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monkeydizzy

i think a bullet would fix me

just-a-lonely-nobody

December 31, 2025 life update.

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what a fucking year. i did not expect to be alive right now. this year has been absolutely terrible. ever since my cat died things have gone so downhill. i made a plan to not be alive past christmas, because that was the 1 year anniversary of her death. i researched so so so much on how to die, went on all the websites, forums, read books, everything. there’s no good way to die. there’s nothing that is 100% foolproof. i got very close multiple times and semi attempted one, but never fully went through with it. mainly because of the fear of failure. i’ve been self harming a lot. I increased my lithium dose earlier in the year and have been seeing a therapist (CN) weekly. in January i’m staring TMS therapy, but will it help? idk. nothing can bring my cat back. she was my world. she brought me so much joy. i’ve been trying to take photos more this year, but i still am so suicidal.

so yeah, things have been really shitty this year, and i’m upset for being alive right now. but here we are. here’s to another year i guess lol.

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shittypunk

“it doesn’t matter anymore” // 9.06.2013

nemurenakute

February 8, 2025 life update

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It’s been a while since i posted and ive honestly been dreading this post. honey, my cat of 16 years, my best friend, passed away on christmas. it was truly the hardest day of my life. i know she couldn’t live forever, but i needed and wanted her to. anyways, it’s been extremely hard since she passed and im trying to find a new normal of some kind. i miss her so fucking much. i started seeing colleen and am trying EMDR, ive had 2 sessions so far and they have been meh but i feel crappy after for a few days. apparently thats normal. anyways, nothing else is new. just sad about honey.

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in-the-shadow-of-happines

“having depression feels like having a black hole inside of you slowly devouring every inch of your being until you are but a standing shell of the human you used to be”

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and sometimes cutting holes on the outside to feed the hole gives us a little bit of breathing space…

03/11/2016

kiisuuumii

Dorothea Lasky, from "Misunderstood," in Thunderbird

October 25, 2024 Life Update

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my god it’s literally been a year since I posted an update. I don’t even remember where I was at last year, I got a promotion at work maybe since I last posted. it’s been really good and i for the most part enjoy my job. i’m able to learn new things every day as cheesy as it sounds.

Medically, I think i’m about the same? I got an IUD a few months back in hopes of stoping my period, it hasn’t stopped yet but i’m hoping it does in the next few months. I see Dr. E about once every 3 months, she isn’t super helpful and it’s too stretched out of a time period for me to remember or talk about anything legit.

Work as good as it can be, is stressful. I recently presented to the CEO, which was insanely scary, but i did it somehow.

i’ve been more freaked out about germs ever since COVID. i’m the only person i know that still wears a mask at work and out in public. i just can’t break it, im terrified of getting sick. terrified. way more than i was pre covid.

Anyways, that’s it for now i think!

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