Journey to a Better Me

This journey for fitness is something that I feel like I keep restarting over and over again.  That ends now. I will hold myself more accountable and be posting my results and work outs more often on here.  Hopefully that will really help me get on the path that I need to be on.

[runbecki]

Feels impossible

Every day of January I've worked out

I'm successfully finishing 2 weeks without carbs or added sugars

But I'm still not losing weight. I mean, I'll lose 2 pounds in a day, but it's back in a day or two. I have about 150 pounds I need to lose to even be healthy. I just feel like it's impossible. I have to give up on seeing food as something to enjoy. And all my free time can only go to working out. Even then, I don't know if that'll be enough.

I just don't think I'm strong enough to do this

[tschaikovsky]

[barelyup]

Oh my god ❤️

[lilbluemoo]

Absolutely love this

[toastbutteregg]

i feel so attacked rn

[bunnypets]

Sun Dried Tomato Chicken

[runbecki]

Been a couple weeks since a good workout.

And this one kicked my butt!

But it's good to be back to my fitness classes.

[positivedoodles]

Facebook / Twitter / Ko-fi / Buy the book

[Drawing of a pink cat and a blue cat under a purple blanket with a caption that says “I’m here for you if you need to talk. If you don’t feel like talking, but want company, then I’m here for that too. And if you’d prefer just having some space alone for a while, that’s okay too. I love you and I’ll help however I can.”]

[sam-ey]

Since we are so close to Halloween, here a goth Rose

[runbecki]

Day 1

What idiot starts a lifestyle of eating healthy during their period on a full moon? This kid.

Starting weight: 322.4 lbs

Goal weight: 175 lbs

I've got a long way to go, but I'm hoping I can do it. I'm just so tired of feeling like crap and hating myself.

[harmony-is-happiness]

[runbecki]

Restarting... again...

Be prepared for tons of updates with progress. And workouts. And yummy healthy foods.

[fit-fab-fun]

[sweetoothgirl]

matcha mint chip popsicles {vegan}

[runbecki]

Gonna need to try this

[alwaysbewoke]

[petitepointplace]

George Bain, (1881–1968), born in Scrabster in Caithness, Scotland, was an artist and art teacher who made an important and influential contribution to the revival of interest in Celtic and Insular art which began in the 19th century.

[runbecki]

Starting all over.... again

I'm trying to convince myself that it's ok to have to start again. You know, it's not how many times you fall, it's that you get back up and keep trying. But that's such a hard mindset to force.

I'm 27 and have spent at least the past 20 years knowing I'm fatter than those around me. That's 20 years of feeling like I'm trapped in a body that's a prison. 20 years of hating looking in the mirror, dreading doctor's visits, feeling ashamed doing anything related to food.

I built up a fun cycle over the years: ignore the problem (or at least pretend to), finally get tired of living like this and make a drastic change, make progress for a week, or a month, maybe even 2 months, then fall of the wagon, a little at first but feel like a failure and completely give up on everything health related, then start again.

I'm sure tons of people fall into that viscous cycle, but I'm trying again to break it! So wish me luck this time. I don't know how many more times I'll survive having to restart this...

[runbecki]

Getting back

So it's been approximately forever since I've used this tumblr. In that time, I've lost all progress made physically and gained back all weight lost. Stopped running. Sank into pretty deep depressions, screwed up finances, and just been a wreck.

But in getting my life back together. For the first time in over 2 years, I feel positive about my career choices and where I am. Like I'm making a difference without working myself to a complete emotional breaking point.

I've screwed up finances enough that I'm having to give up gym membership, but my job has fitness classes I'm going to. Plus I have coworkers going to help keep me accountable. And I'm too poor to eat out, so there's healthier eating.

[fatgirlgetsfitatlast]

Day 14 of the #FG365YOGA Challenge is Side Plank. 

For beginners who find this pose too difficult, there are a couple of options here which are a little easier than the straight leg version.  You are also welcome to do this pose on your elbow/forearm rather than straight arm. If you have wrist issues, you’ll want to take that option on this pose.