Might delete this blog soon (or leave it up for the enjoyment of whoever likes it but become inactive).
I made it after a really awful breakup where I got cheated on. Mostly use old pre T pics (yes any pics I’ve ever sent of my t-dick were pre t since somebody has already asked)
I’m realizing the detrans kink is really just self harm for me. I started it at the same time as I fell into binge drinking/bed rotting after the breakup and I have gotten back to the level of having a drink and a smoke just once every couple weeks.
I am quite sexually dysphoric, I DIY my T, and I juice to be veinier, hairier, more muscular. Been on a cut lately and really liking the v taper I’m finally getting. Tits almost gone. I probably have a deeper voice than most cis dudes at this point and it makes me happy. My t dick is enough that I can fuck a girl quite easily, I pass pantsless atp. I have an intersex condition that means I’m not even fully biologically female in the first place, and I have been living as male since I was 8. My body only even feminized to the extent that it did because my parents put me on estrogen against my will as a child.
Detrans kink just ain’t for me I think. I realized when filling out some bingo and realizing that I seem to be the only ftm in the kink who would kill and die for bottom surgery.
I bought a dress to test the limits and I did not like wearing that shit. Have been sort of forcing myself to get off to this out of habit but ehhh. Again, it was a self destructive method of distraction from my shitty breakup. It isn’t needed anymore. I’m doing quite a bit better now.
In real life I am relatively dominant and not that into being penetrated and even then only ever in the ass. I’ve had both but it was rape and I was 16.
Also not into dumbing myself down anymore. I graduated top 5 in HS and I was in a bunch of science and engineering clubs and my life has got a little off track since then for reasons outside of my control but that’s still me and it’s only been about a year.
All that is to say: thank you to everyone who’s helped me realize this isn’t for me by way of being horny at me lmao. I am far more confident in my being a man now than I ever was. Also I don’t really care if you keep any pics I have sent, worry not.
Peace ✌️
-Seth
