. And while Garroth was next in line, a child would definitely make him more appealing to his parents. Zane had researched Irene and the other divines well, and one story talked about some amulet that would make you a child without having to touch the desired partner. It was used for an all-girl tribe that was in the Tu'la region.

With some bribing, genocide, and manipulation, he managed to get his hands on the cursed amulet. He was a bit disappointed that he couldn't understand everything about the amulet. But he supposed it didn't matter, as long as he gained that bastard child. His mother won't mind, that woman already had a bastard child herself. So, it's not like she judges him.

He originally wanted to use a noble lady; it wouldn't be that hard. However, more pressing matters made him go to a small town. There he met a lady connected to werewolves. The same tribe that the tribe he's "Helping" is at war with. And as a plus, she's in the same village as his disgraced brother. So, he can use her as leverage.

During the baby shower, he pulled Kiki aside. He gave her a pretty amulet, claiming it showed his love for her. The amulet had already taken his blood, and it quickly took her.

Clearly after the whole Alexis, he had to leave. He saw no need to keep an eye on Kiki. He'll be back for that girl.

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Okay so here's a random headcanon while I work on something in the background. As mentioned in the Aphmau random things post, Aphmau has illusion magic. But to go in depth, it's not pure illusion it's her memory. Let me explain.

Aphmau has the ability to see the past and make others see it too. Example when she finds out what happened to Falconclaw through her power. She basically does that on a smaller scale. It's purely for her children, where she would tell stories and make little things out of her ability.

The things she isn't real, so you can't touch them. It's like a ghost. When the war of The Phoenix alliance happened, she would make a small version of Phoenix Drop and the Lords, guards, and her would make a plan. She did this in the second war she was in, the Tul'la shadow war. But those take up a lot of energy so she can't do it for long, especially during the Phoenix Alliance war.

But like I said, it's main use is for bedtime stories. She would make a small pond with fish, or people. Though she does make people, their appearance is slightly altered. Just a shadow covering their face or anything else that reveals their real identity.