The Dynast King

Fuck You, I'm fabulous [hairflip]

[coldxasxice-archive]

FUNDRAISER!

An anonymous friend needs your help. They’re going to possibly wind up with nowhere to live, nowhere to go, if their goal is not met.  Because of the personal nature of this, they are remaining anonymous, but this person is important to me, and even MORE important to my friend BehindTheStripes.  You may or may not have seen Cap’s posts about this already.

We’re a third of the way there, but we only have two weeks to raise this!

So, because I am also teaching myself a certain form of Circular Gallifreyan  (from this interpretation), I will offer creating your full name, your url, phrases, sentences, etc if you donate!

Essentially, the more you donate to her on the Chip-in fund, the more I will make you in Circular Gallifreyan.  If you wish to remain anonymous, and you have donated, send me an anonymous ask with how much you donated and what you want, and I’ll put them in the answer. Otherwise, you may send me an ask with your name and let me know how much you donated and what you want.

$5 - Full name/ Full Character name/ full URL/ Short sentence or phrase

$10 - Longer sentence or phrase/ 2 names/ 2 shorter sentences or phrases

$20 - A short paragraph or short poem/ Five names (or urls, etc, you get the idea)

If you donate more than this and would like something more done, let me know.

I have not done any in altered color schemes, but I am sure I can (Perhaps based on your tumblr theme or whatever you like).

Just DONATE TO MY FRIEND and let me know, and even if you’re not interested, pass it around?  

This was started by my friend, BehindTheStripes, I simply wanted to help any way that I can.  So, if drawing some Gallifreyan things in a vector will help, then that’s what I’ll do!  Please I ask that you reblog, even if you are not interested. We are 1/3 of the way to our goal. I’d like to see us actually surpass it, so they have more to fall back on, just in case. Please help! Thank you.

[lokixcat]

WARNING TO YAOI RPERs

All screenshots are unaltered.

This happened recently, on a website I am a member of, under the display name “Loki”

Read More

[awildchocoboappears]

A Hiatus for different reason

Read More

[sacredasp]

There is a new muse here.  If Loki keeps trying to get me to feather my hair, I'll let Bergan have his way with him.

After all, Bergan likes "pretty" things.

[sacredasp]

Look around and you will see This world is full of creeps like me You look surpised You shouldn't be This world is full of creeps like me

[sacredasp]

You wake up to realize your only friend Has never been yourself or anybody who cared in the end That's when suddenly everything fades or falls away 'Cause the chains which once held us are only the chains which we've made

[sacredasp]

Dear Father,

You should know that I have never told Larsa that it was you who ordered me to end the lives of our elder brothers. I never told him and in fact, quashed the rumor to as much, so that your hands were clean. I would never have him face the monstrosity you truly were, and would rather that it was I he saw that way.

I want you to know that there is no person I have ever detested more than you. I was a happy person once. I knew how to feel, and I knew my place. I was proud of it, and excited to simply be alive.  That youth, that joy, that... ability to feel have left me.  All that is left is a hollow shell, one that has faced death and can never even find peace in that.

You ordered the deaths of my brothers and I obeyed. I did not question you, for you were my father and Emperor. Gabranth at my side, I slew them, and then he ensured that the blame would never fall upon me, nor him. I later made sure it'd not come back to you.  But I realized too late that you had done to them before what you did to me. Your sons, we were nothing more than tools, sacrificial pawns for you. We thought you loved us but you simply used us.  You destroyed us one by one.

By the time I realized what you were doing, it was already too late for me... but I would not allow you to take Larsa.  In doing what I must to end your reign, and the threat you posed to my dear brother, I had to take the time to turn off the emotion. I could not afford for you to know what I planned, and the boy in me still loved his father so, even as you twisted what you'd done and sent Gabranth to always spy upon me.

As the years passed, and I did what I had to, it made me far colder than even I had expected. What you made me into, the monster you meant to triumph over... it cost me the closest thing I ever had to a friend.  I should have supported him against his mad father, sought justice rather than power... but you took my very heart from me and I could not, did not.  Now that boy is forever gone, a selfish, cold man in himself that only reminds me of what I have lost every time I look upon his face.

Further, you cost me the closest thing I ever had to a lover.  There could have been... more, we could have found solace in each other.  Were I not a hollow, heartless, empty man at your hands, then my passions could have been for change, rather than for peace the the conquering of others. I became so cruel to him in my attempts to hide from the distractions of my affections towards him that.. I broke him. Only looking back on it now, after facing death, do I see how horrific I was to the man I could have.. loved.

I destroyed everything to protect Larsa... but the steps I had to take up until then forced me nearly to destroy him as well.

I am a monster, surely

And you are the monster that made me

And I hate you

I shall always hate you　

[sacredasp]

I had to apologize recently, to others... but there is no one to apologize to me. Not for being ordered to kill my older brothers, my very blood, for the good of the Empire. Not for being treated as so twisted by the very person that ordered me to do so in the first place. Not for doing everything I was told as a young man only to be mistrusted. Not for losing the closest thing I ever had to a friend. Not for having the last person I trusted made to spy on me.

Because I am a monster, and I deserve no apologies.

[sacredasp]

U :]

... Have I not answered this question? Black or dark green. Surely you noticed when you 'inventoried' my belongings after I was thought dead?

[sacredasp]

U, R, M, O, E. /leaves Vayne some letters

U: .. Dark green or black, depending on the day, I suppose.

R: There is only one reason, and that is my dear brother's happiness.

M: I don't have time to indulge in such sweets. 

O: After all that has happened, my one wish is simply for my dear brother to be happy and at peace living in a world and empire he is proud of.

E: I do not really converse with anyone. Many years ago I could speak with Ffamran or Gabranth on many matters I could not with others, but there is no one now. I dare not share my dark mind with my dear brother, for fear it would poison him.

[stocksholm-blog]

[myonlyissueinlifeisyou-deactiva]

A. Available: B. Birthday: C. Crushing on: D. Drink you last had: E. Easiest person to talk to: F. Favorite song: G. Grossest memory: H. Hometown: I. In love with: J. Jealous of: K. Killed someone: L. Longest friendship: M. Milkshake flavour: N. Number of siblings: O. One wish: P. Person who you last called: Q. Question your asked the most: R. Reason to smile: S. Song you last sang: T. Time you wake up: U. Underwear color: V. Violent moment: W. Worst habit: X. X-ray you had: Y. Your last time you cried: Z. Zodiac sign:

[sacredasp]

[ STOP KILLING DRACE.  I don’t even like her but she’s good to Larsa and… ]

[reconcilier-deactivated20150807]

[ Oops. ]

[sacredasp]

[Dear brother, sometimes... I really... worry about you. ]

[sacredasp]

[ STOP KILLING DRACE.  I don't even like her but she's good to Larsa and... ]

[sacredasp]

Vayne: New Headcanon

I'm sticking to much of what I already have, however

Larsa is number one, period.

Vayne is now an undying. Rather, when he bonded, they became one. There is a conflict because that voice persists in his head [someone sent it to me in anon once and I've decided to keep it. If the person that did that before would continue the same, I would appreciate that... yes yes]. He still hates the Occuria, and his death was actually a scattering, so to speak. If he dies, his body will come back to itself over time, whether he likes it or not. (it may not always be immediate and he may, for all intents and purposes, be did. I Godmodded this once against Ajora and for that I apologize.  What an ARGUMENT they had, though! Such will not happen again as I have toned this down a bit). 

Because of living forever, he has decided to let the peace Larsa has achieved remain. His plans for other things remain, but they have become less important as he has, well, forever to act upon them, while he only has Larsa's lifetime to spend time with him. The problem is that, despite this, there is still that voice driving him ever forward. The result may make him.. a little mad.

Vayne is almost incapable of feeling for others. He trained himself not to, as it was a distraction.  His beliefs have altered slightly, though not changed completely, and he is trying to cease his abuses of others. However, this is very difficult, and when he gets frustrated or unsure, he goes right back to being abusive and cruel. 

Kindness is not something Vayne is good with, at least not genuine kindness.

Vayne is fond of Gabranth. He has always been. The problem is that he knew this and so was exceedingly cruel to him to keep people from thinking he cared for him. As to what capacity, well, (this is a big change) it is simply... when they were younger, they could have been companions of a sort. Not friends, for their positions don't allow for such a thing, but close, regardless.  However, as he grew up and was exposed to more and more darkness (after all, it WAS his FATHER who ordered him to kill his older brothers, and Gabranth that helped him frame/set up others), he slowly closed off, eventually becoming unnecessarily cruel to Gabranth.  (Essentially, this is no longer a "ship" unless a Gabranth RPer specifically wants it to be. I wanted to tone that down and try a much different and I think, more accurate approach to the situation).  

He dislikes Balthier, but he was quite fond of Ffamran. He'd seen potential in the boy genius. Before he became the Serpent he is now, Vayne used to play chess with Ffamran. He misses the person that he was, and  seeing his father as more of a monster than anyone else, doesn't sympathize with the situation with Cid as much as one should. However, he would not have Balthier harmed (Despite his angry reactions and words otherwise) because he is dear to Larsa. 

AS to Drace(those that bring her back as well), he caused terrible grief to Larsa the first time she was put down for her words.  For disagreements, for something that she should have been reprimanded for but not KILLED for. He will not make the same mistake again. He is remiss to admit any mistake, however, and simply says his way of thinking has changed. She provides a motherhood sort of figure to Larsa, something he still very much needs, and he would rather avoid her existence rather than cause Larsa harm by lashing out at her again. He is not fond of her, however. Not in the least.

[dalmasca-knight]

THESE ACCOUNTS ARE NOW "Reset." ALL CURRENT RPs ARE CANCELLED AND HEADCANON IS BEING REWRITTEN

If you would like to interact with these refreshed characters, please let me know.

[dalmasca-knight]

Please consider my FFXII accounts on Hiatus and possibly facing deletion. I feel they are unwanted and unneeded as they stand currently. I cannot face them right now. Not at all.

[sacredasp]

ESPECIALLY, this one.

[sacredasp]

[This account is pretty much... dead]