girlhood and grief

• she/her • '99 • infp • this is not our grave •

[vividzim]

"I have my mothers rage, and my father's ability to walk away. this, I've learned, is a very lonely combination."

Rose Brik, my father's eyes, my mother's rage

[noonwalkdiary]

i was so fucking sad when i was 14 and now when i fold my laundry or see a pool of moonlight on the floor of my bedroom i know that miracles exist. i see love in everything. love sees everything in me too

[mayonezli]

[wovi]

[wovi]

when georges bataille wrote, “no greater desire exists than a wounded person’s need for another wound” & when gillian flynn wrote, “a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort” & when ocean vuong wrote, “sometimes being offered tenderness feels like the very proof that you’ve been ruined” & when lisa m. basile wrote, “did you inherit a sickness? did you blame god? do you believe in god? do you believe in yourself? are you still on fire? did you ever put out the fire?” & when stephen a. guirgis wrote, “why didn't you make me good enough so that you could’ve loved me?”

[wovi]

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ada limón, lucky wreck

[wovi]

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heather havrilesky, ask polly

[wovi]

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rayne fisher-quann, home for the holidays

[wovi]

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the incest diary

[idleminds]

[liefst]

march

[tavuklupilavv]

[soracities]

Derek Mahon, from “Everything Is Going to Be Alright”

[vividzim]

I want to tell you this. Yes. Maybe I am a failure. You are fed up with me being discontented. I think I've got no talent for anything. And I've got nothing to give other than my blood. My youth is being wasted like a useless cigarette end. I've got no home, no friends, no job. I wasted my best years stuck in this town.

- The Small Town (1997), dir. Nuri Bilge Ceylan

[sheslikealostflower]

HAPPY NEW YEAR, CHARLIE BROWN! (1986), dir. Bill Melendez & Sam Jaimes

[stuckinapril]

i hope that in 2025 u get to take more walks, read more books, connect with more people whom u love and who love u, achieve ur goals (even if ur goals are having no goals and just living in the moment), exercise fun hobbies, move from a place of self-direction, and weave together a beguiling assortment of beautiful little moments. remember that no feeling lasts forever. love u

[vividzim]

"The world is happening in a room that i can't enter, life is happening in a gathering i am not invited to. being unwanted is a language i am fluent in."

fatima aamer bilal, being unwanted is a language

[wildspringday]

ever since i was a little girl i knew i was gonna need a miracle

[loveridden1999]

[vividzim]

the epic highs and tragic lows of desperately wanting more from life, doing the necessary steps but getting violently overwhelmed whenever anything happens

[brokenightlight]