readers beware: in my fics someoneโs either getting fucked, fucked over, or murdered. if Iโm feeling especially frisky, youโll get all three. not always in that order.
seonghwa:
trigger (m) : breaking up with your mafia boyfriend was supposed to be the end, but seonghwa isnโt the type to let things go quietly.
yunho:
cameraman!yunho x pornstar!reader (m): the quiet camera guy on set catches your eye.
crushed (m): yunho thinks hiding under your bed for a prank will be harmless fun, but then you bring a guest home and he ends up trapped in a chaotically humiliating nightmare he canโt escape.
san:
billionaire!san x waitress!reader (m): a young billionaire comes to the restaurant where you work and makes you an offer you simply canโt refuseโฆ
hongjoong:
sugardaddy!hongjoong x sugarbaby!reader (m): being hongjoongโs sugar baby isnโt just a lifestyleโitโs a full blown experience.
mingi
gentleman hunters club (m): "The hunt is a game of wits, of patience, of understanding the mind of another creature." โ unknown
jungwon:
edge (m): jungwon meant it when he said he was fine taking things slow โ he still does. but meaning it doesnโt make it any easier.
heesung:
fiend (m): heesung may be addicted to the drugs, but you're addicted to him in a way that'll probably kill you too.
niki:
cry, baby (m): you knew the moment niki texted you back at one in the morning to come pick up your stuff, that it would end up like this.
hooked (m): the (lowkey toxic) ups, downs, and in betweens of casually hooking up with Niki.
Synopsis: You knew the moment Niki texted you back at one in the morning to come pick up your stuff, that it would end up like this.
Genre: angst, psychological, smut (soft core)
Pairing: Niki x Reader
Warnings: toxic relationship, manipulative bf, emotional manipulation, mind games, power play, gaslighting, sex as a form of manipulation
Authorโs notes: friends, trigger tf warning: Nikiโs a mean, mean man in this fic. if youโve dealt with and/or are dealing with a toxic partner and youโre still traumatized I probably wouldnโt read this. I wrote this and even I was a lil triggert. That said, happy gooning!
Word Count: 1.7k
MDNI 18+
You knew the moment Niki texted you back at one in the morning to come pick up your stuff, that it would end up like this. Not with dignity, not with closure, but like thisโfolded on his couch, legs on his shoulders, apologizing to him...again.
You're not even sure how it always happens.
You always show up to his place steeled and justifiably angry, then Niki stands too close, looking too good, smelling even better, calling you baby in that low drag that fogs your brain and makes your heart stutter. Then, someway, somehow, Niki gets what he wants.
He always does.
Maybe it's the way he drops his voice an octave when he's 'explaining himself,' like he already knows you're going to concede.
Maybe it's the way he touches you, rubbing slow circles on your hips, coaxing you to believe the fight was an overreaction, the betrayal just a hiccupโsomething you're too strong, too smart to 'let ruin everything.'
Maybe it's the way your heart twists to believe him, telling yourself it's just a mistake, just a stepping stone, just one last time, and that if you let it go, things will be better. Stronger. Fixed.
Whatever it is, it works.
Because you always tell yourself you won't actually go inside. That you'll just grab your stuff at the door and leave. That you won't let him talk you onto your back, or your knees, or whatever position he's decided counts as an apology that night.
But you fail every time because Niki's persuasive, but only in the worst ways. Because this is the only way he knows how to apologize. Or the only way he's willing to anyway.
Niki knows you too well. He knows you don't actually want to leave; you just want him to give you a reason to stay. You want him to want you. To chase you. To choose you.
You want the illusion that he needs you. Proof that his cheating isn't a verdict on your worth but just another lapse in judgment, a stupid habit you're both supposed to outgrow together on the way to your imagined happily ever after.
And he uses that. He turns your need for reassurance into a leash, tugging only when you start drifting too far. He tosses you bits of remorse to reset your hope, trains you with just enough softness to make you stay.
Not because he means it, but because he's learned it's the simplest way to reel you back in every time.
It's almost effortless at this point. Sometimes Niki can't help but roll his eyes at how easily you let him back in. He never needs grand gestures or big declarations with youโjust an opportunity, a few words, and a heated look, then you're right where he wants you, pliable and predictable as ever.
All he has to do is make sure he's showing enough skin when you comeโa nice fitted tank that clings to every line of his abdomen, and those loose, grey sweatpants that leave nothing to the imaginationโjust enough to short circuit that little spark of resolve you try to walk in with.
And all he needs is a couple shots to drop his voice into that slow baritone you never think straight around. So when he steps close and asks where you want itโit's lazy and low enough to tilt your brain off its axis and make you wonder if he means his dick, his mouth, or that useless little box he set out as bait to get you here.
You don't know this, of course, but he never really unpacks the box. Not unless you're coming over. Then he'll spread things out just enough to seem settled. After you leave, it all goes right back in.
It makes it easier to keep track of and move all your shit once you're gone, so when other girls come over, no one accidentally finds anything to interrogate him about.
But it works well for nights like this too, when you show up all teary eyed and willing to be fooled. When he passes you the box, but still keeps a firm hold on it so you'll look at him all doe eyed and confused, already softening.
You do it every time. Right before you let him toss it aside and hug you...then kiss you...then lay you across whatever surface will let him make you forget that you ever called him a lying, cheating bastard.
He wasn't even really thinking about it the first time heย tried to soothe you with sex. He panicked. You were crying, arguing, connecting one too many dots, and he needed that to stop.
He only apologized through it to kill two birds with one stone, so he wouldn't have to deliver some bullshit monologue later, once the post nut clarity kicked in and reminded him he honestly couldn't give less of a fuck if you wanted to dump him over another girl or not.
So when you start apologizing to him five minutes inโvoice breaking, logic goneโhe's genuinely surprised. Then later, impressed. Ever since then, he's kept the same method:
apologize just enough to keep you from leaving, and fuck you hard enough to keep you from thinking.
And it always works.
Because of that, Niki has a working theory that all girls' common sense is stored somewhere near their g-spots, and if you hit it just right, it scrambles their logic like an internal reset button.
He's convinced he's rightโif you and that girl from his psychology class are anything to go by.
Sometimes Niki genuinely feels sorry for you.
Not in a remorseful way. Just in that pitying way he gets when you make things too easy. Sometimes, when you've cried yourself out in his arms, he wonders if he'd be this gullible if he were a girl; if softness would hit him as stupidly hard as it hits you.
But then he remembers he's not some love sick dummy with no boundaries and even lower self esteem.
Speaking of...
"Fuck you."
You say it through gritted teeth, eyes shut tight, as Niki pants above you, hips still rolling.
"I know..." he coos.
Your voice is raw, and your eyes are rimmed red from crying earlier, but heโs looking down at you with the softest, most effortless smile because he knows you donโt mean it. He knows heโs got you right where he wants you.
"You're an awful person," you choke, struggling to even breathe.
"I know..." he says, then he kisses the calf of the leg slung over his shoulder. "I know, baby."
He grinds into you hard, pushing until youโre pressed together pelvis to pelvis, until the angle steals your breath and has you clutching the armrest, gasping, โoh my god!โ
Your other hand shoots to his hip for purchase. Niki swats it away gently before sliding a hand up to cradle your cheek, pressing his forehead to yours. He needs you overwhelmedโfull of himโfor what heโs about to say to actually land.
"Look at me,โ he whispers softly, and your eyes snap open, meeting his gaze with that vulnerable expression Niki can't help but exploit. "I'm sorry, okay..."
He leans in and whispers it into your open mouth, warm and convincing, letting it slide down your throat and wrap around your heart. You nod against him and Niki has to bite back a laugh.
"You know I love you, right?" He asks, hips still rolling slowly.
You nod again, and this time he nods with you, practically controlling the movement.
"Good. Cause I do. So...fucking...much."
He punctuates each word with a slow, deep thrust, driving them in like nails so you'll never forget. So you'll never get them out. So even when he screws up againโwhich he willโyou'll forgive him anyway, because he's lodged those words deep inside you, in a way only he can.
You moan in time with him, fingers clawing at the couch so hard it tears a little at the seam. You don't notice because your eyes are squeezed shut again, shutting out the world, shutting out reason. Exactly how Niki wants you.
Because this is when you're easiest to steer, when you're blind, off balance, and soft enough to mold.
Anything he says now will slip straight past your defenses and take root where it'll hurt to pull out later. So he goes for the jugular. He chooses the words he knows will linger long after he doesn't deserve them.
"Tell me you love me..."
And you do.
Of course you do. You don't just say it, you choke on it. The words spill out of you in that soft, eager way he's come to expect: automatic, unguarded, and mindless.
He picks up the pace just enough to make your voice crack, pressing you to keep going. To say it again. And again. And again.
And you keep repeating it, louder and louder, until the words tumble out on their own, raw and frantic, stripped of every ounce of caution you walked in with.
Your hands find his face, shaky and searching for a reassurance he has no intention of giving. Instead, he leans in and kisses you, slow, deep, and dirty. Tongue laving over yours like he means every soft sound he pours into your mouth.
It's the kind of kiss that feels like safety to girls like you. Like something real. It unravels you. He's sure whatever hurt you came in with feels far away and half imagined by now.
By the time he pulls back, you're already whispering into his mouth, dazed and pliant:
"I'm sorry, baby. I'm so sorry," you whimper. "I love you. I love you, I love youโ"
That's all Niki needs to hear to wrap up the charade. He moves with a purpose now, fucking you hard and fast. Not because he's overwhelmed by the confession, but because he's accomplished his goal. Heโs succeeded in talkingโor rather fuckingโyou off the ledge once again.
You come like that. Hands wrapped around his biceps, mind wrapped around his finger, still whispering you love him, still clinging like any of this means something.
And Niki just watches, breathing hard, looking down at you with that familiar mix of pity and amusementโand he thinks to himself...
THIS MF IS A FUCKING MENACE ohhhhhhhh i wanted to punch him so bad BUT ALSO EXCUSE ME WHY MAKING HIM EXTRA HOT AUTOR?!?!!!!!
the white tank the gray sweats HIS PERFUME that low tone of his THE SLOW CIRCLES ON THE HIPSNSBDBFKSJS yeah yโall should go to jail. oh id let him cheat alr but NO bc wdym he keeps the box unpacked so thAT OTHER GIRLS WONT ASK QUESTIONSNDBDHSBDD and he tries not tO LAUGH MID-THRUSTBCJSBDNDNSKSJ I HATE HIM
author, this was so goodโค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅโค๏ธโ๐ฅ!!! thank you for this!!๐๐ซถ๐ผ
@simp47koreancrackheads Eeeeejkkkk Iโm always so giddy to get comments like this๐ and ikrrrrrr I love evil bastard boyfriend Niki๐ฅบ heโs so awful but so hawt.
And Iโm cryinggg at the line you crossed out๐ youโre so real for that. And thank you for picking up on things like back the box up and laughing at her mid fuck. People like you make writing feel so fun a rewarding!! I love you badddd๐ซถ๐ฅฐโค๏ธ
The long awaited PART TWO!!! I started this last year and it is APRIL ๐ญ๐ญ I will say this was exponentially harder than part 1 and that is mostly because I read so many fics that sorting through them with my limited tags has been rough lmao, suffice to say a part 3 will be needed. I also have ideas for more curated lists by genre or trope that I hope to work on next so look forward to that! As always please show lots of love to these authors!!!!!
DISCLAIMER none of these works are mine and majority are MATURE 18+, please review all warnings before reading!!!
Key:
โจ - My Favs
๐ฅ - Smut (MINORS DNI)
โ๏ธ - Angst
๐ - Fluff
๐ - Humor
POLY!ATEEZ
The Leaders - @sorryimananti-romantic โจ๐ฅโ๏ธ๐ Mafia AU โง Completed
A masterclass in storytelling and worldbuilding and IM NOT OVEREXAGGERATING!!! Yumi did such an incredible job with this fic and I typically don't like mafia au's but this one is just so well done! Luna is just such a great character in herself and how her story progresses along with meeting the boys its just so good! There were so many moments I was just jaw-dropped reading a new revelation in this fic asdfsdgsfh so if you haven't read it yet DO IT!
Truth or Dare - @shinestarhwaa ๐ฅ 9th Member AU โง One Shot
Hotel California Book Two - @mint-yooxgi ๐ฅโ๏ธ๐ Demon!Ateez โง Ongoing
I think this was the fic to make me realize how much I enjoy reading about men who are horrendously down bad, like the crazy kind of in love and obsessed and this fic is peak when it comes to that. And once MC learns her ability to basically control them through there obsession ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ yeah that's the good shit!
clair de lune - @atzfilm ๐ฅโ๏ธ Vampire!Ateez โง Reincarnation AU โง Completed
This author and their way of devastating me ๐ญ๐ญ๐ญ Just the most complex characterizations of the boys, so many moments when you root for them only to find out another horrible thing they've done ๐ญ๐ญ one of the most resilient mc's out there that is a fact ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ
Suns in a Black Sea - @remedyx ๐ฅโ๏ธ๐ Alien!Ateez โง Ongoing
One fic that I'm so excited about because I love an alien fic and even with just 3 chapters I'm hooked ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ And MC being the only one they feel more comfortable with is soooooooooooooooooo good I love that shit ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ AND THE FACT THIS GOT UPDATED DURING THE TIME OF ME WORKING ON THIS LIST!!! thats what you call โจmanifestationโจ
our leaves must fall before our flowers can bloom - @eightmakesonebraincell โ๏ธ๐ Hockey AU โง One Shot
Seeds of Love Pt. 2 - @remedyx ๐ฅ๐Coven!Ateez โง Two Shot
Rock Will Never Die - @skzdust ๐ฅ Rock Band AU โง A/B/O โง One Shot but has Spin-offs
the essence of youth is summers with you - @eightmakesonebraincell โจ๐ Surfer AU โง Friends to Lovers AU โง One Shot
like i mentioned in my tags, i do not like summer, but this fics makes me so nostalgic for summer if that makes any sense asdgfh and just the way this fic plays out is so up my alley from the friends to lovers to the angst it just is sooo sosososo good
Sexual Education - @joonie-joon ๐ฅ Inexperienced!Reader โง Ongoing
nothing beats having 8 hot friends help you learn and explore sexually on vacation ๐๐
no, you dumb fuck. it's the elbow - @eightmakesonebraincell ๐๐ Band!Teez โง College AU โง One Shot
MULTIPLE MEMBERS
Murphy's Law - @atzfilm ๐ฅโ๏ธ๐ Multi x Reader โง Alien!Ateez โง Soulmate AU โง Completed
Oooh the angst in this is so good but the payoff ๐ฉ๐ฉ๐ฉ its soooooooo good!! I don't want to spoil the end relationship of this fic but god the dynamics are so interesting not just with MC but between the members as well ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ
the post-show high - @bombuni ๐ฅJongho x Reader x Yeosang โง Band AU โง One Shot
three's company - @minkieater โจ๐ฅโ๏ธ๐ Mingi x Reader x Yunho โง Ongoing
if you've been on my blog for long enough you'd probably understand how much I would love to be in a yungi sandwich and this fic OH DOES IT DELIVER!!! like my honest to god favorite part about this fic is how complex the relationship is between these 3 it is just so interesting to read about i've just been eating it up and YOU SHOULD TOO!๐ซต
double stuffed - @kitten4sannie ๐ฅ San x Reader x Mingi โง One Shot
Hotelroom - @shinestarhwaa ๐ฅ WooSanHwa x Reader โง One Shot
just between friends - @honeyhotteoks ๐ฅ Yunho x Reader x Mingi โง One Shot
for the love of the game - @kitten4sannie ๐ฅ Wooyoung x Reader x Yunho โง Baseball AU โง One Shot
As Above So Below - @bandgie ๐ฅJongho x Reader x Seonghwa โง One Shot
play rough - @k-hotchoisan ๐ฅ San x Reader x Seonghwa โง Hybrid AUโง One Shot
Untitled - @stxrrywoo ๐ฅ Yeosang x Reader x Jongho โง One Shot
happy new year - @yungistiny ๐ฅYunho x Reader x Mingi โง One Shot
the fool's heart - @ateezlibrary โ๏ธ Hongjoong x Reader x Seonghwa โง Royalty AU โง One Shot
Shy - @minkieater โจ๐ฅโ๏ธ San x Wooyoung x Reader โง Best Friends to Lovers โง One Shot
i love angst and i loooooooove when mc believes her love is unrequited I EAT THAT SHIT UP!!!! like her crash out after finding woosan together is so valid asfsdfgfhdghj i just love how viscerally they are into each other but still too dumb to see (especially shy im so sorry sweetie) special shout out to yunho who does a great job of setting things into motion lmao ๐
Desire + the conclusion - @sorryimananti-romantic โจ๐ฅโ๏ธ๐ Hongjoong x Reader x Yunho โง Royalty AU โง Two Shot (?)
another angsty fic ๐ฉ๐ฉ mc being in love with and engaged to yunho while also struggling with her new feelings for hongjoong ๐น๐น its sooooo good ๐โโ๏ธ๐โโ๏ธ honestly this is very wholesome because their feelings for eachother are just so pure like you feel the YEARNING in this between joong and mc and then you have yun and mc who like you just feel bliss reading about ๐ซ ๐ซ it's just so well done on its own and then yumi my GOAT decided to add a bonus chapter ๐๐๐๐
Team Red - @peacheeeliz โ๏ธ๐๐ Yunho x Reader x Mingi โง Superhero AU โง SMAU โง Completed
Netflix and Chill - @stxrrywoo ๐ฅ Hongjoong x Reader x Seonghwa โง One Shot
Trophies - @outro-jo ๐ฅ San x Reader x Mingi โง Street Racer AU โง One Shot
Untitled - @sangis-puppy ๐ฅ Yeosang x Reader x Mingi โง One Shot
After Practice - @kjmalfoy ๐ฅ Hongjoong x Reader x San โง Friends to Lovers โง One Shot
Crushed - @sa1co ๐ฅโ๏ธ Yunho x Reader x Mingi โง Roommate AU โง One Shot
On the Mic - @crimsonbubble ๐ฅ Hongjoong x Reader x Yunho โง One Shot
SCENARIOS/TEXTS/HEADCANONS
ateez reaction to s/o being shy during sex - @nateezfics ๐ฅ๐ Headcanons
ateez and their thirsty s/o - @kisshwa ๐ Texts
Making out with Ateez - @sxcret-garden ๐ฅ Scenarios
ateez after a concert - @mingwrites โจ๐ฅScenarios
not only is this so incredibly hot but the way it was written with how you almost travel with each member from the concert to the hotel (idk how to describe it but it is sooo like pleasing to read!)
ateez as pirates who fall for you (hyung line + maknae line) - @eightmakesonebraincell โจโ๏ธ๐ Scenarios โง Pirate AU
you get a little bit of everything in this fic suave pirate shenanigans, cutie patooties with heart eyes, interesting espionage and daring feats, and an endless time loop as one person desperately tries to save the life of their lover that they keep watching die in their arms :D anyway safe to say the san scenario has stuck with me asdfsdgsfdhh
make up sex with ateez - @nateezfics ๐ฅโ๏ธ Scenarios
Ateez sub headcanons - @last-words-ofashootingstar ๐ฅ Headcanons
top ateez member into pegging - @fairyofjaeyun ๐ฅ Headcanons
Arranged marriage with Prince Ateez - @nateezfics ๐ฅโ๏ธ Royalty AU
WHAT CAN WE DO TO HELP HEESEUNG AND ENHYPEN? please read below.
hi guys, i redownloaded tumblr again just to make this statement but heeseung leaving enhypen has caught many of us off gaurd. i think everyone is devasted by this and yes i know everyone is thinking about a future with enhypen as six and honestly I donโt want that either.
i came here to spread awareness about what we could do as a fandom. please refer to this thread first of all.
link one โ HEESEUNG did not make the decision to leaveโhe was kicked out of ENHYPEN.
this shows everything that adds up to heeseungs departure if anyone was also fishy about his sudden announcement like me. honestly, it makes sense.
but now that we are aware, what can we as engenes do? thankfully, twitter engenes made a thread of everything we could do from our side to fully support heeseung and bring him back.
link two โ things you can do to help enhypen
sign the petition.
link three โ template to email journalists about the situation.
link four โ guidance on calling / faxing hybes investment companies !
link five โ i found this account very helpful with keeping up with updates and finding out ways to help enhypen.
live update accounts from hybe protests one two ( huge thank you to them ! )
please sign the petitions ( as to my knowledge, we already have just over 500k ), rich engenes donate if you can. and most of all, do not stop talking about it.
this is genuinely the least we can do and itโs heartbreaking to me that we have to take action when their shitty company canโt do jack.
reblog this post, share it, do anything you can to raise awareness because this isnโt a simple decision you make, this is injustice.
idc if someone calls me parasocial but it makes me so fucking anxious to even think about what happened and whatโs happening esp when we donโt know anything, how did it come to this? how did the members react? was it actually in talks or it happened overnight? i have no words and things arenโt adding up
if this was purely heeseungโs decision then i respect it, i wish the absolute best for him and ill always support him like i have since the day one of iland, but if this is beliftโs doing and he was given an ultimatum then istg i hope that whole fucking building burns down i js want my seven to be safe and happy
i hope this helps and somehow works out, hereโs a petition you can sign: link
