MESS IN A DRESS

i never think that i'm good at anything i do. i can always do better, i know my weakness. i've never been perfect.

[salkjdak-deactivated20180125]

Where would Superman change when he comes to save our town from Ben Affleck?

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TEXT || KRIS

Kris: You should've called me to pick you up. What happened?

Becca: I didn't know if you were sleeping or out with Johnny and I didn't want to ruin your night. It was one of my brothers old friends, thought I'd give it a go but he was yet another mistake.

Becca: I'm just gonna stay single forever and love through your love life.

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TEXT || KRIS

Becca: Had a date tonight.

Becca: It lasted ten minutes and I walked all the way home in heels and a beer stained dress I wanted to return.

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TEXT ✉ BECCA

Kris: [ picture of Kris' outfit ]

Kris: What do you think? Look okay?

Becca: I'd fuck you, if that's what you're going for?

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krxsradford:

“Best friend perks.”

“Yeah yeah, perks galore! Now get your own damn ice cream.”

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krxsradford:

“You’re fuckin’ lucky I like you, otherwise I’d have your head for stealing even a nibble.”

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krxsradford:

“I know,” Kris mumbled. They turned their head so they could breathe more easily, staring at the wall ahead of them in a thoughtful silence. “It’s just… it’s not like the relationship with Kayla was horrible. It wasn’t. We really did love each other and I didn’t walk in that day thinking we’d break up.” Kris sighed, playing with their hair nervously. “I just… couldn’t do it anymore. And I miss her, and I hope she gets better… I really don’t want Kayla to find out and think it was just easy for me to move on. It isn’t. But I have to, you know? And Johnny makes it really easy to.”

Falling silent, Becca moved to lay down beside them once again before reaching up and taking their hand out of their hair before putting her own hand there, playing with the strands of hair that they were just occupying, knowing the nervous tick right away. “It’s not easy, and anyone around you knows it not easy, Kris. But you also have to understand that it’s something the human heart is capable of --- loving two people. Kayla was your first love, she’s going to be someone that will stick with you forever, she helped you come to terms with your sexuality, but she was also the one that allowed you to go through your first heartbreak. It’s always going to be there, but that doesn’t mean that you can’t move onto a second love quicker than most. Johnny makes you comfortable, they make you feel as though you’re okay and comfortable and that’s what is important. You’re safe and feel as though you don’t have to worry as much about them leaving or anything like that. As long as you’re happy --- I’m happy and if that means moving on, then I’m with you. If it means staying single longer and playing the field, you know I’m also there too. You got me, nevertheless.”

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krxsradford:

An embarrassingly excited squeal bubbled past their lips. Kris clasped their hands over their mouth, burying their head into Becca’s shoulder. They felt like crawling under a rock and never talking about it again. Not because they were ashamed of Johnny, far from it, but because they were intensely private. “I don’t know. I was with Kayla for three years, that’s a really long time. And things ended really messily.”

Opening her mouth to comment on the squeal, she decided against the embarrassment and just squished her face against the side of Kris’ with a small chuckle, unable to explain the happiness that was radiating off her best friend in that moment, it was causing her own heart to flutter with equal excitement, glad that they were able to find someone that loved them just as much as Becca did. “You can’t compare everyone to Kayla or every relationship to that one, Kris. You know that, and Johnny is willing to move slowly, that’s a good sign.”

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krxsradford:

“Good plan.” Kris agreed. They’d be horrified if it had been them in that situation, and in fact felt a secondhand embarrassment for their best friend. But laughing with her was nice. “Hey!” Kris exclaimed, disbelief on their face though they laughed loudly. “I don’t know. You know me, I’m… weird with talking about this kind of stuff.” Kris mumbled, lowering their arms. “No. We met about a year ago on accident. They were trying to decide on whether to buy a binder or a bra, and I started ranting about gender binary and being… well, kind of obnoxiously sassy.” They shook their head. “They said they didn’t know people like me actually existed,” The words caused the blush and a stupid grin to return. “Then about a year later, we ran into each other again. Some guy was giving them a hard time—remember when I punched someone? Yeah, that. Then… I don’t know, we became friends. Kayla and I broke up, they told me they liked me, but I was scared to say I liked them back. It felt too soon- that was when I texted you. And then we went on a date, and hung out some more, and I told them I liked them back and… wanted to keep seeing them. Now you’re up to date. Also, their dog loves me.”

Becca couldn’t help but let out laughs as she sat there and listened to her best friend actually open up about the person that they had been seeing without Becca’s knowledge, almost envious about how happy they were with someone that managed to like them as much as they liked them. “Fucking --- hell! I’m so behind,” she muttered under her breath as she listened to the story more before reaching over and shaking Kris lightly by the shoulders with a bright smile on her face. “Fuck! You’re ---- fuck! That’s amazing, Kris. I’m so happy for you. I’m glad they’re helping you and that they’re allowing things to go slow and --- god, you so deserve this.”

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krxsradford:

“He actually tucked you in?” Kris questioned, eyes bright with amusement. “I can’t tell if that’s cute or really fucking cheesy.” They shook their head. They’d been lucky that the few dates they’d been on post-Kayla had all been good, though they doubted that would be the case with men. Kris was just too gay for that. Quickly, they buried their face into the crook of their elbow to hide their embarrassingly wide grin. “Yes,” they called out, voice muffled, “we did. It was really good. They took me to an observatory and let me talk about space for hours.”

“I feel like I asked him to tuck me in --- so it’s probably a little bit of both, cheesy and cute. Won’t talk to him again, though.” That part was obvious after explaining the closet that was mistaken for a bathroom, but nevertheless, it made for a great story between the pair of best friends and a fit of giggles coming from both of them. Moving just as quickly as Kris was, she bumped her body against theirs with laughs falling from her lips as she tried to push Kris’ head away from their elbow to see the blush on their cheeks. “Why am I only hearing about this?! Kris Radford, this is unacceptable!! Where the hell did you find this person? Meet your soulmate dot org?”

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krxsradford:

“Dear God, Bec,” Kris groaned. They chuckled, pinching the bridge of their nose with a sympathetic hum. “I’m glad nothing happened. Seriously, someone who wants to get you that drunk on a date for no reason.” Kris knew they didn’t have to spell it out for Becca. Protectiveness flared in them as they turned to look at their best friend. They didn’t want to imagine anything happening to her. Biting their lip, they ran their fingers through their hair and pointedly looked down to hide their flaming cheeks. “Uh… kind of. We kissed. A lot.”

“It was a pretty horrible date if we’re being honest. I remember wine -- and lots of it. And him tucking me in on the couch before leaving me there until morning,” she said with a laugh, looking over at the other soon after before letting a small smile form on her lips at the protectiveness that radiated off Kris, her insides always tingling with joy at the feeling of them caring so much about her. “You kissed?!” Jumping up enough to rest her body weight on her elbows, Becca looked down at them with wide eyes and a bright smile. “How was it? Are they a good kisser? Oh my god -- details!!”

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“No --- no it was pretty brutal. I threw up in his closet thinking it was the door to the bathroom,” the woman said with a chuckle, turning her head to look up at the ceiling as she laid beside her best friend, taking in a deep breath at the comfort that managed to surround both of them during the few moments they had been laying in her bed, laughing at Becca’s horrid past date. “What about you? Anything happen between you and that friend you told me about?”

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rorygilmoregifs:

There was a message on the pig!

[notfrayclary]

That’s how you look when you get off a plane?

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TEXT || KRIS.

Kris: Ha. So funny.

Kris: Maybe, I've mentioned them. Johnny. Almost postive, that's not the problem. It's that I just got out of a three year long relationship and I'm not over it. Not over her.

Becca: Don't lie, you cracked a smile.

Becca: Yes! You have, but I have yet to meet the famous Johnny. Anyways, Kris, it's okay to like two people at the same time. I mean it's not /okay/ if you're in a relationship or anything but you aren't and you're clearly going to have long-lasting feelings for Kayla, it's just how it works and it fucking sucks, trust me. But you didn't /choose/ to fall for Johnny, it just happened and if you don't see it going away and you /want/ to try things out a little. Just go slow. Tell them that you need slow, I'm sure they would understand and if they don't then they clearly aren't worth your time. You go the pace that /you/ need and if that's just friends, then just stay friends. If that's going on dates, then go on dates. If it's flirting over text message and then acting like normal humans face to face, then do it. It's your life, alright? You need to take it into your hands and make sure that you control it the way that you want.

Becca: And I'm here, no matter what happens.

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TEXT || KRIS.

Kris: Feelings. I have a stupid crush on one of my friends. They've been really amazing. Trying to push it away since there's a lot of shit going on, but they make it hard.

Becca: Is this your declaration of love to me? Awe, I've been waiting forever, Kris!!

Becca: Sorry, okay. Have I met this said friend? Do you think they might like you back?

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TEXT || KRIS.

Kris: Same.

Kris: Kind of have a problem.

Becca: Problem??