dragonhearted.

o dragon, who dwells within me.

[ryuhart-a]

seems to me all of those from the past are all gone, now. can't help feeling like this is unfamiliar territory.

to all of those still here, I am sorry for never returning as promised all those years ago.

perhaps I'll start anew, wipe the slate clean && start from scratch.

[ryuhart-a]

seems to me all of those from the past are all gone, now. can't help feeling like this is unfamiliar territory.

to all of those still here, I am sorry for never returning as promised all those years ago.

perhaps I'll start anew, wipe the slate clean && start from scratch.

[ryuhart-a]

                    hey y’all, I’m not dead. been out of sorts for a while now, but I think I’m ready to come back. I may be merging mako, ashe, angela and genji onto a multi, but that’s still up in the air as it is. as it stands now, I may stay on the old blogs, clean them up and make them nicer.

                    I’ve said all of this before, but I’m pretty confident this time.

[ryuhart-a]

you  +  what  =  happiness.

you  -  what  =  happiness.

[sagamemes]

one desire — midnight empire.   here and below the cut, you can find 70 sentence starters—pre-established, icebreaker, angst, et cetera—loving lifted from the lyrics of the ten songs on one desire’s second album, midnight empire.   tw: ( metaphorical )  drug mention, war / battle, injuries.

❝  you wouldn’t like it out there.  ❞

❝  it wouldn’t protect you.  ❞

❝  you hate it, that’s why it hates you.  ❞

❝  if you try to stop me, i’ll eat you alive.  ❞

❝  come on and dance with me.  ❞

❝  i’m right here. talk to me, [name].  ❞

❝  cross my heart, i didn’t know we would get this far.  ❞

❝  tell me, why did we go separate ways?  ❞

❝  i thought that nothing could do us no harm.  ❞

❝  you came with your kiss and you left with a smile.  ❞

❝  so you knew all this time we were living a lie.  ❞

❝  you could never be mine.  ❞

❝  you broke my heart when he took you away.  ❞

❝  i’ve been searching for an open door.  ❞

❝  you’ve been watching me since day one.  ❞

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[ryuhart-a]

                     what kind of guardian angel are you?

THE BRIDGE.

you are the reluctant guardian angel. you laughed in the face of the maker when they told you that you would become a guardian. after all, your existence is a map of regrets from your past life, with so much to atone for. this could be your chance at redemption, but limbo is peaceful and so tempting to stay in: the empty-eyed dead whir around you without recognition or contempt, they do not see you for what you were.

despite yourself, you agreed. the mortal world is nothing to romanticize: you are all too familiar with its unrest, madness, and pain. you are infinitely glad to be dead, because mortals are weak, short-lived: and yet, they are also brimming with promise, alight with the determination to make the most of however many decades they have been given. your cynicism crumbles slowly but surely. you don’t like to admit it, but you become protective of your charges. you see yourself in them: stubborn hearts, missed chances, avoiding instead of embracing.

you bless them in little, meaningful ways: by putting on loads of laundry, tidying their desks, making sure their favourite songs play on the radio, giving them the courage to say “i love you”. humans are soft, fragile, and easy to impress. you find that you want them to live freely, fully, slowly. you don’t want them to be familiar with regret and resignation, as you were. you are above them, wiser and more jaded, but they still manage to teach you lessons in humanity and peace. how frustrating.

how freeing.

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TAGGING: steal it from me

[anyyyyyys]

I’m fine

[ryuhart-a]

      ‘ remember to drink a fucking shit ton of water every miserable day of ur life ’                                                                                                    @danseher​​.

           —almost on cue, genji knocks back another large glass of water. he’s lost count of how many it’s been so far over the past few hours, but he’s content being left to wonder; he knows when to stop.

           he looks over at her, then. the look in his eyes is a blend of defiance &. agreement.

           “as well as the good days,”—he adds gently—”as long as you accept the results.”

[ryuhart-a]

         ‘ sorry I haven’t replied to ur texts I’ve been overwhelmed by literally            anything that’s ever happened or will happen ’ — Symm and Genji being friends? A marvelous concept. Wonderful. Amazing. Perfection.                                                                                               @savedgames​.

          the chime of a notification goes off at the worst time, the shimada tensing as the tone fills the once-silent air. his meditative focus broken &. his eyes opening, he glances over at the smartphone, left on his nightstand.

          for a long moment, he considers leaving it be. he considers returning to it in the morning, when his prayers are complete, sleep attained. it could be nothing more than a notification, could it?

          he relents. he leans forward, peering at the notification in curiosity before scooping the device up. satya vaswani? at this hour?

                [ text: satya. 4:32am. ] I hadn’t expected to hear back so soon; I understand                                                     you’ve been busy. An architect’s work is never done.

          he considers his words once more, idly chewing on his inner lips in thought.

                [ text: satya. 4:33am. ] Would you like to talk about it?

          he will gladly sacrifice meditation for a night, if a friend needs it.

[ryuhart-a]

savedgames​.

          She was never one to turn down a good tip — especially once she’d verified it wasn’t somehow from Jesse (again …). So when she received word of someone who knew her ex-teammate, she was more than a little intrigued. (Maybe she could learn a bit more about what he’d been up to between whatever had wound up in him joining Overwatch and now.) She really shouldn’t care.

          And yet here she was, a few states norther west than she was used to, looking for someone she didn’t even know. (Apparently she’d know him when she saw him, whatever that meant!) Her lead brought her to a quaint little cafe, where she sits in the corner with B.O.B. as she sips idly on a cup of coffee and scans the room periodically.

          She’s about to give up when the cyborg steps in, drawing a singular eyebrow up in interest. Surely this had to be the guy, right? For a moment, Ashe bides her time, watches him idly as he finds a table, puts in an order, and waits. It’s only once he’s received his own drink that she slips up, casually crossing the room and dropping into the empty seat opposite him. ❝ Not every day a girl meets a cyborg… . I hear you know an old friend of mine. ❞ She leans forward once she finishes, waiting a moment before she continues.

          ❝ Does the name “Jesse McCree” mean anything t’ you? ❞

              genji is careful with his divulgence. she is the one to make the first action; lay the foundation for their meeting; communicate that she is who he was looking for. the shimada knows what to look for— her confident stride; the bodyguard left behind in the corner; the inquisitive look in her eye as she seats herself before him.

              he studies her face for a time, silent as his eyes scour hers for intent, purpose. she’s quick to the point, he observes; hardly one for small talk. he doesn’t mind. he hadn’t brought her — calamity ashe of the deadlock rebels — out to a café for small talk.

              his gaze retreats once more to the omnic she’d brought with her. for a moment, genji’s curious if she lives her life in fear. it’s amazing what a life on the run can do to somebody.    “perhaps.”    he finally offers, breaking the silence between them. genji leans forward in response, his fingers clasped together lightly before his coffee.

              “what do you plan to do with the information?”

[spctlessminds]

this ask meme is based on the blog gravesuggestion.  i’ve divided it up into two categories  ( light  &  dark )  based on the themes.  some of these can be somewhat triggering seeing that the darker ones deal with a lot of death mentions.  please be cautious before continuing on!!

L I G H T

‘  at night i dream of you.  ’ ‘  don’t give up yet.  you still have time to fix things.  ’ ‘  falling in love with someone else is not a personal attack.  ’ ‘  i am still so weak when it comes to you.  ’ ‘  i can’t believe i let myself let you down.  ’ ‘  i don’t care where we go when we die,  as long as i’m with you.  ’ ‘  i dream of saying to you all the words i held inside until it was too late.  ’ ‘  i feel so warm  &  safe when you talk to me.  maybe i could love you if you’d let me.  ’ ‘  i finally let the right people in  &  i have never felt so loved.  ’ ‘  i like the way your nails paint red stripes along my spine days after you’re gone.  ’ ‘  i lived in your permafrost for twenty years  &  then you looked at me  &  i felt the warmth of spring.  ’ ‘  i once wished you’d leave me alone,  but i take it back.  ’ ‘  i want to be able to love someone else,  but you stretch your arms  &  spread your legs inside my heart so that there is no room for anyone or anything else.  ’ ‘  i want to believe that we got it right this time.  ’ ‘  i wonder how much longer i can cling to your light before it expires completely.  ’ ‘  i would travel across the world to be by your side,  because as long as you are with me,  anywhere is a perfect place to me.  ’ ‘  it took me awhile to realize it myself,  but you are not what other people say you are.  ’ ‘  it’s not that i really need you,  but life would be pretty boring without you around.  there’s no one i would rather be with.  ’ ‘  i’d like to stay like this for awhile.  ’ ‘  life  &  death don’t have to be so boring,  let’s make both an adventure.  ’ ‘  life imitates art,  they say.  i didn’t believe it until i started to notice the way your eyelashes look so much like tiny ink stroke.  ’ ‘  live your life so that when you die,  souls will come for miles just to hear your historic tales.  ’ ‘  make your exes jealous  &  your past self proud.  ’ ‘  maybe you’re what i needed to find in order to move on.  ’ ‘  never get caught falling harder.  they’ll never let you back up.  ’ ‘  please don’t go.  ’ ‘  some days it’s easier to just stop fighting it  &  succumb.  ’ ‘  sometimes,  you’ll find it hard to keep going,  but you always will.  ’ ‘  the desire i feel for you is that same itching,  insidious hunger that an addict has for their addiction.  ’ ‘  the worst thing about you is that you weren’t all bad.  ’ ‘  there is absolutely nothing  &  no one who can stop me.  ’ ‘  there is no route of losing you that is without pain.  ’ ‘  there’s still room for adventure  &  there is no one i’d rather have by my side.  ’ ‘  things didn’t turn out the way i planned,  but i’m alright with that.  ’ ‘  we could be really incredible together,  you know?  ’ ‘  you are beautiful  &  vibrant  &  confident.  you are light  &  laughter incarnate  &  every fiber of your being screams freedom  &  joy.  when i am with you,  i am truly happy.  ’ ‘  you are starlight incarnate,  from the grand way you sway your hips to the wide mysterious way you think.  blessed are any to be loved by you.  ’ ‘  you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you.  ’ ‘  you call me yours  &  i have no idea what that even means to you.  ’ ‘  you remind me of bubblegum  &  sweets;  soft  &  pink  &  warm.  you are strong in the gentlest way.  you are so stubbornly kind.  i wish i could be like that.  ’ ‘  you still visit me while i sleep sometimes.  your fingers trace my spine  &  i listen to you breathe.  please stop haunting me.  ’ ‘  ‘morbid curiosity’ is a wonderful way to describe how i feel about you.  ’

D A R K

‘  a thousand empty bottles  &  fist fights will never return to us what we lost that day.  ’ ‘  everyone else has moved on,  but i am still here.  ’ ‘  everything about you screams danger.  ’ ‘  everything is worthless to you  &  you,  in turn,  became worthless.  ’ ‘  for once in my life i want to be surrounded by people that i don’t feel like i need to impress.  ’ ‘  freedom is really hard to get used to.  ’ ‘  how could you do this to me?  how fucking could you?  ’ ‘  i am becoming everything we always dreamed of  &  i am leaving you behind.  ’ ‘  i buried you so well that you might as well have died.  ’ ‘  i can rest easy knowing that the person i love is dead  &  not the monster you became.  ’ ‘  i can’t look at you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t ask how you’ve been.  what’s the point?  you’d lie anyways.  ’ ‘  i dream of hearing the words i so desperately needed to lay your memory to rest.  ’ ‘  i haunted this house first.  there is no room for you here.  ’ ‘  i have a right to be upset.  i loved them too, you know.  ’ ‘  i just want it to end.  i want it to all go away.  i want to go away.  ’ ‘  i may be a wolf in sheep’s clothing,  but a snake hiding in the skin of a mouse is far more dangerous.  ’ ‘  i saw your face today  &  didn’t feel anything.  i am free.  ’ ‘  i tried to save you,  but you didn’t want to be saved.  you just wanted someone to suffer with you.  ’ ‘  it’s almost as if you were never here.  ’ ‘  it’s unhealthy to do these things,  you tell me.  you say it’s time to stop smoking,  time to stop gambling,  &  dammit,  i f you don’t stop drinking it’ll kill you.  i sure hope you’re right,  darling.  ’ ‘  i’m always pleasantly surprised by how easy it is to kill you in my mind  ’ ‘  i’m not really scared to die.  i’m more afraid that no one will miss me when i’m gone.  ’ ‘  i’m not the person you left behind anymore.  there’s no one here to miss.  ’ ‘  i’ve been dead far longer than i’ve been alive.  ’ ‘  i’ve eaten nothing but flower petals  &  ivy for weeks because i want to be beautiful inside like you.  ’ ‘  i’ve never been completely satisfied.  i most likely will still be unsatisfied long after my death.  ’ ‘  no motive other than pleasure,  my dear.  ’ ‘  one day i’ll go or you will.  either way,  it will be as if i’m losing a piece of myself.  ’ ‘  our dreams  &  promises decay along with you.  ’ ‘  the leaves change,  but nothing else does.  ’ ‘  the only difference between avoiding  &  leaving is that now i’m not waiting up for you.  ’ ‘  there is no such thing as a person who is required to love you.  ’ ‘  there’s only so much that can be done to repair old damage.  ’ ‘  things aren’t going as i hoped.  maybe if i die,  i can start over again?  better luck next time.  ’ ‘  this is not something to be proud of.  this is a tragedy.  ’ ‘  trying to get rid of me?  oh honey,  you’ll have to try much harder than that.  ’ ‘  trying to get under my skin?  you’re nothing more than a pesky itch.  ’ ‘  unlike you,  i can’t hide my identity when it becomes an inconvenience or a danger.  ’ ‘  weeping is for gods  &  martyrs,  we cannot afford such luxuries.  ’ ‘  would you even miss me?  ’ ‘  you are not important enough to earn an eternal place in my heart.  ’ ‘  you complain nonstop about being unloved  &  alone,  i can’t imagine what you’d be like if that were actually true.  ’ ‘  you don’t know what it’s like.  ’ ‘  you made this so fucking easy for me.  ’ ‘  you should see me as a threat.  i will tear down everything you know until there is nothing left of you.  i am a walking threat.  ’ ‘  you think i’m already gone,  but i’m still fighting.  ’ ‘  you think i’m dead,  but i’m just dying.  ’ ‘  you were never an addiction,  you were a fucking disease.  ’ ‘  you wouldn’t dare cross me.  i am god  &  you are the soil beneath my feet.  ’ ‘  your existence takes up so much more space in mine that we might as well be one entity.  ’ ‘  your fingers are so cold  &  bruised,  but you’re still slamming your fists again the barricade as if it makes a difference.  ’ ‘  your hair is tied in a noose  &  your fingernails are razor blades,  your lips are poison  &  i will gratefully kiss them.  ’ ‘  your hatred has a body count  &  we will not forget.  ’ ‘  your loss,  not mine.  ’ ‘  you’re a sick fuck.  you know that?  ’ ‘  you’re not gentle with me  &  i would never ask you to be.  ’ ‘  you’ve trapped yourself so thoroughly in your own mind that it’s not even a rut anymore,  it’s a pit.   ’

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[ryuhart-a]

          and here u will see a bird bullying a pig

[ryuhart-a]

          THE WITCH OF THE WILDS is an interesting creature, the nomad notes as he considers her from the other side of her cottage. the bed she’s laid him to rest on is far from comfortable— irregular beneath the mattress, digging the soft fabrics into his back, where his wound lays bandaged beneath his robes.

            for a time, he considers silence — he considers standing, unsheathing his blade, finishing what he’d arrived here to do what felt like mere hours before. there is no debt to be repaid here — she is an enchantress that strikes deals &. blood pacts, nothing more, he attempts to convince himself.

            ... but then why would she tend to his wounds? her potential murderer? he doesn’t know. doesn’t want to know. if there were answers, he’d prefer to not know them — misses the simpler times when he wasn’t in the woods, hunting witches. how ironic.

            when he sees her turn towards him, he makes no move to hide. he neglects to pretend to be asleep — eyes transfixed upon her, with the slightest scowl upon his lips, black hair spilling across the duvet. he’s still groggy, still feeling the effects of the poison that had once laced the arrowhead.

            “you healed me.”

            a mere observation.

            “I suspect I should not grow used to such kindness.” / @valkyrel.

[ryuhart-a]

       ‘  hoodies are one of the most powerful and underappreciated articles of           clothing. cold? put on a hoodie. raining? put on a hoodie. no bra? put           on a hoodie. nothing to wear? hoodie. cripplingly low self esteem?           you already know. so versatile! so multifaceted!  ’                                                            - she has stolen his hoodie / @valkyrel.

         “perhaps so.”

         deep brown eyes remain locked on the angel, an amused smile upon his lips, despite having been left hoodieless. brows lift while she resumes her short tangent, choosing to let her talk in lieu of interrupting &. requesting his hoodie back. in truth, he’s always enjoyed it when she’s rambled to him — always took it as a sign of trust in him. it wasn’t something he took lightly.

         he can’t help but notice how well it truly fits her. it isn’t baggy like he’d always imagined, nor does it hang above her knees. it fits her almost as well as it fits him — almost. the gaps for his shoulder vents hang a bit lower on her, the sleeves a touch longer, uninhibited by prostheses.

         it’s endearing.

         hardened plastic rests against his bare chest as he crosses his arms. she finally seems done, said all she’d had to say. in the brief silence that follows her voice, he misses it. she sounded happy.

          “I suspect I will never be getting it back, angela?” his voice is playful &. light.           “—not that I would deprive you of such power, and comfort.”

[valkyrel-deactivated20210528]

trick or treat!  🎃 for @ryuhart​

a  little  WICKED  –                                        that’s  what  he  CALLS  me.

                             witch mercy & oni genji

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[ryuhart-a]

      ‘  you are too afraid of the future to let go of a past that was never kind to you.  ’                                                                           — ANGY MERCY? / @valkyrel.

            —the tone of her voice is deafening. it’s raw with impatience, anger, &. it fills the room, his mind, pervades his soul &. it boils the blood in his veins. he knows. it follows him wherever he goes — it stalks him on his missions; when he gathers intelligence; in his dreams, the sleep that’s become so rare now.

            his metal jaw sets. for a time, he considers remaining silent. let her exhaust herself, run her own energy out — don’t feed it. she makes his heart ache so painfully. even when he’s the one at fault. but the more he listens to her, the more that she says — the more he realizes how hard it is to remain quiet. the angrier he gets.

             “do you truly believe that you have any right to criticize me?”

             —finally, he snaps. he stands before her, the wires trailing from his nervous system disconnecting from the computer interface behind him. it was painful to be hooked up to machines on the regular— but what was even more painful was not knowing why. it was unjust to live his life connected to a system without so much as an explanation, or a lie.

             “perhaps you expect me to look to the future with hope? with delight?               do you understand what it’s like, doctor? for your brother to leave you               alone, bleeding out? to wish he had simply finished you?”

             his heart races in his chest, the whirr of machinery strengthening with it, struggling to keep pace. his fingertips feel cold — only slightly more than he’s already grown used to. he grasps his metal hand, thumb brushing across it only momentarily before he realizes it’s no longer there, that the action will not warm it up. they’re not really there.

             “I have been weaponized against my family.”

             a pause. a shaky breath.

             “and you expect me to be hopeful?”