My Sweet Beau Lou, We Can’t Imagine Life Without You!
His dungarees, sweater and pacifier clip will be up on the site soon in my spring collection!
It's been months since I've blogged. I feel incredibly bad that I've been blogging here and there and I'm not as active with blogging as I'd like to be. As I've been gone I've had some amazing things in the working, taught my usual wellness + yoga classes, went on a healing journey, collected and made some new recipes and have had some time to actually spend with my family. It's been nice but this blog post isn't going to be about excusing the fact that I haven't blogged.
It’s all about this chubby unique little blessed one and his special eyes.
When Beau was around 3 months old like all babies, his eyes were going through color changes from a murky blue to a lighter blue and even darker. Our family and friends had bets on whether his eyes would be blue or green, I put in my bets for blue but never would I ever have guessed in such a way! Between 5 and 8 months old his eyes were changing again, getting darker like a brown and we were all pretty surprised since none of the kids nor Garrett or I have brown eyes. The only brown eyed person that we know of on either sides of our immediate family is Garrett’s estranged sister so it was even more of a surprise!
It was around this time that we knew that our tiniest cub started showing some sight problems when reaching for things or even leaning in to kiss him, after preforming some home tests I came to the conclusion that he is partially blind in his left eye, a devastation to some families but I truly believe that with all of the praying, meditating, healing and blessing that I had been doing throughout my entire pregnancy, I’d been given this little gift of a child who was partially blind to the real world because he was given insight into the astral world. Now, you can call me crazy, a nut bag or whatever you want but I can just feel the energy from this happy bubbly child!
I began insisting that his left eye was changing, it was different than the other one but no one would believe me and say that it was the position of light he was in or say that it’s all in my head and that I’m not seeing right but I just knew it, I did. One day when he woke up sometime last month his two supposedly ‘brown eyes’ had changed, the left eye had turned a majority of a blue shade. I shrieked when seeing him that morning in his crib, partly in disbelief and partly because I told EVERYONE so, I had to check him for a fever but nothing had been wrong, he was happy as ever that morning. I kissed his juicy cheek repeatedly and ran around the house with Beau in my arms showing everyone, especially those that doubted me that his eye was indeed different after all!!!!! Of course that parade was followed by grim looks and insisting that he needed to go to the hospital but no way would I go! He was and is absolutely fine but that didn’t stop those from saying
“Rebekkah he should go to emergency just to get checked out once”
“Let me guess, because once again you know him better than I do?” I said with a beaming smile on my face, proud of my dead-right mother’s intuition.
He’s been such a joy and an amazing baby to us, we couldn’t imagine life without him and it’s been only a year! He’s the most sweetest baby boy ever, he might be the slowest of our babies to crawl but that’s okay he can stay our baby! ♥
Hi everyone! I miss you all very very much, I’ve been on hiatus because I haven’t been able to get to my computer but I have been character building and roleplaying Bekkah in the discord MadreMag chat! It’s as fun as ever! I should be back soon and I have sooooo many new things it’s crazy haha.
I would love if you all could take a second to vote on what you think should happen next in their story/legacy as far as expanding goes (:
LINK TO POLL: https://twitter.com/rebekkahwolfe/status/967838315243126784
I am back with a very delicious and yummy recipe! It’s been so long since I’ve done any recipes and I miss sharing these yummy goodnesses with you all!! The kids have been infatuated with Christmas especially with it approaching so fast and they insist on doing everything Christmas related from baking to laying sheets outside for Santa’s sleigh to land to even going to bed early in case Santa decides to show up early. Soo, since I’ve been in the baking mood for the past few weeks I decided to perfect the gingerbread cookies since they were one of the kids favorites that they loved eating. I finally think I’ve got the hang of it and think it’s pretty darn good if you ask me! You can hardly tell they’re vegan but don’t tell your guests that (;
If you’re over in the MadreMag Chat then you know that I had a Christmas Party at one of The Together Store locations and invited everyone to come out and join us! I sent these recipes home as gifts and think they did pretty well. The party was super amazing and we had more people turn up than I imagined! It was super fun to finally meet some of you in person and try your vegan dishes that you brought!! Hopefully we can do it again soon! If you’re not in the MadreMag Chit Chat then you’d best get your tooshie in there, it’s very lively!
Anyhow, the recipes are up to buy over @ The Together Store and are my first things in my MANY things to come on the store!
The house was quiet and free of noise, something rare in our home. I was finishing up in the kitchen drying away the lunch dishes, hearing nothing aside my own humming and the gentle clink clink of the dishes that I put away. Garrett had the day off and decided to spend the day at home with the kids and I, not realizing that today was the day that the house would be empty. Liam, Aoife, Apple, Oak & Sunshine were off doing schooling with one of the parents doing co-op since today was her day to teach math and english lessons. Zef and Oisin were out with friends, invited to a just for fun hockey game. That left Beau and I along with my lovely husband..
I walked into the livingroom after I was all done to see my two handsome sweetest loves on the couch sunken into a deep nap. It looked so cozy, made me want almost jump in but I thought it would’ve made a better photo and memory instead haha. The second I took the photo, it made me think about how much it takes to make a marriage work through the good and the bad, parent 8 children from newborn into adulthood (and try to survive it through other people telling you how to raise your children!), work all day and night to provide for your family who don’t seem to have any idea how tiresome that is, just to see the smiles on their faces, to manage (or at least half assed) having friendships and still somehow manage to make 5 minutes of alone time for yourself.
We do all of these things and still find our way back to each other in the evening of the night to hold each other and relight the torch to make it burn stronger, as we whisper sweet nothings into one anothers ear. Garrett stands in the sun all day long, on the roads driving to all different kinds of places yet he always finds his way back to the kids and I. I feel like I don’t really appreciate him as much as I should on the blog! He’s everything I pray for!
Take time out and thank yourself, treat yourself and/or your significant other! Your family can’t do it without you and nobody can do it better for your family than YOU! Remember that ♥ I have a recipe post coming up very soon that I think you’ll all enjoy lots!
Hope your winter is going well!
Fashion Finds:
Beau’s onesie is from Sew Obsessed over at the together store premium
I’ve always been naive when it comes to the kids making friends since we’ve moved around so much, always assuming that they’d make new friends and they’d adjust as I did. I didn’t really take into mind that the difference between the kids making friends and myself making friends is that I have the internet, can use it and know how to navigate it, versus the kids, they have no technology in their lives and rely on their friends that they meet to make memories. Well sure, they have family and what not but friendships that will last a life time, friends that you can call family are just as important. I’ve realized this just recently when a lightbulb hit me as I was sitting on the couch watching Aoife and her best friend Yumi (VIA: @tinybigdreams) playing dolls all over the house. They’ve known each other since they were 3 years old by some miraculous fate of her mother, Sayoko and I meeting through the internet on these blogs and chatting about t woes of parenting. 5 Years later now here they are, the bestest of friends with a lifetime of memories ahead of them.
Settling here in California is probably the best move I’ve made for my children and myself. They’re all sprouting new friendships and we actually have a place to call home forever. It warms my heart into a soft gooey cinnamon roll!! Hahaha. Oh look at my precious Beauie! He’s getting so big it breaks my heart, Aoife loves to play dolls and use Beau as her own doll, it’s the cutest!
Fashion :
Aoife’s Dress is from this sweet woman, Debora’s Store
Aoife’s Headband is made by me, over at Mother’s Nature
Beau’s Onesie is bought from the one an only, Little Sprouts
Oh my dear tiniest love was only 5 weeks old and just the sweetest as can be! It’s utterly adorable watching those little eyes try their hardest to focus with his newborn vision. Babies are so smart, they can smell when mama isn’t near by, assuming it’s the breast-milk scent, and it’s so precious.. even if you are right in the other room. He’s growing stronger and chubbier by the day, helping my body to heal as I am helping his to grow strong and tall with my milk.
Freshly bathed and lathered in some lavender essential oils, the boys laid on the floor just bonding and Oak reached over and started touching his little brother’s face and cheeks and whispered “You’re my baby bother, I’ll protec you” (brother, protect but with his little toddler accent haha). Talk about heart-melt!!! The kids love him so much, although Oak and Aoife definitely are his number 1 fans.
Goodness I just love my kiddos so much! Life has been very hectic with school starting for the kids and trying to get something very exciting ready for you all! If you want a post about the kids schooling just let me know! Until then, I’m playing catch up on photos.
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I took a long break from blogging to get my mind, body and spirit back into sync. Having our little Beau took alot from me and I really needed to focus on making myself better. My body snapped back almost instantly after Beau arrived, as I was mostly made up of stomach, but I wasn't happy with how stretched out my stomach was afterwards. I will be truthful, it sagged like a flat inflated balloon from how much I was stretched out! My breasts had gotten bigger from the mosquito bites that they were but those sagged as well, everything was sagging and so was my self esteem. Why was I feeling down? Our bodies as women are supposed to go through these changes and during the ancient times, were worshiped for our bodily imperfections based on the simple fact that we gave birth and created the population that exists. Yet, we can be so ashamed of ourselves and how it makes our bodies look after we give life to a human being. I had to inform myself and meditate to rehabilitate myself back into my conscious mind-state that I am not doing anything to please another person and that I should not and do not care how people look at my body or perceive me to be. I am a life-giver by birth right and am stronger than the negative thoughts that linger. This strengthened me, made me more aware and determined to stay strong and care for my body in the way that I wanted.
Garrett, my dear husband, motivated me not to give up and started me off with the basics of his morning daily routine of jogging at 5 am in the morning. When I first started running, I only made it to the end of the driveway before feeling as if I was slipping into a heart attack. It was brutal for the first two weeks but slowly became easier and more bearable for me. I exercised without a single man-made exercising machine in the comfort of the forest trail near by and the backyard at home. I felt so hopeless, I looked into the mirror everyday and didn’t see any progress until Garrett took a photo of my body and compared it with a photo that was taken just a week before my wellness journey and sure enough I seen it! All my blood, sweat and tears of hard work! Slowly but surely I noticed differences and I felt so amazing. They were only minor differences but I did it! I was toning my body and firming up. During the summer we started going as a family out into the scorching heat and running our butts off, it motivated me further. Who knew? My cooky-rambunctious family would empower me further.
I cut the length of my hair, my sweet Apple and I. As a representation that regardless of how I end up, like hair, I can always grow back to the strong individual that I am.
And so can you!
I’ve missed you all! So many photos to catch up on and blog posts so expect Wolfè spam!
(Hi there favorites! I’ve been a bit .. okay a whole lot inactive because I am in the process of moving in real life! So things are getting hectic but I promise that I intend to return in no time, hopefully in a few weeks and I shall be back to regular posts and I’ll leave off where I was, Beau being 3 months old and then I will just have to play catch up!)
Hi Rebekkah :) I'm so glad you're back and ok! Beau has grown so much! :O He's still so very precious though! *.* I would totally steal him :D Can't wait to read more about you and your beautiful family! :* All the best! <3 - Hanna :)
Hi there Hanna! Such a pretty name. Thank you so much for the compliments and best wishes, Beau has the cutest little grin ever is and is growing so fast, it’s so saddening how fast babies grow I wish I could keep him a newborn forever!! I’m so excited to post more for you all to ready about! Just hold on tight it’s coming I promise ♥
Hey everyone! I hope you’ve missed us because we’re back! I had to take these last weeks to open my eyes and realize that I needed another break away from the social media scene. I was becoming way to much invested in focusing more on the drama that went into blogging, that I hadn’t realized I had a newborn baby and an entire family that needed me the most so I escaped while giving my body and mind a chance to heal from the material addictions as well as the birth journey.
I am fully healed and returning to blog, not for the drama or negativity that seek out to destroy positive energy, but for our loyal readers and blog viewers that I feel are family, so thank you!
During my time away, Aoife had her 8th birthday celebrating her days on earth, all she wanted for her birthday was a big bowl of coconut ice cream (I’ll be sharing this recipe!) and her best friend Yumi. It really was a sweet day to celebrate. Baby Beau went from 2 weeks old to 3 months old! Those are picture from 2 weeks at the top and 3 months at the bottom! I have some photos to show you all that I’ve captured. I’m editing a lot of them as we speak though I don’t know if I should post them all in one post as a throwback or blog about them! Let me know what you all think, just comment or send anons to me! I’m just so excited to share with you all, what we’ve been up to. I also still have my picture of my placenta and the post partum belly that I plan on talking about and how I stay secure despite my new tummy look.
Wa-Wait... what?... Are you seeing things right? A family photo?..ALL of the Wolfès in one picture?..
Haha, don’t worry.. the world is not ending right now.. though I’ll admit it did feel like it, just to capture this photo! This Easter was a pretty big deal for us this year, being that Beau was born, Jozef is back home, my mother had just been in town and there were soo many caring neighbors, friends and folks of the community that had been sweetly curious as to how we have been doing and things like that! Garrett and I decided that we’d take a family photo, afterall it was the perfect chance right? So I thought..
The night before I always cook our Easter dinner so that way when we come home after attending Easter church service, where they had service followed by a play and an Easter egg hunt, we could come home later in the evening and strip down to our comfy clothes (or stay in our fancy clothes, depending on the mood) and dig in to eat! I’m known for my pies generally so I made a few Apple Tart pies to take to church, give to a few people and then one for us at home. The food preparations were all set and ready to go and all we had to do was get dressed and rock the day! I was so excited and set, you have no clue, I had made sure everyone’s clothes were out. I bought a new Easter dress and matching clothes for us all.
The next morning was way more hectic than I had imagined. I timed everything all wrong, church started at 10am in the morning so I thought that if we woke up at 7:30am we’d be on-time since everyone had baths and showers the night before plus their hair all washed, clothes out as well. Oh boy, was I wrong.. We actually should have woken up at 6am on the dot and we possibly could’ve been walking through the doors at 10am.. or 10:15am.
I woke up and the house was so noisy, everyone talking loudly, laughter roaring through our hollow built house.. I could hear pots and pans banging together in the kitchen. What time was it? I had to check my clock, the sunlight was greatly shining it’s beautiful morning rays into the bedroom and the bed was empty besides the baby who was still somehow fast asleep through all of this madness. I had to check if he was breathing, a habit of mine, and then woke him up to get fed and changed as I looked over at the clock on the sideboard, still groggy from general tiredness and wiped my eyes out to re-read that again. 8:58am?! Ohhh no no noo, that’s crazy! I wouldn’t have time to make breakfast, brush my teeth, brush the littles’ teeth, comb my hair and the kids’, and get us all dressed and sitting in church by 10am! Argh, optimistic Rebekkah, stay optimistic. Right, I told myself I had this under control.
9:03am and a cranky baby who was woken up. Oh my goodness, move your tush!!
I slid out of bed in a long grey tshirt that belonged to my husband and looked down at myself, my breast area was all wet and soaked from going too long without feeding Beau, who has a mean sleep game and could sleep a whole day without waking to eat at all. Ugh, I was getting annoyed already at the fact that the house was awake like it was nearly lunch time and no one decided to wake me on the one day that I was speaking of all week long..(queue the stare at my soaked shirt).. not even the baby.
Time to get to business.
I pulled the shirt off and lifted the fussy baby onto my breast, grabbed my life-saving Solly Baby Wrap, put it on and snuck into the bathroom to brush my teeth, wash my face and attempt my hair all the while breastfeeding before I was whirled into whatever mess they’d made of my lovely house.
I did as much as I possibly could for my hair and ‘makeup’ in such a small time frame, if you consider just a bit of eye makeup something, I went back into the bedroom to put on a little house dress and carried Beau into the front of the house with me where I couldn’t believe my eyes at what I saw; Oisin and Jozef sitting on the couch laid back in their pjs laughing and talking while waving their hands about, the back door wide open and Apple, Oak and Sunshine were out in the backyard playing in mud which I knew by the muddy footprints on the patio, Aoife playing with her baby doll and changing it’s diaper, Liam and Garrett were no where to be found and the kitchen was a mess that looked like it was half-ass cleaned. I looked up at the stove. 9:32am.
“WHAT on EARTH is going on?!” I said in a fuming voice.
It took us about an hour and a half to get ready and into the car. The triplets had to take baths all over again, Garrett and Liam went out to get a fresh fruit salad... a fruit salad?! Forget breakfast at this point, I was full on agitation and felt like no one was helping to be productive. I think Zef took notice, he helped get the triplet bathed and into clothes (though not without a few tantrums from Apple) while Garrett and Liam showered from their run. I quickly put up the girls’ hair and combed through Liam’s and Oak’s. After quickly assuring that everyone looked at least semi-decent and putting the baby in his carseat, we piled into the SUV and off to church we went. It was 11:15am by the time we walked into the church doors, it was so crowded and there were people standing up to see the tail end of the play. We snuck into the back hoping that no one would notice us but we pretty much stood out and Sunshine was crying because she dropped a little flower she was holding but to be honest, the kids were all just hungry and we just had no time. It was all over within a few minutes and then the Easter egg hunt started and I had no choice but to allow them to eat a few of the treats in the egg because they hadn’t really eaten anything.
Later we walked up to the poppyfields that weren’t far from the church at all, with the tripod and camera to take some photos. Garrett insisted that we use a tripod instead of asking someone else to take them. It took sooo many tries to get one alright looking picture because it was either, no one looking at the camera, someone blinking, crying, talking, playing or all of the above. We were all hot and hungry so we grabbed a few more shots as best as we could and called it quits! Went home and ate every last bit of the food that I cooked up.
This week went by soo fast in this household! I thought I’d be able to get this post up on Monday but I got so caught up. I have a few posts to get up so don’t worry after this post I’m going to be making a post about what we’ve been up to and the story on how the kids reacted meeting their baby brother, whom I can’t believe is a month old! 4 weeks!
Where do Beau and the triplets get their red hair from? they are all so beautiful.
Hi there! Their father has ginger hair (though it’s fading and greying now) but Beau’s hair looks like it could go both ways right now, blonde or ginger! Thank you so so much ♥
