Writing is a Passion

A place where all Roleplayers can let go and just vent.

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Hello Old Friends

It’s been 6 long months since I’ve logged into this and I have to say, I’ve missed it. How are all of you doing? I can’t believe there’s still followers here. I don’t know whether to continue this or just let it rest in its former glory. Any thoughts?

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RP Soulmate

I feel like I have finally found my RP soulmate. They love my characters and they love the ships we do where they play a canon and I just play my original. They adore her and everything from just scenarios to plots we think up. They even liked my original ideas. We shoot replies back and forth daily, and talk for hours and hours until one of us had to give up and finally get some sleep. If I mentioned I liked a certain character, they’d offer to play them in a RP if I wanted. They told me that they really loved writing with me, that I wrote super well, and we’d think up more threads and characters than we could keep track of. They were like a jack of all trades partner. It was great and I was so happy.

Lately, they don’t seem to be noticing me anymore. If I don’t think up a topic to talk about they won’t reply to me. And even when I do our conversations fall flat. They won’t bring up topics. They won’t tell me what’s going on in their life anymore. Our threads haven’t been replied to in months. They won’t talk to me about characters or plots anymore. It’s like they lost all interest. And yet, they seem to have no problem informing me of roleplays they’re doing with other people. Or sigh and tell me they have so many replies to get to but mine’s never of them.

Feeling like I lost not only my rp soulmate but one of my closest online friends feels like it’s ripping my heart in half.

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So I found out on Friday the most exciting news that made me feel so proud of myself and all the hard work I’ve done: I was accepted to my first choice college and got a scholarship, along with two grants. I’m super happy and just...wow. Moral of the story: trust in yourself sometimes. 

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Please Read

I have a roleplay search thread posted up that has all of my information like my writing experience and most importantly, the RP genres I’m searching for. Sometimes I get people interested in a roleplay who have very clearly not read my thread properly. I know this because they’ll do one of three things. 1) They’ll ask what I roleplay. —Yeah they definitely didn’t read my thread. 2) They’ll give me a plot pitch for something not on my list when my thread clearly states I’m not open to new prompts. (I don’t get angry at them for this but lately the only plot prompts I’ve been getting have been really creepy and outta left field.) 3) They’ll ask what I’m currently craving, when in my thread I clearly have symbols next to all my genres that tell if I’m craving them or not.

It’s not often but some people really should read search threads more closely before sending a message. Now every time people do this I don’t repeat my information in the PM I just redirect ‘em to my thread. Be a little considerate, people. I didn’t type up all that info just 'cause I like words.

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I’m on and writing again loves! If anyone wants to send stuff in please feel free to do so!

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I’m so happy today! How is everyone? You should send in stuff por favor.

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Guess whose back...back again! Rosie’s back! Tell a friend! Helloooo everyone. How are you? I hope well! An impromptu break was taken here due to things outside of tumblr taking up a lot of my time, but I’m here now! If anyone wants to send anything in feel free!

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If you need to talk to someone about anything that’s going on today, please do not hesitate to contact me. I’m here to talk and give as much support as I can.

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REBLOG THIS POST if you are okay with usage of the new tumblr update for either in character or out of character purposes. the update allows blogs to interact via an instant messenger feature that has seemingly replaced the fanmail option. however, these is currently no way to turn off notifications for these messages and thus might add to those who may anxiety issues over such things. by reblogging this, you are stating that you are okay and open to such interactions. 

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Loves, feel free to message me through there as well. We can use it as a quick way to communicate if you ever need help.

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Hey guys I’m on. Sorry about the small absence, but things got a bit hectic. I just heard about the chat thing, but have yet to get the chat thing? I’m very confused and I really want it. So yeah, anyway while I try to figure out what went wrong someone send something in por favor.

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I am exhausted. Honestly. College applications and scholarship applications everywhere. Send something in while I try to settle in?

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I’m so tired oh my god, but anyway, is there anything any of you would like to send in?

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I am so pumped for Halloween tomorrow! I got my costume all ready and I just can’t wait to do everything and get the whole costume put on and my makeup. Anyway, why don’t you guys send something in? Let me know what you’re wearing tomorrow.

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Unlucky

Roleplaying isn’t as fun as it used to be for me. I run three blogs, all female OCs, and it’s a pretty lonely existence, I’ll be honest. Once in a blue moon I’ll get someone who’s interested in a thread but each time it’s becoming harder and harder to get excited. More often than not, threads with me get dropped. Usually after a few reblogs. I can tell I’m not their immediate favorite, and sometimes I think maybe I’m just another 'thread’ for them. I’m just something for them to do, and if I’m not interesting enough, they’ll drop me like a sack of potatoes and not seem bothered that they left me hanging.

Each time I get a new rp partner, I get so excited. So so excited. Someone wants to write with me, they want to learn my character, they want our characters to interact. A lot of the time, I’ll end up revisiting the genre we’re doing to fuel ideas. I get really invested. And then the thread sits unreplied to for days, weeks, in some cases months. And my excitement has no where to go because sometimes they’re the /only/ thread I have going on. Yes, I could write drabbles and the like (I’m actually working on two fanfics at the moment to direct some of the muse somewhere), but I find much more enjoyment in writing with others.

I also seem to be rather unlucky. Muns I talk to that are interested in threads will go on unannounced hiatuses shortly after (I’m still waiting for one of them to come back even though it’s been a year). So then I’m right back to square one. A few cases ended up with talking to the muns about rping, even getting the starters posted, then they deactivated their blog the following day. (One such rp I was SUPER excited for had left me curious a week after why they hadn’t responded and WHOOPS they deactivated their blog. I was devestated.) I completely understand that life and school and health are top priority, but I still feel lonely after they’ve left.

What’s worse is when they’re as active as can be, but with other people. I see them on my dash roleplaying with others while our thread sits unreplied to. I understand having a selective muse for threads but when it’s been a month, and two curious reminders, just put me outta my misery and message me saying you’ve changed your mind. None of this 'I still wanna RP with you!’, 'No, no! I love your character. I want to write with you!’ Just… brutal honesty, I can take it.

Maybe it’s because I prefer to plot things out before rping? I’m not someone who’s good at improv writing. I end up stressing out. And more and more lately it seems the people I follow and who follow me are the improv type. When we try plotting, I’m always the one coming up with the ideas for what we can do or what can happen. Yes, this is how the characters can meet but what happens after? I can almost /feel/ their boredom with me through the screen when I do this.

The biggest emotional strain I think I’m currently feeling is that 'drop’. The excitement I get from new partners and new threads just gets obliterated when I’ve been dropped, or they go on hiatuses and I’m back to square one. Up and down and up and down. The down’s have been /really/ down lately. And I want to make posts on my blog letting my followers know 'Hey I’m a little lonely over here. Maybe someone can ask some questions? Or reblog my promo and help me out a little?’ but I don’t want to come across as potentially 'that one oc who complains a lot’ or being manipulative. So I’ll make those posts, then delete them a second after. Sometimes they’re a little bitter cause, you know, I got followers but it feels like I’m standing in an empty room.

Each new partner is a new hope that they’ll be the one that’s really into my character, the one that will make me feel like all my effort is not only loved by me but someone else. Sure, my friends love my characters but they don’t RP. It’s something nice to have someone (a stranger) love the character and, obviously, I get to write my character in situations she may have never been in, or something I’ve been wanting to write. Fanfics are great but they can get a little 'boring’ because I know how everythings going to work out.

Two of my characters are still active, one is now on hiatus just because… it’s too lonely there. She’ll come back eventually, maybe when another update on the game has been released, or I rewatch the anime I made her a verse for, but for now I think she needs a break.

I just wanna be someone(s) favorite. I’m patient, and I’ll keep trying and I’ll keep waiting. I’ll make little IC posts. I’ll reblog things the character is into. I’ll keep asking if anyone wants to do a thread (because whenever I approach someone first I get the 'they’re too nice to say no, and then they drop the thread shortly after because they weren’t initially interested in my character’ vibe.) And while I might take more hiatuses than I like to recharge my battery, I still love this hobby and I’m gonna keep loving this hobby 'til I’m probably six feet under. Bury me with a notebook and a pencil.

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(I got a question I've been meaning to ask you Rosie. If you haven't been asked before that is. What are some things you could rant about rping? Any pet peeves?)

Can I just point out this is the first time anyone addressed me by name here and I got really excited about that. Anyway, I’m going to guess that you mean like what I rant about. Okay, one of my pet peeves is getting a thread dropped for no reason without being informed, especially if it’s like something that’s going to develop both characters. I’ve had that done to me a couple times and it sucks cause not only are you not letting these characters grow, but both of us might have two different ideas of what might have happened at the end. For example: in my head my character stormed off and just didn’t come back for a few days, but in yours my character kept yelling till finally your character told them to shut their mouth. That will always cause confusion in the next thread if something is mentioned.

Another big one is godmodding. Oh my god have I been godmodded before and it sucks especially if your partner refuses to realize, “Hey. My charrie isn’t like that.” Don’t do it to anyone. It can really kill the muse. That’s all I can really think of right now. Thanks so much for the question. Now, do I tag this as a rant or...

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How is everyone doing today? I hope well. Drop something in the inbox por favor.

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The inbox is pretty empty right now. Why don’t you send something in, yeah?