TinyBigdreams

WELCOME Sayoko Akiko-Takahashi Sakuri is a designer and blogger, specializing in strategic marketing and branding, and is a co-founder of The Together Store and editor of Madre Mag. She lives with her husband and three children in San Luis Obispo, California.

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Hello... To Our Dear Friend Moo

  I want to lie and say I’m still here... but I’m not. I want to feel entirely guilty for abandoning the parenting community but I don’t. I want to say that I miss... this... but again, I don’t. I’ve been away for a while and there have been some changes within this community and within my household. As you can see this picture is very old, old enough to show my then 1 almost 2-month-old daughter, Toto, in her bouncer and our beloved cat, Moo, who passed away in early June.

  This year has been so beautiful and this life has been so beautiful yet so cruel. The night our 14-year-old cat had passed away I spent hours in bed with my preteenage daughter, cradling her and crying with her, trying to explain to her that he’s no longer suffering. Nothing feels worse than hearing your child say “Mama my heart hurts! I can’t explain it but my heart hurts really bad!” as my other child is lying on the floor, asleep, from crying himself to sleep. I have been told that “He’s just a cat, you can always get another” but that’s just a simple lie. Moo wasn’t just a cat. He’s our family. He was Yumi’s best friend and grew up with her as well as my other two children.

Although it was just 3 months ago my heart still aches thinking about him and I find myself questioning the laws of nature asking “Why?”. Laying in bed at night with my three children I hold in my tears as we sing songs or tell stories as a family about our dear friend Moo. We laugh, we cry, and we pray which Yoshi likes to call it “Sending our spiritual letters to him”, then we sleep. It wasn’t until last night that Yumi suggested “Mama! Why don’t you write about him on your blog?!”, that made me realize she was right. He deserves it, and so do my children. Yumi and Yoshi wrote a few poems for him so i’ll close the post out with just that.

Poems To Our Dear Friend Moo:

From Yumi: “I love you with all my heart. You were my baby and my friend, you were always there for me to protect me and hug me when I was sad. You looked out for me and made me feel safe when I thought there were monsters under my bed as a kid but it was just you and that made me feel safe. Now that I’m all grown up and you’re not here anymore mama said you’re going to look out for us and make sure there are no bad guys near. I’ll still visit your permanent resting home at the top of the mountain every week or maybe even every day if mama lets me! And I have a perfect place dedicated to you in my room with your collar, flowers, and name on it! And as long as I live I’ll never let that flower die as a symbol of your love and life. From YOUR dear friend, Yumi Sakuri.”

From Yoshi: “Your my friend! I love you forever ever ever and ever. Don’t forget me while you're in the spiritual world!” (Disclaimer: He said more but I couldn't understand his writing.)

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BORN BEAUTY

Oh, dear friends how I missed you. I’ve been working on a huge project for all of you expecting mothers or moms who are struggling to keep up with their postpartum belly care... Although this is a promo, it’s also the reason why I have been MIA for the past year or so. Please, once again, forgive me for my absence. This is the part where I ask for your forgiveness and swears that I’ll be back to my regular posting schedule. Sound familiar?

Let’s talk about BORN beauty. Obviously, I had a baby last year on April first that happened to be a preemie. Between the sleepless nights, hours at the hospital consulting with doctors, school drop-offs, dealing with the store and legal issues, as well as moving into our new beloved home, it was hard for me to keep up with myself. Of course, giving life to a new being means giving up your body, for better or for worse, so it came to no surprise to me when I started getting stretch marks after my pregnancy. 

The idea of BORN came to me when I was pregnant. It was originally going to be a face mask that hydrates your skin, keeping wrinkles away, minimizing your pores and dark spots. Although that aspect of it remains, I decided to do something new and go with a belly mask after my interesting pregnancy journey. When I started getting brand new stretch marks on my belly, I realized I needed to take better care of myself while at the same time juggling with the notorious mom life. I needed a miracle that would focus on getting rid of stretch marks, irritation, dryness, and that would leave my skin feeling smooth, and soft. I needed something that would hydrate my skin and have myself feeling like I didn’t give birth that month. 

That’s when it hit... Yoshi’s toy came flying full force into the back of my head and he was put into three dreadful hours of timeout. Later that night getting ready for bed and doing my regular beauty routine, as I was putting cocoa butter on my belly, and, testing out a BORN face mask, I thought of it. “Why don’t I make a belly mask that targets the things that every expecting mother is looking for?!”. That morning I got to work and was about as busy as ever for the past couple of months. When I finally got the perfect mix of the ingredients that I knew I needed for soft, glowing, healthy skin, I decided to send it out for a test run on several different skin types.

Every single one of the individuals that tried out my belly mask, gave me their full, real, and truthful reviews. They told me that their skin was left feeling VERY hydrated, soft, and that if they had any scars or stretch marks on their stomach they noticed that they were gone within 2-3 weeks (depending on the skin type). I received an email just the other day from a friend who had taken before and after pictures of her using the product right after she had given a cesarean birth. The results are AMAZING! Her stretch marks were gone and skin was just left flawless. I realized my goal was completed and it was time to talk about this soon to be in stores product. 

The picture above is much old, my dear friend, Raven, who is just the sweetest soul, has had her baby boy, Ziggy, already. In fact, she was one of the many mothers that tried out the belly mask and swears by it herself. She was so happy to be apart of this review photo for BORN that she told me, “Sayoko, can you rate this a 5/5 for me in your post? I would do it, but I do not have a blog... unless facebook counts?”... Bahaha, oh I love her. That being said, here are our nonbiased reviews: 

Raven - ★★★★★

Myself - ★★★★★

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BITS + PIECES

Hello... It’s been a little too quiet over here. There’s a lot that’s been happening this past year in my world at the moment which leaves me to have not a whole lot of free time for me to share in this space. What I did do is manage, however, to take a couple of photos of a few things. 

1. Lovely photo that represents our family that my friend painted for me! 2. Yoshi and Polly sleeping on the bed while the sheets are being cleaned. 3. They’re literally the bestest of friends; working on a post about that actually. 4. Yoshi had his first haircut for his pre-birthday week. 5. He turned into Jaws and his teeth are coming in SUPER fast.

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TEN THINGS 

1. It’s extremely hot here in California this past week, check out this delicious DIY frozen treat!

2. Fono & Serafina Inapark.Drunk.

3. Recently bought these sandals for Yumi and she has been living in them — major Fono vibes.

4. Check out this amazing video by Kamasi Washington on discovering harmony in difference.

5. Looking forward to recreating this killer spicy tomato soup & everything biscuits from Sarah Waldman.

6. Visiting San Luis Obispo soon? Here’s what to do while you’re out here according to Condé Nast Traveler.

7. Next on my book list: South and West: From a Notebook.

8. Stoked to try this tinted skin moisturizer I picked up. I’ve heard nothing but good things!

9. Scenes from this year’s March for Science in Washington, D.C.

10. I’ll take one of each, please.

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WE’RE STILL HERE

Hey there! I know I haven’t been active lately (what’s new?) but life with three children has been very exhausting. Managing school pick ups and drop offs along with work... I haven’t even had time to brush my own teeth in the mornings. To the parents that have over 4 children and working, I give you props. I honestly don’t know how you do it!

Anyways, there’s a little update: Toto is now 5 weeks old, going to do a post about that soon already took the photos so yay! Yoshi is now speaking almost fluent English (We’ve been struggling with him learning it for the longest) and oh my gosh, does he not stop talking? He’s also 18 months aka still one. I get questions asking if he’s 2 but he’s not... He should be if his birthday wasn’t so late in the year but nope, he isn’t. Still, can’t believe he was born in 2015, it feels like just yesterday. Yumi is doing great, she’s on the honor roll in her class and the teachers are trying to get me to let her skip a grade but we’re still unsure about that. We’re also signing her up for swim again, yay!

Everything is going smoothly, no more every other day doctor visits for Toto (blame insurance.), ah anyways, it’s snack time for the little ones so time to cut this post short. Until next time!

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TOTO’S BIRTH STORY

I keep telling myself that I’d write a birth story, and right now I’m debating if I should or turn this post talking about our day... 

I’ve made up my mind, a birth story it is.

A while back I had to “take a break” from pretty much everything because the doctor said that I was putting my body through a lot of stress which was why I’ve been MIA from any social media and work for a long while, but of course being that it was me, I disobeyed that order and called myself trying to get a “little something” done so that I can have income and not rely on Kohaku’s money for the family. Although I was on maternity leave and was receiving my maternity check, I felt like I needed to make more for saving and etc. That did not turn out how I anticipated it to be. 

A week before I had to go through an emergency c-section, which was my last hospital check-up, I was informed that I had been (against my will) scheduled for a c-section not more than two days after my due date, (what the hell right?!) and that I was told that my baby was in a posterior position which apparently “Isn’t good" and that it would “most likely end up with me needing a c-section anyways" (another what the hell, right?! moment) but despite the odds and me being terrified out of my mind, I managed to embrace the weekend which was all about being together as a family.

A week later, April 1st at 2:30 pm, I was having some unusual contraction like pains, I was bleeding more than I normally do, having crampings in my uterus and I was afraid that I was losing her or having a stillbirth. We managed to get the kids half packed and into the car and rushed to the hospital dropping me off at emergency then later having Kohaku’s parents meeting us up there to take the kids off our hands. It was a semi-long wait until we got to see a doctor but the nurses were kind and hooked me up with my own waiting room and made me as comfortable as possible. They gave me medication to help me with the pain (nothing serious, literally some pain killers), hubbs sat with me throughout the wait in the room reassuring me that everything was going to be fine. 

He even managed to get me to play a joke on my friends since it was April fools, that I was going into labor. At first, I was mad at him telling him how that wasn’t funny (even though I played the same trick on him that morning) eventually I gave in and did it. Buy joke was on us, because 15 minutes later after a few diagnosis test the hospital doctor came back to tell me that I had a placental abruption where the placenta detached itself from my uterus along with the baby being in a posterior position and in distress. As soon as I heard that I started panicking because I just knew none of that was good. The doctor told me that they needed to perform an emergency c-section on me that day or I could lose the baby.

That being said, I swallowed my pride and did what I had to do (preparing myself mentally) and got ready for the c-section. At this point everything started happening so fast, we called our friends and family members telling them that this was no joke and that everything is happening right now along with keeping us in their prayers. By the time I got all the texting and phone calls and crying over, I got a knock on the door by my lovely Doc saying it was show time. I was prepared to feel them cut me open and my organs be exposed to the open air, but, honestly, I did not feel a thing. Just my husband holding my hand and kissing my forehead telling me everything is fine and was going to be over soon.

He didn’t lie before I knew it I heard someone yelling the time, a bunch of commotion, then seeing the doctors holding her in the air and another cutting her umbilical cord. Throughout all the noise, I couldn't dictate the sound of my baby girl crying, so I cried instead. Not knowing what happened or if she was okay. A part of me felt like I failed as a mother for not bringing a healthy baby into this world, or doing what I can, what my body was supposed to do, to make sure she was safe in my womb and perfectly fine when she came out. My husband saw me crying and wondered off to see if she was okay, of course, they denied him access to follow them though. It was messy, I have to say. 

After getting me all stitched up and into a room ( I was DRAINED by then and the pain killers were wearing off) the doctors finally came in to tell us that she wasn’t responding when they had taken her away, but they finally got her to respond and she’s doing a lot better than she was before. They offered to take us to see her and of course, we went. She was in her incubator with tubes connected to every inch of her tiny body. She was weighing 4lb & 4oz, god she was... Still is so tiny.

I didn’t want to document or take pictures and plaster her all over social media with her being connected to all that machinery, so I just simply uploaded one photo that hubs took and uploaded it, announcing that she born and to keep us in your prayers... And I thank you, once again, for all of your well wishes. It truly means a lot. Baby girl had a great recovery, not only that (but thanks to my shitty insurance) she got to come home within a week. I’m missing details, no? Well, I have a newborn to tend to who is screaming in her crib right now, so excuse me making this short or any misspelling, for I don’t have the time or energy to proof read. 

Scrapbook Memory:

April.1.2017 - 10:20 pm.

Toto Yota Sakuri • 4lbs 4oz •

Born at 32 weeks.

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HOME SWEET HOME

After a very long wait, we finally got to bring our precious bear cub home!!!  Our littlest tribe member, the sweetest soul we’ve always known was deep down still out there just waiting to make us a family of five and be a part of our tribe... She arrived via c-section (that’s a whole other story for another post) on Saturday evening April 1st,  after her long and unpredictable journey earthbound, but is in excellent health and as am I, basking in the newly found joys of being a family of five.  

I’d like to welcome Toto Yota Sakuri

It’s truly the sweetest thing to have a newborn in the house again, everyone is in Awe. I took some time from here to try and get prepared and enjoy the slow pace of the first few weeks in which time takes on a whole new dimension, to heal and to get to know the tiny person who we now proudly call ''one of our own''... P.S. I wanted to thank you for the many messages and well wishes you have been sending to me and my family this past week,  It has been an amazing feeling to be loved by such a warm and caring community throughout this amazing journey, and I truly mean it when I say I want to send my love back to each and every one of you.

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Jokes on me. 

I’ve been playing a lot since yesterday was April fools day. Saying she was here, saying I was going into labor when I really wasn’t (even though I was having terrible contractions)... Well, sure enough at 10:20 pm, April 1st, our beautiful baby girl has arrived. Unfortunately, she decided that it was time to come out a bit too early and she was announced a preemie. 

Earlier today, I went in because something didn't feel right, I was too far away from home to go to my "usual" doctors since we were running errands all day: they told me that the previous doctor I was going to got my due date all wrong and I was actually 32 weeks (It was kind of suspicious how they kept skipping me almost every other week/month)... Ah, let me save all the details for the delivery story...

I just wanted to let everyone know that she is here and so far she is doing fine "for a preemie"- Doctors words... Although I am still very nervous since I've had all healthy pregnancies (and babies) that went all to full term. Anyways, please keep us in your prayers and I will be back to update as soon as possible! - Sayoko

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YOSH-ICORN

Hey, everyone, we’re alive... I’m alive... I had to take a break from a few social sites and work altogether because I had to go to the hospital for stressing out too much and putting the baby in risky place. I’m feeling better, and the baby is feeling better, we’re all doing fine now! I’ve been meaning to make a post with these photos for a while but boy did I not have the time. This was taken back in... Late February? (Yeah, I know, I'm slacking) glad to be back! 

I love to embrace the time I have with my only baby boy Yoshi, while I can, and before we’re a family of five, yes, five. So scary and crazy, time is just flying by and I just want it to slow down. When Yumi is at school and Hubbs is at work, Yoshi and I have our special bonding time. Which consist of adventures in our yard, walking around the neighborhood, working, or even cleaning the house... Simple but meaningful things to us. We both take naps around the same time especially now that I'm pregnant or maybe one of us wakes up before the other. 

We talk in Japanese to each other, although I try to get him to speak simlish, we dance, we play, we talk, or we help one another. It’s important to teach and do these things with your child, it’s important that I do this with him even though he’s only one and may not remember. It’s probably more important for me than it is for him. I love to watch him adventure around in the background, it’s so interesting. He get’s into everything and discovers new things and when he does he always goes “Oka! Wha dis?!” in a whispery yet high pitch voice ( Okaasan means mother in Japanese but he’s struggling with words! Haha!)  as he points to what he wants to know. It’s the cutest thing. 

What’s even cuter? I managed to squeeze Little Sprout's unicorn sock bonnet on him and he loves it. Who doesn’t love a unicorn toddler? Usually, with other bonnet brands, we have a tough time getting them around his juicy cheeks, but with Little Sprout’s bonnets, they go onto his head comfortably! We adore it! It’s coming to their store soon and we’re excited to see other unicorn buddies! 

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DISCOVERY ADVENTURES

We had a good day during valentines day, did I forget to mention that I broke my camera a while back? Well yeah, that happened, Yumi left it on the floor which means Polly got a hold of it and threw it in her water bowl. Don’t worry, she’s totally fine and did not swallow any small nor large pieces. While Kohaku was at work a package came in the mail and it was a Canon Mark III camera! I was too happy that I called him asap, while he was at work and we ended up having a super long conversation that he ended up missing a few business calls. The things, this man does for me is too much.

Yumi was at school but I got a call from the principal saying she was at the nurses' office because she was feeling a bit ill and vomited on a few students. Our valentines day plans kind of got canceled because the willing babysitter refused to watch them if she had a cold. It was fine, I never sent them to a babysitter anyway. So we stayed home and had valentines day together as a family. We even went on adventures to some of our old hangout spots and ventured off to new horizons! ♥

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POSITIVE BODY + POSITIVE REVIEW ★ ★ ★ ★★ + FITNESS PROGRAM

I just want to start off by saying how much I love this tea, not only because it was made by a really good friend of mine, but because it’s just absolutely the best. Not only is this tea safe for the whole family, it also carries a lot of vitamins such vitamin A & C, which purifies the blood by detoxifying the body of toxins and weight loss. Yup. So if you have a picky eater on your hands then this is %100 “sprinkle in their food without them looking” safe. Can we take a minute to talk about how this product packaging is eco-friendly? We planted our bag in our garden when we were done. You know if a product is eco-friendly then you’re doing something right in the world, honestly, how often are you able to plant your tea packing into the ground? Ha- Never!

I’ve gained a lot of weight during this pregnancy which made me super insecure about little things such as being able to get rid of all this baby fat without intoxicating myself with all these random teas that claim to do the trick (of course I'm talking about when the baby arrives). Positive Body works like a charm. I never blog about my personal problems and the “minor” issues that I'm facing so I was eager to hop on the internet and do a review because my friend made it, that I forgot that I needed to do a review about the actual product for people who are going through similar issues like me.

My husband and I did a 20-day trial and it’s safe to say that this is the real deal. I know you can’t see it, but I actually lost a few pounds by eating and drinking healthy followed by working out every other day. Speaking of working out; I decided to start a pregnancy (soon to be fitness) program which will be designed for women who want to stay in shape while pregnant. A lot of women think that it’s “impossible” or “extra tiring” to keep their body in shape while carrying a baby, but I'm here to tell you that it’s not... Okay, it is. I won’t lie to you, the first couple of days you’ll want to give up. But with a strong mind, you can do it, if you can deliver a baby, then you can do this. Once the first couple of days past then everything just happens like a breeze.

I’m not sure if I could’ve done it without my Positive Body Skinny Dippin’ tea, though. It helped me keep my blood clean and my eating clean. I suggest you run over to Positive Body to grab yourself a bag before it runs out of stock!

P.S. I give this product a full 5 stars  ★ ★ ★ ★★ 

I will be posting more about the program, there won’t only just be a pregnancy program, I'm also working on a few more! Be sure to check back here tomorrow for more updates about it!

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IT’S BEEN QUITE LATELY...

Hey guys, sorry I haven’t blogging as much... Well, that’s normal. Not just blogging but working on things for the shop, and such. It’s been quiet and busy on this end. We haven’t gotten the internet situation figured out yet in the new house, so it’s been hard to post lately. You haven’t missed much of our life, I promise you. The only interesting thing was finding out the baby’s sex and doing a gender reveal.

Little bug is very active and I'm measuring at 26 weeks, although I'm actually 24 weeks as of today. My midwife has pushed my due date closer so the baby will be born on May 9th instead of the 24th. Super exciting. It’s hard to talk about the baby without saying he or she and ruining the surprise for everyone. Bummer. Hey, I want to know everyone’s opinion on what you think we’re going to be having (it’s not twins, I promise). Are you team boy, or team girl? Comment below! Winner get’s a few goodies!

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BITS & PIECES

1. On my nightstand.

2. Green park grass, it looks like spring is near.

3. Adult naps: not really tired but just in bed anyways.

4. Pants by @spectacledchic.

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WORN / NEW THINGS

Some recent photo’s taken of us by my lovely Husband.  Worn /Me: HomeGrown Ribbed Sleeve Top, HomeGrowns Rolla Trade Overalls (in maternity).  Yumi: Was actually a cute little dress we got at the thrift store in Australia. ((it’s an EA dress that came with an EP))

I believed I mentioned in one of my recent posts that we had to cut the trip short due to my surprise pregnancy, and you probably can’t imagine what that must’ve been like for us since we sold our home followed by our house hunting history. Well, it was better than I could’ve imagined it. Our little trip lead us to California which we fell instantly in love with this little city called, San Luis Obispo. It was perfect to all of us and since we were already homeless we decided on the thought of living here. Well, one thing lead to another and we actually began going house hunting.

It wasn’t long before we both found homes not too far away from each other, in fact, the real estate part was a breeze. It went so smoothly that I thought it was a dream and the house we got... Better yet, the neighborhood we’re in is just perfect. Everything is really just perfect. I haven’t been this happy or excited about moving in such a long time. We’ve moved so much already with Yumi that I'm finally happy to just settle down, for good. The school districts are great and we’re so close to our friend's house! Yumi is so excited and is already thinking about what the future holds for her and her best friend Aoife.

We started buying things and decorating the house already and we managed to get all, yes I repeat ALL the upstairs bedroom finished and even got the kitchen done within 4 days. It was stressful, fun, and exhausting but we’ve made it! Just a few days ago we were at the pet store getting catnip, cat beds, and etc for Moo when Hubbs and Yumi fell in love with this pug puppy that was up for adoption there. He was pretty cute if I say so myself, I guess that’s why they insisted on bringing him home. I had to kindly decline this offer since we already have a cat and a baby on the way. I don’t think I would’ve been able to handle a puppy.

We went home with no puppy and a bunch of kitty products. By the time we got home it was pretty late and I was too tired to cook so I asked my husband to go out and get food and he agreed. The kids went with him so I had some alone time to tidy up a bit. When they came home Yumi was running towards me saying “MOMMA MOMMA MOMMA LOOK!!!” and I looked and it was this pretty big dog. I’m not going to lie, I got frightened and held Yumi close as if the dog was about to eat her or something. Yumi pulled away and said “No... It’s okay, she doesn’t bite momma! See look!” and she swung her little arms around the dog's neck giving her a tight hug.

I stared at them before whispering to Kohaku about how I told him not to get a dog and he said “We didn’t get a dog babe... We found her... Kind of like she got us.”.. I insisted on them taking her back where they found her, but they begged me and Yumi went on and on and on dramatically about how she’ll “JUST DIE!” out there alone. So I said fine, keep her outside in the backyard until morning. We did just that. Except for long story short, the little sucker made me fall in love with herself by being so sweet to me and my babies that I agreed to keep her. Yumi wants’s to call her Polly, and Hubbs doesn’t agree. But “Polly” LOVES Yoshi and Yoshi loves Polly... He calls her “Doggie” except he says it like “Dog-geh”.

So yeah, there’s that. We’re going to take “Polly” walking to this park where they’re doing an MLK parade today. Have a good one!

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HAIR FEELS

This happened couple of days back. Yumi has been wanting to cute her hair for for a while now and i’ve been telling her no for a quite a few reasons actually: I was busy packing the first time she mentioned it, I thought it was a phase at first so I ignored it. Then when she continuously asked me I told her no, because come on, it’s her hair. I  know hair grows back but the thought of my baby cutting her hair that she had since she was a baby kind of threw me on the edge... And I knew for a fact if she did cut it, it might not be how she anticipated for it to look and would start crying about it along with regretting it.

And exactly that happened. Yumi was in the bathroom (which I was unaware of) with Aoife at the time, and they were playing hair salon. Aoife was the hair stylist and of course Yumi was the client. I was on the couch using my laptop to track a couple of shipping orders and was talking to the people of the chat @madremag and bekkah was in the kitchen cooking and the guys were out doing something with the boys when it happened.. Basically no one even knew what they were doing, or even knew that they were in the bathroom.

I heard Yumi crying and she never usually cries when her best friend Aoife is around, so I got worried and quickly got up to go see what was wrong. On my way to the bathroom I heard Aoife say “ I can just get my dads razor and cut it allll off!", my heart raced through my chest and I ran into the bathroom screaming “WAIT!” as Aoife was reaching for a razor out of the cabinet and Yumi was looking in the mirror with her eyes full of tears and her hair all over the floor.

I wanted to scold her, put her in time out, do something strict about the situation, but I laughed. I laughed for a whole minute that I almost pissed myself. Side note: I pee a LOT during this pregnancy, one sneeze and i’m done for. I probably lost a few mom points for laughing at my daughter when she was feeling insecure and down but her hair cut was terrible. I wanted to say “That’s what you get. I told you no but you defied me and did it anyways.” but instead I hugged her and told her that it was okay and tried to explain to her that I will fix it. She didn’t want anyone to see her, and in fact she tried to hide her hair from me when I motioned her to come here.

It took me a while to convince her that i’ll cut it for her to make it look better. I also told her that next time she's about to cut her hair, or play with scissors at that matter then to just ask me or papa (or any adult around) and we’ll help her. When her dad came back, she didn’t want him to see her but him being papa bear you know he insisted and made his way into the bathroom anyways, which caused her to start up crying again. He calmed her and told her she looks beautiful and was trying to figure out why I didn’t let her cut it in the first place. He also told her that she needs to be careful and ask before she does something this big like that because she could’ve hurt herself. 

She later on started feeling better because even Aoife told her that she looked pretty (I cried when she said that. Kids can be so harsh that when they say something so sweet it melts your heart ok.. and Hormones. Blaming everything on hormones). I’m just so glad that my baby is feeling so much better now and that she’s confident about her hair. I cried when slapping a filter on this photo, so many different emotions. GOD these pregnancy hormones has it’s impact. 

 Have you ever been in a situation or a similar situation like this one before where you lost some friend, parent, or human points? Feel free to share your experience with me so I won’t feel too guilty!