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As I am heading into new season of my life, I am weary and... frankly dreading it....
I am scared that I will have to face my limit.
I am afraid to step out of my boat.
I am terrified that I will have to spend the rest of my life working....
I am reminded that God has provided this opportunity for me and I have to keep reminding myself how He has been with me through this process. Yet, I am ungrateful and regretting my decision.. almost? I feel like there is a long awaited journey that I am not equip for. The only thing I can cling onto it God and to be honest, I guess my faith is not as great as I thought. It is not me who is holding on but God.
It is very true when they say.. “It is not miracle that changes us, but it is Love.” Through all of the miracles I have witness this year, I am still uncertain. But the only thing that carries me right now is His Unconditional Love.
---on the side note...
In my third subtest for CSET, I had to pick an exercise... I decided on sit ups. Last minute, I changed the answer to pull-ups thinking that sit-ups are actually called pull-ups... WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just why me God..
I am just tired of studying and this... will... be.... my... life for 2 years here on out..........
What am I running towards? I have never been greedy with wanting to make a name for myself or want recognition in my “career”. God is definitely discipling me through this chapter of my life. I was..or..stillam a wild animal who does whatever she feels. He is taming me? He is sharpening me. He is preparing me. He is refining me for this battle.
