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First Quarter

Its crazy. I fall in love fast. I love the feeling of falling in love. Its like the purest drug. Everything is right and hopeful, Then the smoke clears and it gets real and I can't handle it. The relationship stops giving me dopamine and starts taking. He begins to expect things that I can't keep up with. So I wake up feeling drained and guilty and I end it. And then I jump into another and the cycle repeats. My sister caught on before I did she actually called me out on it.

Waxing Cresent

I had an episode the other day? For me its normal but i try to keep that away from others.

I had a freaking meltdown. My dad was yelling at me and I can be very annoying and he made me feel like he didn't trust me and like im just some fuck up that doesnt have a clue .

So i made him feel the same. I yelled the same phrase over and over and over like a broken record and the whole time i was a million miles away. Im pretty sure i looked psycho i could see it in my dad's eyes he was unmatched and it would be better to surrender. But it feels great to scream out every once in a while. Makes me want to do it again it felt good to aggravate someone other than myself. Gives them a taste of a second in my head... don't fuck with me.

XOXO 😊

#walkingblind #zero fucks

Waxing Crescent

Do you ever lay in bed and imagine your death a hundred different ways?

I imagine I'm on a mountain with a view breathtakingly beautiful and I feel even and my mind is clear. Then I let go. And. Fall... and in that moment nothing matters.

#fuck reality #walkingblind

Waxing Cresent

To combat the feelings of an imposter. I'm trying to get to know people along my route. Greeting, asking about their day small stuffs until i think of more. Idk what I hope to accomplish but it feels a lot better than making excuses of why i feel isolated.

Waxing Cresent

Currently looking for another job...my dogs got sick of me hovering.... my plants are getting too much love aka water and my chickens are going cookoo🤪😂 please help

I quit my Job today. And I feel great! Its an amazing feeling to let go of things that drain you

Is it too much to ask that you use your turning signal? Like damn, I'm sure neither of us wants to have to pull over or deal with insurance companies because I rear ended you because I didn't know you were turning... ugh.

#walkingblind

Waxing Cresent

Tennessee Williams said "We all live in a house on fire, no fire department to call; no way out, just the upstairs window to look out of while the fire burns the house down with us trapped, locked in it."

#walkingblind

Waning Cresent

I wear a mask to hide my imperfections

Ive worn it so long the lies have become my reality

Who am i now ?

the false version that i have passed for truth.

Or am i the sum of my mistakes flaws and shortcomings...

Who am i?

I am she.

She laughs

She smiles

She picks everyone up when they're sad

She listens intently and judges not

She stands tall even though she crys alone

She gets back up when she falls

She is a fighter

She gives and gives even when there is nothing left.

She gives everything even though they reject her

She still asks for nothing in return

I am she.

#unedited #walkingblind #poetry

Full Moon

Day just started and im begging for it to be over! Ughh!

#walkingblind

Waxing Gibbous

#walkingblind #ferretfever

Waxing Gibbous

Im stuck between wanting a full time job with more money and not being able to keep up with the hours and mental health issues I get from 30 hrs a week

#Help #walkingblind

Waxing Gibbous

I've lived here all my life and I feel like a stranger, nobody really knows me. I feel like a ghost with tasks.

#walkingblind

Waxing Gibbous

I enjoy the little things that make me smile. Its like sprinkles on a pile of shit. But at least its colorful

#walkingblind

AUTUMN 021921

#thingskidsgiveme #walkingblind

First Quarter

Depression sucks.

#walkingblind

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