I read an ALARMING amount of Fanfiction, and this is the easiest way for me to catalog some of my favorite Fanfiction. I love AO3 but I wish I could put things in categories and separate folders like GoodReads. I will be updating this list periodically and they are in no particular order. However, I will star some of my favorites!
Please note that most of these have smut! These are also all long fics, no one shots in here.
These will just be my AO3 favorite fanfics, I will make another master post for the Tumblr specific fics.
Here is a link to my subscription list on AO3 that is the most up to date.
Color Key:
Gwynriel
Elucien
Feysand
Nessian
*= Favorite, ***************= I have a borderline obsession
Finished Fics:
Call Me home (@propagandaprincess) (gives telenovella vibes)
Gwyn: you, marrying Nesta. Youâre already her mate, do you need to be her husband, too? First a mating ceremony, now a wedding with Nes. Thatâs so selfish⊠*shakes head*
Cassian: Berdara, what are you talking abou-
Gwyn: I propose this: you get to be her mate, I get to marry her next time! *smiles and nods proudly*
Nesta: âŠIâm listening.
Cassian: next ti- weâve been married for less than an hour and you already want to be someone elseâs wife, Nes? *leans in with a teasing grin*
Nesta: *eye-rolls, pushing his face away* Not someone elseâs - Gwynâs. Hush, Iâm intrigued.*turns to Gwyn* Go on, love.
Gwyn: *puts on her most serious pose* We are immortal, thatâs a very long time to be married to one single person *teal eyes go wide dramatically* foreverâŠ
Cassian: *narrows eyes*
Gwyn: *holds up both hands in surrender* But youâre right, Cass⊠You should get a chance to experience married life with Nes. So, let me propose this: you guys stay married for like 2 years -you know, like a trial run- *leans in and whispers conspiratorially* or even less, until you annoy Nes enough for her to need a break from your face *winks*- then Nes and I get married! *grins at Nesta*
Nesta: *seriously considering this*
Cassian:âŠso, weâd just keep switching? You two would stay married for 2 years too, than I-
Gwyn: Oh, no, no⊠We stay together for at leeeeast *squints eye thinking* 20 years. We are pretty compatible. *nods, reaching for Nes and interlocking their fingers together*
Cassian: and what about Az?
Gwyn + Nesta: what about him? *frowning*
Cassian: wonât he be lonely, without you? *smirks*
Gwyn:⊠not if you two get married, too?! *wiggles eyebrows and grins*
Cassian: *seriously considering this*
Azriel: *arrives at the table, holding a glass of water and a plate full of chocolate truffles for drunk Gwyn* did you justâŠpropose to Cass for me? *brows high with amusement*
Gwyn: someone had to, Shadowsinger. Youâre just too slowâŠ*shakes head* 500 years to make a move? *a slow wicked grin spreads across her face* But, I mean, it did take you over 2 years to figure out we were mates after we met⊠*avoids his gaze, grabbing a handful of chocolate truffles, dropping half into Nestaâs waiting hand*
Azriel: *narrows his eyes at her*
Gwyn: didnât it, though? *mimics his narrowed eyes, smirking as she pops a chocolate truffle in her mouth*
@elorcanweek2022ââ Day Three
Week Masterlist
My Main Masterlist
warnings: none
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What a Lady Wears
The manor was quiet. Too quiet. The kind of quiet that Elide didnât think sheâd ever be accustomed to. Especially not when Lorcan would be gone for an entire week on court duty for Aelin.  It would be the longest theyâd been apart since the end of the war.
Just the thought of it made her feel anxious and restless. Two things sheâd never liked controlling her.
The past two years had contained some of the hardest, yet most rewarding days of Elideâs life.  And the fact that sheâd shared them with Lorcan made them all the sweeter. She was seeing her home come to life again. There were people in the streets, laughter in the manorâs halls, the gardens were coming to life, the vineyards thriving. Â
Everything Elide had wanted was coming to fruition.
Spoilers, TW for mental, emotional, physical, and sexual abuse.
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I loved ACOTAR. I still love ACOTAR. I always will love ACOTAR. But every book afterwards made me give up more and more. ACOMAF romanticized an abusive relationship and assassinated characters for the author's convenience. ACOWAR was a bunch of boring and inconsequential death scares. ACOFAS was all-round dreadful. And each book kept shitting on and pushing away Lucien for no reason.
I'd like to preface this by saying I hated Nesta too. I hated the way she treated Feyre in ACOTAR especially, and I wasn't even too excited for this book because I wasn't that keen on Nesta as a character.
Nesta's POV and her backstory changed my perspective. It does not excuse her actions. All Nesta stans can hold these characters accountable for what they do - trauma is a reason, not an excuse. I, and many others, sided with Nesta because of the way she's treated by everyone else in this book. Also, if you're going to hate Nesta for not teaching Feyre how to read and letting her hunt at fourteen, (which I did, and are very valid things to hate), AT LEAST hold Elain accountable too.
This book. This fucking book.
Shall we start with the intervention? Feyre on her little power trip thinks that her boyfriend that hates Nesta and Nesta hates back, Nesta's ex-best friend, and her possible mate who she never talks to should be at this stupid fucking intervention??? Excuse me???
Remember in ACOMAF when Feyre wouldn't shut up about how rich Rhysand is? Feyre literally has four or five houses and is always talking about how much jewelry and lingerie she can afford because Rhysand is so rich??? Well, Nesta has a few shots. So you know what Feyre does? Humiliates Nesta at this "intervention", TEARS DOWN HER HOME, and forces her to go to the Illyrian training camp.
That was the god awful premise for this book.
Did you think Elain wasn't there because she was against the "intervention"? Nope! She was packing Nesta's belongings without permission.
Remember in ACOMAF when it's made a big fucking deal that locking up a traumatised woman is extremely damaging? Well, when Nesta decides she doesn't want to be in Illyria, Feyre locks her in the House of Wind. Nesta can't fly, so her only way of leaving is down the TEN THOUSAND STEPS, that Feyre KNOWS Nesta isn't capable of climbing.
Feyre's pregnant. In ACOFAS she randomly decided that she wanted a baby to remember Rhysand by if he dies. Which doesn't make any sense because they made that stupid fucking death pact in ACOWAR. It's just SJM superimposing her pregnancy onto her early 20's protagonist. Ignoring the fact that Feyre isn't ready for a baby and Rhysand CERTAINLY isn't, and with a war just ended and another looming and so much trauma and a DEATH PACT are all such horrible circumstances to bring a child into, Feyre is already pregnant. Remember when SJM made a big deal about Fae babies being so hard to conceive, and Feyre said in ACOFAS they wouldn't have to worry for a long time because it can take years to conceive your first Fae child? Well it's been no more than 3 or 4 months and Feyre's already pregnant. Yep.
Also the birth will kill her. Because of course it will. Rhysand KNEW this, and still agreed to try for a baby.
There's no solution. Abortions don't exist for some stupid reason, and a C section would apparently kill Feyre?
(Wasn't this book supposed to be about Nessian?)
In ACOWAR, Cassian was on the battlefield with his entrails around his knees. Someone had to literally hold his guts in for him, and he's fine, but you're telling me a C section would kill Feyre?
Don't worry, this is just setting up the AWFUL ending to this book.
ACOSF amounts to Nesta being gaslit into believing her abusers are right. Her friends and family slut shame her and shame her for her lifestyle constantly. Cassian says it took him decades to work through some of his trauma, and he tried to drink and fuck it away too, but suddenly when Nesta does so it's heinous? Nesta's barely twenty five and she's expected to cope better than these ancient immortals.
Hell, didn't SJM write ACOMAF? Nobody expected Feyre to pick herself up so quickly. The IC (excluding Rhysand) respected her boundaries for the most part and understood when it was grief, trauma, and turmoil that made her angry, sad, want to be left alone, etc. But that's all forgotten here.
Amren also compares Nesta to the people in, and says she belongs in, The Court of Nightmares. You know, the murderers, abusers and rapists? This innocent woman who had a few shots and a bit of sex is on par with them, apparently!
The sex scenes.
SJM is scared to say vagina so she says sex.
She says seed to mean semen.
Apparently the word cunt turns SJM on. I just found Cassian saying that kinda cringe because I'm Bri'ish so the word cunt really isn't a big deal.
Back to the baby killing Feyre, because this is definitely what we all wanted from this book as indicated by the change in covers and format and title... Rhysand decides not to tell Feyre. He tells her friends and family, and tells them not to tell her.
SJM loves sweeping Rhysand's abuse from the first book under the rug and claiming it's always about Feyre's choice... where is that here, MAAS? WHERE IS IT?
Anyway, when Nesta rightfully decides to tell Feyre (although it is kind of out of spite), Rhysand threatens to kill Nesta.
And I believed him. With the way he treats his """mAtE tHaT hE lOvEs sO mUcH""" and all the people he's mindlessly killed before, do you really think he wouldn't kill the person who gave Feyre an inch of autonomy?
So what does Cassian do? His lover who he cares deeply about and suspects is his mate has received a death threat from tHe mOsT pOwErFuL hIgH lORd iN hIsToRy.
Cassian simply gets Nesta out of the court.
EXCUSE ME?
He doesn't breathe ONE word to Rhysand about this. This Illyrian WARRIOR who fought with his GUTS HANGING OUT didn't dare step up to the hIGh lOrD who he considers his brother and sparrs and fights with all the time?
Cassian literally does nothing.
Was it not Rhysand himself who said Mated males are dangerous? Can kill anyone who looks at their mate? Can be dangerous simply leaving the house? Rhys and Feyre both pull the Mate card to justify their bad actions on the other's behalf... and Cassian just tried to get Nesta out of the court?
Also, this High King bullshit.
I swear to fucking god, if SJM DARES to make this abusive, power-tripping, mOsT pOwErFuL hIgH lOrD eVEr, husband-insert of hers hIgH kInG, I will fight her in the street.
My beloved Lucien is in this book. Only for him to be used and shat on.
I really liked it when he calmed Cassian down with just a look though. Yes please fox man.
Helion is also in this book. Nothing to do with Lucien.
Eris is also in this book. ERIS. Lucien's eldest brother. The same one who abused him for years, but according to SJM he's slightly better, because at least he didn't agree to kill Lucien's lover. He betrayed his daddy that one time, therefore Eris is good. Y'know, the same Eris who abused Mor? Left her laying on the Autumn Court border with a nail in her womb? Well SJM is going back on her own canon to redeem yet ANOTHER abusive male, while continuing to demonize Tamlin for things he only happened to do when SJM decided the villain from the first book was sexy.
Nesta and Cassian are Mates.
Remember when Mates were supposed to be a rare and sacred thing? Now SJM dishes them out like Oprah.
I don't want these characters to be mates. I want to see them slowly fall in love. But SJM is incapable of writing that so she forces them together with the mAtInG bOnD. That's literally the only basis for most of these relationships, Feysand especially.
The only relationship where the bond would make sense is between Helion and The Lady of Autumn. Who still isn't named. But I will die on the hill that they're mates, I can feel it between them.
I wanted someone to die in this book. I predicted that it would either be Helion or Tarquin, but Tarquin isn't even in this one.
And the ending.
SJM can't write a decent climax, so she kills both Feyre and Rhysand for the second time. Yep.
The baby is being born which stupidly kills Feyre, and thankfully takes Rhysand with them.
Nesta decides to save them. Bad choice. But she decides to save them! Because she's so powerful and she ATE THE CONTENTS OF THE CAULDRON and she's CONNECTED TO THE MOTHER.
Do you know what happens.
Nesta loses her powers.
NESTA.
LOSES.
HER.
POWERS.
The powers we've hardly seen, the powers that were briefly mentioned and used ONCE in ACOWAR, then we saw like two flashes of in this book? They're GONE now. GONE SO NESTA CAN SAVE HER ABUSIVE SISTER AND ABUSIVE HUSBAND WHO ABUSES THEM BOTH.
Nesta is just an Amren now. They both fought for their powers, and had to give them up to save people who didn't deserve it. Now they're anticlimactically trapped in powerless bodies.
Also, and I can't BELIEVE I didn't originally include this - do you know what else Nesta TRADED HER POWERS FOR?
Illyrian anatomy so she can carry Cassian's baby one day.
EXCUSE ME?
I am so fucking SICK TO DEATH of the narrative that every woman needs a man and children to be happy. SJM clearly loves this because she's literally only keeping Amren and Nesta alive now to be sex objects to their partners and nothing else seeing as their POWERS WERE RIPPED AWAY FROM THEM, and now NESTA TRADED THOSE POWERS TO HAVE A BABY SHE DOESN'T EVEN KNOW SHE WANTS? Nesta does NOT strike me as a motherly type. She's the wine aunt, she and Cassian are the couple that go on holiday a lot and and babysit their nieces and nephews, but nope. Nesta HAS to have children.
Nesta is wrong somehow. She says she's sorry as she's saving them. FOR WHAT? For being a little rude to Feyre as all sisters are? And rightfully hating your sister's abuser?
Oh yeah, remember in ACOWAR when Nesta took care of a comatose, starving Elain for months? Elain is randomly okay now because she takes care of her mental health the stereotypical way of baking cakes, and not drinking and fucking, which she shames Netsa for.
Remember the slut shaming, demeaning comments that the whole iNnEr cIrClE made about Nesta? They all expect apologies from her. For some reason.
Nesta has done nothing wrong. She coped with her trauma and minded her business in her own ways, and she's expected to apologise to the people who control and emotionally abuse her.
Nothing that any of these characters did to Nesta is right. Nesta wasn't okay at the end, this wasn't Nesta's healing story. This is Nesta being shamed and degraded until she submits.
Oh I can't believe I forgot to write this in my first draft of this review, do you know how Nesta "overcomes" her grief about her Father's death and her conflicting feelings about him and his life and her guilt? When she visits his grave for the first time, she takes Nyx.
NYX.
She holds NYX up to the grave and talks about how it's his grandson.
GO AWAY YOU STUPID DEMON BABY THIS IS NOT YOUR BOOK.
Speaking of, it's revealed that Nesta was abused by her mother and grandmother in this book? Something we were all looking forward to is seeing more of the Archeron's mother seeing as Feyre was so young when she died, but... nope. She gets a few vague mentions, and this newly revealed abuse is entirely glossed over. Nesta was also actively groomed by an older man at 14. But SJM glosses over this because of course she does.
Finally, the bonus chapters.
My edition came with a bonus chapter from Feyre's POV. It was pointless and I hated it.
There's another bonus chapter from Azriel's POV. Once I'd finished this book, he was one of the few characters I still harboured a shred of respect for.
Then I read his bonus chapter.
This exists to purely objectify Elain.
Whether you ship Elain with Azriel, or Lucien, or neither, this chapter is disgusting. He thinks about her coming on his tounge, and other things simply just to please him.
He then dares to suggest that "the Cauldron picked wrong" in choosing Lucien as Elain's mate?
No Azriel, SJM picked RIGHT in not giving each Archeron sister a bAt bOy.
Rhysand does the only right thing he's ever done by telling Azriel to stay away from Elain, but then he has to ruin it by clarifying that it's only so they can manipulate and use Lucien more.
Oh, and Azriel wants to kill Lucien.
Need I remind you that Lucien respects Azriel? Lucien is another victim of the Night Court's needless, baseless torment, and Azriel is no exception.
Lucien stays well out of Elain's way because she makes it clear that she's not interested in a mate, but Azriel wants to kill him simply for being her mate.
Lucien has done nothing. And I mean literally NOTHING to warrant any of this treatment. From the bAt bOyS, from Feyre, from his family, from SJM, from the deluded part of this fandom that think he's done wrong. NOTHING.
All I liked about this book was the Lucien scenes (which is a given), ((although I hated the way everyone talks about him behind his back)), Nesta's relationship with the house, Emerie and Gwyn, the evidence that Gwynriel is endgame and subsequently Elucien, and the book love. Everything else was horrible. Oh, and Nesta hates Rhysand. I love that for her, because everyone else bows at his feet.
Oh yeah, when Nesta DARES suggest that Rhysand is an "arrogant, preening asshole" which I think is a compliment, Cassian can't take Rhys' cock out of his mouth for one second, and has to get mad at her for having an opinion. Don't even get me started on Azriel in that scene.
If each book after ACOTAR made me slowly give up, this book made me give up altogether. I cannot go on to support this victim-blaming, abuse-forgiving, misogynistic series. I've given up on SJM, and the only characters I care about anyone are Lucien, Nesta, Helion, and Tarquin. I'll continue to read this series to see if SJM redeems herself, but I'll be downloading them for free. I'm not giving this piece of shit any more of my money.
I hope we don't get the Lucien book. I don't want her to slaughter my fox in the way she slaughtered LITERALLY EVERYONE ELSE.
Thanks for listening.
Edit: I put the review on Goodreads!
1/5: NEW REVIEW, 6 MAY 2021: I loved ACOTAR. I still love ACOTAR. I always will love ACOTAR. But every book afterwards made me give up more
I love this gigantic middle finger to SCOTUS so much nkjdnkdfg theyâre really like âoh ok we canât limit peopleâs licenses for concealed carry anymore huhâŠ.so weâll just limit where people are allowed to carry, period <3âł
Posting my first ever Gwynriel fic in honor of Gwynriel week. Itâs a one shot for now, but I might expand it into something larger later on.
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Azriel slammed the study door behind him, the sound making Cassian and Rhys look up from where they were talking by Rhysâ wooden desk. Cassian smirked. "What's eating you, brother?"
"You need to quit it with the chaperone shit."
Cassian's grin widened. "Payback's a bitch."
"No." Azriel ground out harshly. "You need to quit it. Gwyn and I aren't you and Nesta. And I'm certainly not fucking her all over the dining room." He paused a beat, his eyes narrowing at the General. "Where we eat."
Cassian laughed. "I think you still need some chaperoning. Make sure things don't get too out of hand."
Azriel's wings flared out, and his shadows darkened, swirling around him furiously. "You're not fucking hearing me. You have to stop it. Now. You're scaring Gwyn. She's already very nervous and you're making it far worse."
Cassian's grin finally faded. "I'm scaring her?"
Cassian had taken to popping up every time Azriel and Gwyn were alone, most recently the previous evening. They had only been together a few weeks and hadn't gone much further than kissing. Most evenings they curled up together on the couch in front of the fire in the small library, talking and cuddling. Laughing quietly. Learning each other. Azrielâs arm always wrapped securely around Gwynâs slender shoulders, his thumb stroking the skin of her upper arm. From time to time his nose brushed the top of her head, nuzzling her hair, pressing soft kisses into Gwynâs forehead that made her lean into his touch and sigh. Heâd be so wrapped up in the little sounds she made, the feel of her body pressed against his, her sweet scent, that somehow he wouldnât hear Cassianâs soft footsteps. And his shadows, those little traitors, didnât say one word of warning to him. He hadnât the faintest idea why. Maybe they, too, were busy being enchanted by the redhead.
When Cassian barged in last night, Azriel snarled at him as usual, and his brother laughed before he hightailed out of the library. Azriel could feel Gwyn trembling against him from the moment Cassian burst through the door, even though she managed to keep her face composed.
In the silence after the snick of the door shutting, Azrielâs lips lingered at her brow, kissing her as gently as the brushes of butterfly wings, again and again, and ran his scarred hands up and down her bare arms until finally her breathing evened out and she stopped shaking.
Thatâs the last fucking time, Cass, Azriel seethed silently as he held her.
Now he rolled his eyes at Cassian in disbelief, "You seriously havenât noticed?
Cassian looked ashamed. âI didnâtâdidnâtââ he swallowed. âI didnât realize.â
âYeah, well, it stops right fucking now.â Azrielâs shadows still writhed and twisted around him like ribbons of ink in water.
Cassian nodded quickly. âI should apologize to her,â he said hoarsely, shame lingering in his eyes.
âNo. Leave it alone. Just quit it.â
âI didnât mean to scare her. I shouldââ
âYou donât say a word. I donât want her to feel embarrassed about any part of it.â
Rhysâ gaze darted back and forth between them, remaining quiet.
Cassian shuffled his feet, his head hanging. âOkay,â he whispered.
âI was a terrible chaperone. Follow my example.â
Cassianâs head lifted, his eyes clearing a bit, and the tension in the room with it. âPretty sure you did just fine.â
Azriel snorted. âYou two were fucking all over the damn house.â
Cassian smirked briefly before his features sobered again.
âIâm sorry, Az. Truly.â
Azriel nodded. âI know.â
After a beat of silence, Rhys cleared his throat. âSo,â he said, looking at Azriel, âYou and Gwyn.â
âOh do shut up,â grumbled Azriel, and he turned and stalked out of the room, Rhys and Cassian snickering behind him.
The men in acotar should get as much hate as the women.
If Elain's boring and useless for not planting vegetables and for being quiet, keep the same energy for Azriel who can't even do his job that well and and is just as quiet and anti social that guy has ZERO PERSONALITY and people like him cause he's hot and has a dick.
If Nesta's abusive and unworthy of love because she's mean to Feyre and has done bad things (that's actually an over exaggeration) then KEEP THAT SAME ENERGY WITH RHYSAND who SA'd Feyre, has murdered people, and didn't let his own wife know that she was going to die from her pregnancy.
Mor is not in the wrong when it comes to the Az situation. Yes she could have told him straight up. But he's a grown ass man who should be able to take a fucking HINT after 500 years. He shouldn't have beenterrifying her with his violent outbursts and staring at her like an absolute creep constantly.
Nesta's wrong for drinking and sleeping around?? Yeah that wasn't a healthy way to cope and it's great she's better now. But if you're going to make her out to be bad guy because of that, keep that same GOD DAMN ENERGY with 95% of the guys in this series and other books. She would never be called a slut or a bitch if she was a guy, and if she was, it would be in an endearing way.
It wasn't Feyre's fault that she was locked in the manor. Yes I agree that she shouldn't have ruined the spring court and that the hate for Tamlin got a bit excessive afterwards, but I'm talking about during the beginning of ACOMAF. Not afterwards, but during their relationship. She was not in the wrong at ALL. She asked him for space multiple times. He's the one who blew up his study when she went to talk to him about it, not her. She's not the abusive one in that relationship. It's not fair to always blame her for that (I know he had his own problems, but still. It wasn't her fault)
Elain and Nesta are not "villains" for being close with each other and not hunting. They're not evil for not wanting to associate with Fae. Leave them ALONE they've been through enough and they need a break.
Emerie is not a bad person because she made ONE comment about women who are obsessed with marriage. She's literally been raised in an environment where all she can ever do is clean, cook, and get married. It's miracle that she's even able to keep her own store, and you still see her getting harassed for that. So when she's happy to meet someone who doesn't have the same expectations or desires, it's not "misogynistic". That girl has done NOTHING wrong ever and some of you guys are just reaching and looking for ways to hate her for no reason.
Gwyn has actually not done anything bad. I don't even have to defend her because she's INNOCENT. She's never done or said anything wrong. But she still gets hated on for what?? AZRIEL?? That dumbass who wouldn't recognize the word NO if it body slammed him?? He is not worth any of the fighting and both Elain and Gwyn deserve better than the constant (and quite extreme) hate that's always thrown their way.
The men can ALWAYS get away with anything. And I'm not saying that you have to like these characters. I have problems with some of them too. But it's not fair to make them out as bad people in certain situations. And yeah, there are valid reasons for disliking them. But don't you think it's weird that some reasons are the same things that guys get praise for?
