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i’m zoë

[rusalka2001]

lately been feeling troubled but really happy to see flowers are blooming and i must focus on things like that

[rusalka2001]

my neighbors were just putting on a live soap opera and i’m too nosy i wanna know why they were screaming but it was just all insults… and this isn’t like a next door neighbor this was coming from a house diagonally across the street from me… the lung capacity on that couple is crazyyy

[rusalka2001]

currently chickensitting 🐓

[rusalka2001]

rainbow last night and tiny paw marks through concrete

[rusalka2001]

etsy pattern makers are kinda psycho they really are out here selling pdfs for the most basic, cut-two-rectangles patterns and being like ‘yes that will be 16 usd’… i wish i lacked a moral compass sometimes because i could never stomach selling a digital file that’s just rectangles to cut out in different sizes. like that is a scam and mama didn’t raise a scammer! unfortunately i was raised to work hard and never deceive people or prioritize profit lmao. literally “people over profits” is a slogan i’ve been living by my whole life, even as a child having lemonade stands it was always “don’t charge more than 25 cents a cup, are you so greedy? the mix only costs 3 dollars and makes 30 cups!” so like “no! bad child! do not ask for any higher than a 15 cent profit margin.” which like… on one hand, yeah, i still do think it’s really wrong to overcharge people! but also i was basically raised to make as little money as possible in the name of moral purity. idk. like, not valuing my own labor enough has been a theme of my adult life, being the lowest paid person in the room and doing the most work. and the work ethic of “you must go to work unless you are on the verge of dying or else you will be fired” that my parents instilled in me is really unrealistic, i still remember how shocked my coworkers were when i returned to work after being diagnosed with pneumonia literally the day after i finished the round of antibiotics prescribed. because my dad was certain i would lose the job if i didn’t return as soon as possible. meanwhile i had coworkers literally lie about needing knee surgery and take two months of paid leave only to come back and be like “oh doc said i didn’t really need it after all”. like!!!! and were they fired for that? nope! and i don’t know how to unlearn this sort of self-sacrificing mindset.

[thingsfromthedirt]

raccoon playing with silk flowers

[rusalka2001]

happy easter!

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[rusalka2001]

peter binkying today ♥️

[kosmogrl]

you can begin again and again and again for the rest of your life

[rusalka2001]

i will always be annoying about certain stuff and i don’t care!!! like you cannot mention surrogacy casually to me without me reminding you that it’s evil and exploitative and treats women’s bodies as commodities. you’re not owed access to a womb, and it’s inherently coercive to try and buy that access in the same way it’s inherently coercive to try and buy sex. women’s bodies are not products to be bought and sold! if you think there’s an ‘ethical’ way to buy women’s bodies you are very fucking stupid!

[rusalka2001]

peter is old enough now for the “senior rabbit food”… i feel a bit emotional about it even though he is still perfectly healthy and active for his age!

[rusalka2001]

getting back into sewing and i forgot how fulfilling it is. i’d been hand sewing for repairs and things but it’d been a long time since i sat down at the machine and followed a pattern. it’s really soothing. and now i’m thinking about starting my first ever quilt, i think it’ll just be a simple patchwork to get used to the process. there’s a charity shop nearby that sells fabric and notions and patterns for super cheap. i’m very grateful for that place. i don’t think i could afford to make as many things if i had to pay full price for fabric.

[rusalka2001]

how it goes: i give myself a headache from crying -> i cry because i have a headache

[rusalka2001]

there’s a saltwater factory in my eyes and everyone inside it is working overtime

[rusalka2001]

a note to self of some random things i want to read about/research…

— how neon signs used to be made vs how they are made now (i remember learning about this once but it was only in passing. want to know more.)

— bead making and trade beads across different cultures (i love beads so much. might also want to learn more about kinds of vintage beads. i’ve seen a woman on youtube who lives in the south of england and finds old glass beads in the streams there and i am so jealous! streams around here have some pieces of broken china and lots of beer bottle glass, but i have yet to find a glass bead.)

— lampwork and how glass animals are made (i know i can’t afford a set up to make them but i am really curious about it nonetheless. i used to love looking at them at festival stands, and sometimes i got to buy one. i always liked the little dogs best.)

— growing plants in an aquarium/aquascaping (again, not a hobby i think i can really afford to get into right now but i would love to someday!)

— diy hydroponics for herb gardening in the winter (have used a pre-fab set up before but it kept malfunctioning. i miss having fresh herbs on hand when it’s not growing season.)

— mineral content of water in different environments, ex. deep sea water, glacial melt. (i don’t even know why i am curious about this but i am.)

— how to support local bat population (have found a dead bat or two over the past few years and it breaks my heart)

[rusalka2001]

i watched the live thing of that guy free soloing the skyscraper in taipei and it was crazy but omg must everything have annoying commentators? would’ve been much better if it was just like the sound of the wind and the city below instead of some clowns yapping. i think they probably think that people don’t have the attention span for that though.

but anyways it was entertaining to watch even though it made me nauseous at several points. btw fyi at one point in one of the windows he passed there was a psyduck plush. psyduck could not climb a skyscraper. i hate to say it but we all know it’s true. to be fair, i also could not climb a skyscraper. i would probably faint like a victorian lady. i would need one bag for chalk and one bag for smelling salts.

[folklorespring]

Arctic National Wildlife Refuge photographed by Acacia Johnson