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i had an interview today on the other end of town that lasted approximately three minutes. what on earth?? also i have multiple cavities in three corners of my mouth, and i’ve gotten back into sewing.

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gay people when they get lead poisoning from drinking club soda out of value village metal chalices

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starting pride month right with carol fan fiction

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i have a teacup fetish

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last night i dreamt that i was dating carol aird (i was also on the baseball team from a league of their own, most 1950s lesbian dream ever). then i bought this lovely aglaonema silver bay today; it was obvious what i had to name her. now i have two plants, abby and carol! of course!

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everything is so romantic i am in love with it all

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speak your truth 10 of swords

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my journal is running out of pages

super excited to start a new one but i will miss you first journal i was ever motivated to write in

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is it about finding myself or creating myself finding myself or creating myself who knows who cares

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fuck a fitted sheet

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Hagrid as the Renoir Odalisque on my wall

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lavender berry

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considering a few of the different takes on no mud no lotus i have come across today. based on the quote alone (i have not yet read the book by thich nhat hanh), i have always interpreted it to mean that without the mud (probably uncomfortable but here it is) there is no lotus (the peaceful rebirth, the rewarding result). i do not think that suffering is necessary. actually a lot of the time i believe "quitting" can be super insightful and is a very valid form of redirection toward the same goals (sacred bailing!). i feel more so that hard things will come and it is not possible to avoid all of it, so why not turn that energy into something powerful and useful. the self cleaning lotus flower sinks below the surface each night and acceptingly sleeps beside the mud; in the morning, the water-repellent petals clear away any dirt left on the flower as it blooms again. the mud gives the lotus a chance to be reborn each day in the same way our own hardships give us a fresh perspective (gratitude, self-awareness, redirection) on a situation!

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dyke soup archives

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my bed in the sun