You’re The Only Reason My Heart Is Still Beating

Cross my heart hope to die...If you’d open your eyes, then maybe you’d see what’s at stake. I wish that I could tell you I got a lot of love for you, wish that I could tell you I got trust for you. If you ever need to get shit off your chest, don’t hesitate to talk to me. I’m here for you.

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

And late at night

When the sun has disappeared

And I’ve had too much to drink

It’s you

That I want to let see me

At my most vulnerable

It’s you

That I want to allow into

The fortress I have build around my heart

So you can lead out

All the hidden words

I would never have the courage

To say in the daylight

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

How did we get here

Spitting lies and picking disguises

So we can cover up

The hatred that boils between us

The overgrowth of resent

That we’ve given up trying to

Weed out from

The garden that is supposed to be

Our friendship

How did we go from late night car rides with music blasting and hair flying

To sleepless nights in bed spent in silence only interrupted by the crying

From the laughter at cheesy jokes and new discoveries

To the condescending criticisms when we accidentally push each other’s boundaries

I wish that we could turn back to the beginning

Because maybe then I could spend more time

Trying to prevent what would cause us to eventually start dying

And spend less time laying in bed, wishing, praying, and crying

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

It’s 1AM

And I know you’re out there

Somewhere

Asleep in your bed

But I can’t help the hope

That pools in my stomach

Wondering if maybe

You’ll show up in the dark tonight

And take me away

Back to the times when

We’d drive until 4AM

With the wind in our hair

Without a care in the world

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

No one told me my home wouldn’t be safe

No one told me I’d have to find my own place

To hide when the knocks come

No one time me I’d have to ace

The test of pretending to slumber

So the footsteps would walk away

And I could sleep knowing I was safe for at least one more day

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

She will never forget

The moment

In which she learned

That the lips of a lover

Are not always the lips of a man

Who loves her

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

Maybe if I cut deep enough

You’d be able to see my heart beating

Maybe you’d finally notice

The way my heart begins to pound

Whenever you’re around

Maybe then you’d finally realize

How my heart becomes paralized

When you tell me

To leave

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

It’s the saddest feeling when you evade my questions so much, I no longer care for the answers

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

It’s 1am and I’m sitting in my bed

With a bottle in my hand

Cause I’m missing you again

But this time even the alcohol

Can’t erase the memories

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]

I fucking miss you, okay?

[s-e-s-s-i-o-n]