I See It For What It Is

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[s4ils]

I try so hard to give so much grace and understanding into the world even when its probably not deserved but I’m so sick of caring so much when no one not a single person bothers to extend me that same level of care and grace. I just want to feel like I belong or have a place with anyone anywhere I just want to be loved the way I love everyone I care about.

[s4ils]

All I can think about is Paula and how badly I want to know her deeper and spend time around her I just want it to be me and her reading in the garden but I’m just never going to see her again now except for maybe briefly in passing but probably not even that

[ruhaniya]

[04k96]

[toiich]

Laurence Anyways (2012), dir. Xavier Dolan

[s4ils]

Sometimes I think about how when my last relationship started it was like the beginning of my sister re entering active addiction and I was coping with the trauma resurfacing from my childhood of that at the same time I was relearning how to expierience my emotions on hormone therapy and dealing with the balancing of that but how I was given no grace or understanding for any of that and was just continually written to be the bad guy

[museify]

[tlirsgender]

"You know what's harder than Getting Better? Living Like That" is just the thesis for my whole shit going on right now honestly. You know what's harder than doing my physical therapy? Hurting All The Time. You know what's harder than addressing my gender dysphoria? Hurting All The Time

[tlirsgender]

I'm Doing The Hard Thing and it's *easier* than how I was living before. If you make yourself feel better you will have more energy to spend on Getting Better. Nice inch nails - the upward spiral. Crawl out of your grave Thursday

[morganathewitch]

Anemone woods, May 2026.

[kitajgorod]

[yellow-cat]

some days are really hard and it can be difficult to understand why. but usually its probably because my blood is haunted

[cruellesummer]

all the glamour and the trauma and the fuckin' melodrama

[heaveninawildflower]

[thissweetenamor]

[strangledplanet]

[theroyalgardens]

Peach and yellow snapdragons

[girlfriendsinjeans]