《hopeless yearning》

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[rot-for-me]

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[rot-for-me]

i would kill to be a mile away , or feel the breath you'll take .

[h3art-bl33d3r]

𝙸 𝚆𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝙻𝚒𝚟𝚎 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚈𝚘𝚞, 𝙳𝚒𝚎 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚈𝚘𝚞, 𝙱𝚎 𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢 𝙼𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝙾𝚏 𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚢𝚍𝚊𝚢.

𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙻𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚄𝚙 𝙼𝚢 𝚆𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍, 𝙱𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝙲𝚘𝚕𝚘𝚛 𝙸𝚗𝚝𝚘 𝙼𝚢 𝙻𝚒𝚏𝚎.

𝚆𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚈𝚘𝚞 𝙸 𝙳𝚘𝚗'𝚝 𝙵𝚎𝚎𝚕 𝚂𝚘 𝙴𝚡𝚑𝚊𝚞𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝙰𝚗𝚢𝚖𝚘𝚛𝚎 𓏲𑁘 𓏲੭

[carry-my-love]

You're not gonna leave right? You love me right? Do you love me back??

[obsessedtillidie]

My mood and my mental state have always depended on love, because I believe it’s one of the few things in life that truly makes you feel alive. On the other hand, though, it’s also a curse, because when you lose it, all you can do is watch your life fall apart, and there’s no button to go back and fix everything.

[eighties-goth-suicide-note]

what part of ":3" do you not get???? im OBSSESED with you!!

[cannibalsheart]

sorry for craving your attention 24/7 and making you the most important thing in my world do you still want me

[h3art-bl33d3r]

"𝙸 𝚆𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝙳𝚒𝚎 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚈𝚘𝚞!"

𝚆𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙰𝚋𝚘𝚞𝚝 "𝙸 𝚆𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝙺𝚒𝚕𝚕 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚈𝚘𝚞!" "𝙸 𝚆𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝙵𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝙵𝚘𝚛 𝚄𝚜!" ??

𝙸 𝚆𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝙱𝚎𝚌𝚘𝚖𝚎 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙱𝚊𝚍 𝙶𝚞𝚢 𝙹𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚂𝚘 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙸 𝙲𝚊𝚗 𝙺𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚄𝚜, 𝙹𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚂𝚘 𝚃𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝙽𝚎𝚒𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝚆𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝙷𝚊𝚟𝚎 𝚃𝚘 𝙴𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚗𝚌𝚎 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙻𝚘𝚜𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙾𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛. 𝙱𝚞𝚝....𝚆𝚘𝚞𝚕𝚍 𝚈𝚘𝚞?

[zu-doll]

a love with mutual obsession and violence is true love.

[monitoringyou]

are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? are you thinking about me? ♡

[sadmates]

I am not meant for casual love. I was born for soul consuming love and obsession.

[pavlovspet]

I’m all you need , I’mma be your idol !

[idamiann]

sorry I got attached and dependent when you showed a little interest in me, I've been love-deprived my whole life. do you still think I'm hot?

[rot-for-me]

𝙸 𝙹𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝙽𝚘𝚝𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚍 𝚃𝚑𝚒𝚜 𝙾𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚛 𝙰𝚜𝚔 𝙶𝚊𝚖𝚎 𝚄 𝚁𝚎𝚋𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚐𝚎𝚍 𝚂𝚘 𝙷𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝙸 𝙰𝚖 𝙰𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗 :𝟹

1. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑?

2. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑐𝑒𝑠 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑏𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡?

3. 𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎 𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑡𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑡𝑜 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒?

6. 𝐼𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑏𝑒ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝 𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘𝑙𝑜𝑎𝑑, ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑒?

𝙸 𝚆𝚊𝚜 𝚂𝚘 𝚃𝚎𝚖𝚙𝚎𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚃𝚘 𝚂𝚎𝚗𝚍 𝙰𝚕𝚕 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚀𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚒𝚘𝚗𝚜 𝙿𝚏𝚏-

- 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜 𝚝𝚛𝚞𝚕𝚢, 🫀

aw , well since you were so tempted to send them all how about I answer them all for you you then ? ♡

1. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑏𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑?

for my beloved my main acts of service are physical touch , words of affirmation , and gift giving .

2. 𝑊ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑜𝑓 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑐𝑒𝑠 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑏𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑐ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑖𝑠ℎ 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑠𝑡?

physical touch , quality time and words of affirmation .

3. 𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑣𝑒 𝑎 𝑐𝑒𝑟𝑡𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑓𝑎𝑣𝑜𝑟𝑖𝑡𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑡𝑜 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒?

i'm a touchy person , so i really enjoy expressing my love through touch . it's usually not even sexual , although it can be , but it's mostly just wholesome touches . i just like knowing my beloved is there in my arms and with me . i also hope my touch will make him feel good too .

for interactions not in person i love just spending time with my darling . listening to them yap about anything and everything , playing games together, sleep calling , or just hanging out in a call together .

4. 𝐿𝑒𝑡'𝑠 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑠𝑖𝑐𝑘 𝑜𝑛 𝑑𝑎𝑦, ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑢𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑢𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑡𝑜 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑏𝑒𝑡𝑡𝑒r?

i would do everything for my beloved . as is the bare minimum . my darling can simply focus on resting and i'll handle everything . even if they are sick , ( and is okay with me doing this ) i would snuggle up with him . i don't care if i get sick days after . i'd give so many words of comfort and soft reassurances .

5. 𝐻𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙 𝑖𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜𝑔𝑒𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟?

i would feel so overjoyed . i'd think it would be cute too . i'm not too accustomed to surprises though , so my brain will definitely take a moment to take it in .

6. 𝐼𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡𝑟𝑦𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑜 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠 𝑏𝑒ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘 𝑡𝑜 𝑡𝑟𝑦 𝑎𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑝 𝑙𝑒𝑠𝑠𝑒𝑛 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑘𝑙𝑜𝑎𝑑, ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑒𝑥𝑝𝑟𝑒𝑠𝑠 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑡𝑖𝑡𝑢𝑑𝑒?

i think i would cry tears of joy finding that out . i'd spoil my beloved with affection , gifts and praises . everything and anything just to show how appreciative i felt for my darling wanting to do something so sweet for me .

7. 𝐼𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑐𝑟𝑖𝑏𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑎𝑐𝑡𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑠𝑒𝑟𝑣𝑖𝑐𝑒 𝑜𝑛 𝑑𝑜𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠, 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑜? (𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑥𝑎𝑚𝑝𝑙𝑒, 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒𝑠 𝑓𝑙𝑜𝑤𝑒𝑟𝑠, 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑦 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑔𝑒𝑡 𝑡𝑜 𝑤𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑖𝑟 𝑝𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑠. 𝑊𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑜𝑟 𝑑𝑜 𝑖𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚?)

for things like the flower example , i will absolutely take care of a task for my cutie instead . i would prefer to do things for my beloved than have them stress over having to do those things .

8. 𝐼𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 ℎ𝑎𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑜𝑠𝑒 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑚𝑎𝑖𝑛 𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑡𝑖𝑛𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠ℎ𝑜𝑤 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑙𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑢𝑎𝑔𝑒 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑖𝑡 𝑏𝑒?

for physical touch i would give lots of kisses at anytime possible . lots of hugs too . i would essentially have some form of contact with my beloved at all times .

for anything not physical touch , i will make a routine out of sending as many sweet messags as I can to my darling . watching shows and videos and playing games with my beloved too . i'll make everything as domestic as i can with my darling .

9. 𝑊𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑙𝑖𝑘𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟 𝑏𝑒𝑙𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑑 𝑡𝑜 𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑑 ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑠𝑒ℎ𝑜𝑙𝑑 𝑐ℎ𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑠 𝑜𝑟 𝑒𝑟𝑟𝑎𝑛𝑑𝑠 𝑤𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢? 𝑂𝑟 𝑤𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑑 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑜 𝑖𝑡 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑚 𝑎𝑠 𝑎 𝑠𝑢𝑟𝑝𝑟𝑖𝑠𝑒?

both are very appealing to me . i will absolutely do it for my beloved as a surprise . and in general . but i think it would be nice to also do them with my beloved too .

[rot-for-me]

i despise this feeling of emptiness when you're not around . you breathe life into my soul .

[wildfiresockdrawer]

The thought of you abandoning me scares me so much I want to vomit up blood

[rot-for-me]

† Unholy Resurrection ⚰︎ MORTIS 𓆩𓆪 Wings of Bats ⚰︎ Upside-Down † Accursed One 𓆩𓆪 Moonlight Masquerade † A Pierced Neck † Eternal Rest

- 𝙶𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚜 𝚆𝚑𝚘 𝚎𝚑𝚎𝚑𝚎𝚑𝚎 ♡

hmm , i wonder who heheh . ♡

† Unholy Resurrection — You bring me to life! So many of my waking thoughts revolve around you, and you bring such happiness to me.

aw , i have the same feelings towards you ! you've made me feel like i have a purpose again ! i feel more energized while we're talking . you make me so happy . :>

⚰︎ MORTIS — If it weren't for you existing, life would be so bleak. It brings me joy to see you around every day.

the same would be said for me too . my days were very much bleak before you came into my life — but now with you in my life i feel so alive ! i love checking your blog and i eagerly wait for replies from you . i can't help but want to be in your presence as much as much as possible . ♡

𓆩𓆪 Wings of Bats — If you could ever travel somewhere with a beloved, where would you like to go?

i'm more of a homebody , so i've never thought much of traveling before . i'd just be happy to be with my beloved no matter where we were to go . ♡

⚰︎ Upside-Down — I'd like to take care of you in any way I can, instead of letting you care for everyone else with nothing in return.

you're so very sweet . i'm used to being the one taking care of others , but i wouldn't mind you wanting to take care of me . i will be prioritzing taking care of you though . especially since you said it is healing for you . ♡

† Accursed One — What traits are attractive to you in someone's personality?

i'll start with the more obvious ones — but i really like someone who can match my devotion , obsession and possessiveness . a genuine and passionate soul . someone who will stick by me no matter what . someone who won't let me down when i need them . a person who can handle my rougher edges , especially at my worst .

𓆩𓆪 Moonlight Masquerade — The time we spend with each other is never enough. I always want more and more of it. What can I say? Your company is most adored.

i feel the samee . i really want to spend so much more time with you . the time we have had isn't enough . there is so much i want to do with you , and i hope we'll be able to do all of it . your notification is my favorite and the one i look forward to . ♡

† A Pierced Neck — I wish to have your presence around in some way that reminds me of you, be it your blood in a vial or a lock of your hair.

you're so romantic and cute . i'll give you both . although i think it would be cuter to see you beg for it . just for a little bit . ♡

† Eternal Rest — I see you as the one person I'd be willing to love forever, even after death.

aaa , that is so sweet ! i'm happy it's me you would choose for life and even death . i choose you too . ♡