[recaption]

[understands]

[theqveenofthornsarchive]

“I walk into the fire always, and come out more alive.”

— Anaïs Nin, from a letter quoted in The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Volume IV (1944-1947)

[factly]

[anxiously]

Aesthetic posts

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[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

“Well then, / if God is hungry - / let Him eat, / let Her eat.”

— Ordinary Miracles, ‘For Molly, Concerning God’ by Erica Jong

[mucknagabe]

[rougetears]

WARDROBE AESTHETIC : BORIS.     2 / ?   

[borispavsky-arc]

WARDROBE AESTHETIC : BORIS.     1 / ?  

we’re dressed in black from head to toe, we’ve got guns hidden under our petticoats. 

[borispavsky-arc]

BORIS  - >  BEDROOM.  

MATRYOSHKA DOLL - the russian nesting doll that is sitting on top of the television. the nesting doll is associated with the importance of family and fertility. they are a traditional representation of a mother carrying a child in womb and can be seen as a lineage.   the particular doll resting on boris’ television set is the only thing out of his mothers belongings that he has kept with him through each move he has made with his father around the world. this russian nesting doll was likely passed down from boris’ maternal grandmother to his mother.   despite his blasé attitude towards his mothers death, this remains one of the few things that he keeps in memory of her. 

VIRGIN MARY CANDLE -  despite not being a religious person, he holds onto this candle. not for any religious purposes but rather because the candle was gifted to him by lux lisbon ( @stohnefox ) in the early stages of their friendship. given the complex feelings that boris has surrounding lux lisbon, it’s something he holds on to. initially, a candle that he did light and use. however, after time, it’s soon been a place that has collected dust and ash from cigarettes. 

FLAG OF THE SOVIET UNION - this flag was originally the official national flag of the ‘union of soviet socialist republics’ aka the ussr from 1922 until it was relinquished in 1991.  the flag itself emerged during the russian revolution and has also been an international symbol of the communist movement, originally paid tribute to the workers’ revolution. boris’ family originates from the ukraine, upon the border of poland but he did frequently live in other slavic nations which were once apart of the ussr. despite this flag being relinquished and russia and the ukraine having new national flags, this is something he carries with him, often aligning his views on the far left and finding a distaste for the american political environment. 

DINOSAUR SKULL - a gift from an old friend when he was living in russia. it’s fake, obviously. he’s kept it since after losing contact with that friend. it holds memories of a childhood with slightly simpler times. this skull will eventually be lost in one of his many moves, soon losing it’s importance. 

LUGGAGE TRUNKS - boris doesn’t have many belongings, especially once he ends up leaving his fathers house. eventually, he loses those trunks and mainly carries the few belongings he has within garbage bags and his backpack because it is easier to move around. for the longest time, the few belongings he did have, were placed within those trunks and as we can see, they became furniture / stands to place items on. while the trunks themselves are old, they don’t hold that much significance to him. 

OTHER NOTES - boris is not a neat person. clothing can be seen in disarray through his room on the floor, he doesn’t have much in the way of clothing and rotates through them until they’re washed or he steals something else for himself. he has very limited belongings. empty beer bottles are frequently left on his nightstand or on the floor, along with cigarette butts on his nightstand. he doesn’t particularly illuminate his living space, keeping lights dim with lamps and other lights. 

[i-see-light-blog]

Character Development Questions: Hard Mode

Does your character have siblings or family members in their age group? Which one are they closest with?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their mother like?

What is/was your character’s relationship with their father like?

Has your character ever witnessed something that fundamentally changed them? If so, does anyone else know?

On an average day, what can be found in your character’s pockets?

Does your character have recurring themes in their dreams?

Does your character have recurring themes in their nightmares?

Has your character ever fired a gun? If so, what was their first target?

Is your character’s current socioeconomic status different than it was when they were growing up?

Does your character feel more comfortable with more clothing, or with less clothing?

In what situation was your character the most afraid they’ve ever been?

In what situation was your character the most calm they’ve ever been?

Is your character bothered by the sight of blood? If so, in what way?

Does your character remember names or faces easier?

Is your character preoccupied with money or material possession? Why or why not?

Which does your character idealize most: happiness or success?

What was your character’s favorite toy as a child?

Is your character more likely to admire wisdom, or ambition in others?

What is your character’s biggest relationship flaw? Has this flaw destroyed relationships for them before?

In what ways does your character compare themselves to others? Do they do this for the sake of self-validation, or self-criticism?

If something tragic or negative happens to your character, do they believe they may have caused or deserved it, or are they quick to blame others?

What does your character like in other people?

What does your character dislike in other people?

How quick is your character to trust someone else?

How quick is your character to suspect someone else? Does this change if they are close with that person?

How does your character behave around children?

How does your character normally deal with confrontation?

How quick or slow is your character to resort to physical violence in a confrontation?

What did your character dream of being or doing as a child? Did that dream come true?

What does your character find repulsive or disgusting?

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most comfortable.

Describe a scenario in which your character feels most uncomfortable.

In the face of criticism, is your character defensive, self-deprecating, or willing to improve?

Is your character more likely to keep trying a solution/method that didn’t work the first time, or immediately move on to a different solution/method?

How does your character behave around people they like?

How does your character behave around people they dislike?

Is your character more concerned with defending their honor, or protecting their status?

Is your character more likely to remove a problem/threat, or remove themselves from a problem/threat?

Has your character ever been bitten by an animal? How were they affected (or unaffected)?

How does your character treat people in service jobs?

Does your character feel that they deserve to have what they want, whether it be material or abstract, or do they feel they must earn it first?

Has your character ever had a parental figure who was not related to them?

Has your character ever had a dependent figure who was not related to them?

How easy or difficult is it for your character to say “I love you?” Can they say it without meaning it?

What does your character believe will happen to them after they die? Does this belief scare them?

[yaraaimsakul]

tutu’s follower celebration ♡ ismail + “kids” by current joy

for @dobbyjamespotter / @cityofember

[aimeegbbs]

druck said peak comedy once again

[outofthewood]

MONTAG 9:55

[aimeegbbs]

life is not a photoshoot

[outofthewood]

It’s not a burger.