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I just can’t imagine myself being with anyone else. It has to be you and me in the end.

(5:04pm)

“I hope we last. I hope we do. But if we don’t, this is how I want you to remember me: I want you to remember me curled up, listening to the sound of your heartbeat and tracing maps across your skin. Remember me laughing at your jokes, even the stupid ones. Remember me in hysterics for absolutely no reason and in tears because one time you made me so sad neither of us thought I’d recover. Remember me brave, that time you held my hand and I thought I was going to die; remember me scared and gentle and delicate and breakable - only for you though, only for you. Remember me happy, and all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention. Remember the way I was too stubborn to talk to you and how absolutely insane it drove the both of us. Remember all the firsts and how they were so delightful we went back for seconds and thirds and fourths. Remember the songs you couldn’t stop listening to and the childish dreams you allowed yourself about the future. If it’s any consolation I allowed myself to have them too. If it comes to it I don’t want you to remember the ending. Remember the beginning. Remember the first time you knew.

S.Z. // Excerpt from a book I’ll never write #132 (via blossomfully)

prozacace

“Sorry if i did anything stupid last night” - October 2, 2015 // 6:44 am “Even though i am intoxicated i meant everything i said” - October 25, 2015 // 12:11 am “But i just got with her cause i was mad about you” - October 25, 2015 // 12:24 am “Im going to fuck shit up if i go with you but thats all i want honestly” - October 25, 2015 // 12:50 am “Can i meet you somewhere” - December 4, 2015 // 7:11 pm “If you have a chance i would love to see you even if its just for a minute” - December 5, 2015 // 3:47 pm “Its weird not being with you” - December 5, 2015 // 7:19 pm “I have never met anyone like you” - December 6, 2015 // 10:29 pm “So you still want to date me even when you’re sober?” - December 9, 2015 // 9:25 pm “Babe please i need you” - December 11, 2015 // 11:45 pm “But i miss you so much you dont understand” - December 11, 2015 // 11:49 pm “Cassidy i need you” - December 12, 2015 // 12:00 am “Cassidy I feel like something’s wrong and I don’t know what it is, I hope we can get past whatever happened last night but if you don’t want to be with me please just tell me now” - December 13, 2015 // 10:07 pm “What do you mean i dont want anything other than you” - December 22, 2015 // 1:43 am “Please dont leave me like this” - December 22, 2015 // 2:05 am “I dont give a fuck what other people think, i want you and i think you feel the same, so fuck everyone else” - December 22, 2015 // 7:02 pm “You are one of the only people that i have really opened up to” - December 22, 2015 // 7:34 pm “I just want you here i miss you so much and i dont think i understood how much i like you until you left and since you have been gone nothing feels right and i just want you” - December 23, 2015 // 4:12 am “Dont make fun of me i miss you and you dont understand” - December 26, 2015 // 7:04 pm “No how could i be mad at you, you are my favorite person” - December 30, 2015 // 9:04 pm “Is he with you.” - December 31, 2015 // 8:02 pm “I just feel like you are going to get with him again and blame it on alcohol” “And im not ready for that” - December 31, 2015 // 8:06 pm “I don’t want to end this I just want to talk to you in person” - December 31, 2015 // 8:13 pm “I don’t remember what happened last night but whatever i did im sorry” “I just keep fucking everything up and im so sorry” “please talk to me” “Ok fine.” - January 1, 2016 // 2:21 pm – 3:34 pm “Are you sure you want to do this you seem really drunk” - January 1, 2016 // 11:04 pm “So you just hmu last night cause you were drunk and now you just don’t want to talk” - January 2, 2016 // 11:47 am “So this is goodbye i guess?” “Please don’t talk to me anymore” - January 2, 2016 // 12:00 pm - 12:04 pm “You hurt me worse than anyone else ever has and I just don’t know what to feel” - January 2, 2016 // 1:36 pm “Hey im sorry for everything i did” - January 14, 2016 // 8:02 pm “Do you still want us” “Cassidy” - January 22, 2016 // 11:51 pm “Why did you call me.” - March 5, 2016 // 11:11 am

our push and pull short-lived ‘romance’ (via prozangel)