Just go on.

life's not fair, but neither am I / we're all liars / endless suffer/ 24

[lamarodomwhowasoncrack-deactiva]

just bcoz im self-aware doesnt mean im in control

[royalronnie]

Ez kurbana te bîm

[royalronnie]

I love you

You destroyed me from my very core

[royalronnie]

Somewhere only we know

[royalronnie]

[royalronnie]

Depression literally HITS you in the face when you least expect it

[royalronnie]

I feel better. Not as heavy.

But my thoughts are clouded. Numb. I can’t see further than the fog allows me to. I am not even tempted to break through because I know what’s expecting me.

So should I?

my self destructive ass

[royalronnie]

Ich hatte die Hoffnung aus vielen Quellen schöpfen zu können um mich zu erweitern. Allerdings zog ich überall ein wenig Schmerz mit. Statt Wissen hat sich dieser jetzt erweitert und blockiert mich.

[royalronnie]

If you never heal from what hurt you, you‘ll bleed on people who didn’t cut you

a good friend

[royalronnie]

I am so afraid of going insane

[royalronnie]

If you were to go to „somewhere only we [you and your loved] know“, where would it be?

[goodreadss]

Blue Water Lilies, Monet, c. 1917

[royalronnie]

Can’t wait to get back home so I can cry in peace

[royalronnie]

Some times at night i forget that i‘m actually real

[differentcomputercoffee]

It hurts how you’re everywhere but here.

[royalronnie]

I‘M SO FUCKING SAD

[royalronnie]

I don’t compare myself with others anymore. Not in a good way. I don’t care enough about my health. I drink much. I smoke much. I eat much. I drink little to no water. Same with Sports. And i don’t remember wanting to have sex in a long time.

It’s not that I think I can’t do it. Just that it’s not worth doing it.

Things I should tell a therapist

At least I have less panic attacks