sillysnail

stupid girl with stupid problems /21

[rosiewantacracker]

i have been following such a rigid routine, eating only a low cal breakfast , and staying full until i go to sleep at night, i lost so much weight, i felt amazing and i was taking my meds regularly...

then my cousin dumped all of her problems on me once again, which made me so upset for few days but i still tried to keep my routine...

and then she came by my house to crash here since about last week and my whole routine went upside down on me, the time that i eat, the time that i sleep, i havent taken my meds, i havent been sleeping in my bed, i feel like im going insane, and the insomnia is worsened, i havent done my hobbies, i hadn't had time to watch my shows, im annoyed.

[rosiewantacracker]

its really hard to focus on not eating when whenever your family makes any food the smell immediately goes to your room:/

like goddamn, ive been fasting for 40 hours and my room smells like cooking rn, i made myself a coffee just so i would stop the cravings

[rosiewantacracker]

today's food after 46:29 hours fast

total calories: 280 kcal, 33g of protein

i feel like the calories are too much, but honestly i know that i would be fasting again for a while

!!!!!!! EDIT !!!!!!!

so apparently i couldnt finish it, i got really full and my stomach started hurting me :/ i calculated what was left and counted it calories .

so basically i ate : 141 kcal , 17g protein :/

[rosiewantacracker]

guys i ended my fast, my heart was beating way too fast even at rest, so i feared i might die lmao

[rosiewantacracker]

making lunch for your family is really hard to do when youve been fasting for 65 hours, huh?

god im craving tuna and crackers, but i dont have any low cal crackers :/

[starvingv4mp]

me when life...🐈‍⬛ ྀི｡𖦹⋆˚࿔

[rosiewantacracker]

ive been studying for hours for my finals and my brain just quit on me, couldnt take another lecture no matter what lmao.

so i guess its time for a tv show then a good sleep, still pondering whether to continue rewatching criminal minds or if i should start orange is the new black :/ .

[rosiewantacracker]

been fasting this long, all because i decided to eat whenever my skinny brother would, and our time schedule is different,

he be sleeping when im up and i be asleep when he is awake lmao.

also got this new v@pe where it has the galaxy displays whenever you take a hit??? its strawberry kiwi ice so it tastes real good :p

[rosiewantacracker]

they should really start adding caffeine to 7up :/

im also about to fail my prefinal exam so hard :p and im doing an 8 days f@st, so thats fun.

[wannaberexie128]

please just lock me in a room with no food, only my phone, water, coke zero and a treadmill and dont let me out until i reach my goalweight

[rosiewantacracker]

guys, any advice on how to deal with hair loss?

[rosiewantacracker]

im no one's first choice

[rosiewantacracker]

sometimes i feel like im useless.

it makes me feel sad and angry at myself, and i hate that feeling, i feel like an imposter all the time, it feels like im faking any kindness that i do because i feel angry that people are better than me at the things that i worked so hard to be good at.

and i always think to myself; no i should be happy for them, i should encourage them further. but then i still feel that rotten feeling inside me, that no matter what i will do, i will always suck.

[rosiewantacracker]

why cant i reply to posts?🤨

[illegalpinkishbones]

When I go to bed hungry and don’t wake up skinny

[rosiewantacracker]

every almond milk i have ever bought tasted funky, no matter if it has sugar or is sugar free, it always tastes so watered down with coffee.

(we dont have much options here in my country, so i grab whatever i find)

this one by far, is the best i have yet to drink, the milk is so smooth, it tastes amazing, its not watered down, and it worked perfectly with my coffee, the only downvote for me is that it has sugar in it, but it didnt really uptakes it calories.

100 ml= 37 calories ( which is what i used)

i visited the website, they seem to have a lot of other milk options (picture from their website 👇🏼)

[rosiewantacracker]

i just threw up while my stomach is empty for the last three days??

what the hell