Update
So, I haven’t been retired for long, but I have to admit, I already feel a hundred times better. I’m not feeling mixed emotions at all anymore. I am absolutely convinced this was my best course of action.
Now, I know. If I just retired, and I feel this much relief, why am I here right now? Well, let me explain a few things. This was never a guaranteed permanent retirement. I like Tumblr too much to just say I’m never coming back. I’m convinced now that I will return. However, if I were to just come back now, I’d have the same problems. Struggling to get threads, having them get dropped, it doesn’t sound fun to me at all, and it will just stress me again.
So, I’ll definitely wait until S&M are closer. I predict the fandom will boom against before they’re out, and then I’ll be out
I’m basically doing a full restart. When I went for deltapaladin, I kept the age and all that. This will drop him back down to 17/18 age. Again, fresh out of the Champion position.
This will be ORAS, though as always I have no problem defaulting to another game.
The url will be rubylightsofgrandeur. BRAT MODE, the flamboyance, that will all be back. This blog will have a url change at that point, so the new blog will be fresh.
Scrapping how he was used by Dick and Power. I don’t need them.
I’m half tempted to change his name, but Brendan Levi Ramsey feels special to me.
All relationships will be dropped. All of them.
I don’t know what else. I just miss old Brendan. I want to recapture that. I know that things have changed. People left, the ones still around are different after three years. It’s sad that I can’t have them all back where they were, but I can accept that they are lost. I look forward to the new relationships. New partners. Maybe even some old partners. I’m excited to have this, and the wheels are spinning in a way they haven’t for over a year. This will be great! I’m so excited.
