Level 34 Upstate Ny 🏳️‍🌈

“ain't no time to hate, barely time to wait."

[rustandsalt]

Photo 1: Solitary Star- Eli Mcmullen; 2023

Photo 2: Mons Venus- Alicia Lassiter; 2026

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[coolstorybrahhh]

hotel sex against a window sounds fucking great rn

[rustandsalt]

Just being a hot cat mom

[rustandsalt]

Immortality - everlasting life-

Insipidness and repetition.

In death, life means more.

[rustandsalt]

[tamsoj]

Charles Bukowski, "writing," from The Flash of Lightning Behind the Mountain

[expressions-of-nature]

Arizona by blue5011b

[thoughtkick]

“You are so brave and quiet I forget you are suffering.”

— Ernest Hemingway

[xxquetiapinequeenxx]

only human

mother, I am exhausted

and when I say I have growing pains

I mean much more than just body aches

my mind burns with a thousand forest fires

and it's loud with the sound of a million static screens.

father, I am exhausted

and when I say I don't want to go to college

I really just mean I don't want to live anymore

I don't have the energy left to study

best I can do now is just survive.

mother, I am exhausted

and when I say you talk too much on the phone

I really just mean I wish you talked to me

I just want, need someone to tell my problems to

other than my notes app and Tumblr.

father, I am exhausted

and when I say I wish you'd understand

I really just mean I wish you felt what I feel

I bet you wouldn't last a week

and you'd come back begging for forgiveness.

mother, I am exhausted

and when I say I wish I'd be your favorite

I really just mean I never meant to be a problem child

but I can't help being the person I became

and I don't blame you for hating it.

father, I am exhausted

and when I say I wish you'd visit me in the hospital

I really just mean I wish I wasn't pushed this far

to be locked up for my own safety

on suicide watch in the psych ward.

dear this world I'm living in, I am exhausted

and when I say I wish I could bring change

I really just mean i wish society didn't need changing

because I'm no god, no savior, I'm only human

and I will die like one.

[vividzim]

"I don't know what it is like to not have deep emotions. Even when I feel nothing, I feel it completely."

Sylvia Plath

[vividzim]

"It was like the first time I saw my dad cry- at my grandma's funeral- and realized that he was human in a way I'd known but hadn't understood before as a problem. Which it is for everyone. Being human, I mean."

Suzanne Scanlon, Promising Young Women

[myfairynuffstuff]

[seabeck]

[remanence-of-love]

[kafkasapartment]

Sunflowers, c. 1982. Andrew Wyeth. Watercolor and pencil on paper

[fresherfriut]