#20 - unsent letter for you.
Hi. its been 6 years i guess? Funny enough that I just witnessed you graduating senior high school as we entered the same university yet I have to see you graduating too. First of all, congratulations. If you ask me how I am doing, I'm doing great actually. I began to explore a different aspect of life.
You know I've been dreaming of you multiple times but I don't know why. We often encountered and just lift our eyebrows silently. What could our life have been if pandemic didn't happen right?
If we have the chance to talk again, I will always be open. If there's something you wanted to tell me or apologize for something, I'm all ears. I don't blame anything on you in which I wanted to see that its jusr a matter of immaturity that seperated us. Honestly, I don't also blame that you find someone and immediately establish a connection. Even I was hurt of course, but it made me a realize that you have to meet the person that will push you to take risks and probably im not the person for you that is worth the risk. Honestly, I don't regret meeting you. You became a mark or breaking point of my change. Because of you, I was able to know how should I be treated better. Because of you, I was ae to meet the person whom I set a standard for myself. Probably, if we have the chance to talk again, i think we are not what we think of. We are not the grade 10 version of us. Maybe that conversation is worth of a coffee or even just alcohol in a night.
I don't think that love is the right term but i guess it was the potential the stucks in me that probably until now, you still matter. Im trying to close the chapter but still, I am happy for you now. I am happy how change not only me but how change impacts you. I hope that whenever love sees you again, i hope it will be a kinder one. And also for me. Right now, I am not interested in it anymore.
I still have my proud eyes on you. Even im afar. Even im becoming part of the crowd of your success. Goodluck of what life awaits for you ahead.











