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We have a little cat friend that visits the sliding glass door almost daily now. They’re so cute. I think it must be someone’s pet because it looks like someone is taking care of it. My mom says she doesn’t like cats but is always looking for this one. Maybe her heart is softening towards felines?

I started reading my first Moomin book last night and found out Snufkin’s kind of an antisocial jerk like me. Comforting.

My mom’s in a weird mood so I’m in my room catching up on Love Island. This season is so fun so far! Casting did a good job (except for that one girl who got kicked off before the season started I guess).

Yesterday was a day and it was all because I’m still not taking care of myself enough. I started the day off tired and irritated. I would have liked to stay home but we had already planned to go visit her friend down in Orange County because of the planned power outage we were having. So we drove an hour down to a restaurant and my mom’s friend and daughter were there. And while they all talked I zoned out and watched the music videos the restaurant was playing.

Then we went to Walmart to look at the craft section which was my bright idea but my mom’s friend pushed my mom’s travel chair so it wasn’t as hard on me as it could have been. Then we bought way too much stuff and when we got into the car I wanted to go home so badly. But I knew we were there to visit her friend so we drove another 30 minutes to her house. And my mom is talking and having a great time and I’m just annoyed at everything and everyone.

We go outside to sit and I can’t with the conversation so I put my earbuds in. A podcast is what I really want to listen to but they live in an area with horrible reception so that’s not happening but I have Lemonade downloaded so that soothes me for a good while. Then we’re going back inside and my mom has to go to the bathroom and I think I just hit my limit on everything because I basically start a whisper argument in the bathroom and we both came out crying and caused a scene.

Then I went out to my car to calm down for a bit. And then sat outside to wait for my mom. Her friend’s daughter came out and was really nice and said she gets it. She’s a caregiver too and could see that I was burnt out. She encouraged me to take more time for myself. I agreed and eventually my mom’s friend came out and we drove home. I apologized for my behavior and we’ve been talking about it off and on since then.

I went on meetup and found a craft night at a bar (I think?) tonight so I’m gonna go to that. They’re also having a picnic later this month so I’ll go to that too. Making myself leave my mom alone is hard.

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Our power is going out today for maintenance and I woke up and realized some of the food in the fridge will spoil. So I went to tell my mom and she said to call the electric company and ask them about it. Why? Why would they care about that at all? They can hardly keep their equipment up to date and keep starting fires but they will care about the food in our fridge. Anywho, I said I’m not doing that but you can call so she’s currently on hold. I pray for the person who answers.

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Now she’s mad because the lady wouldn’t answer whether the food will spoil or not. Yeah, why would she know that? Also, that’s for us to figure out which is why they notified us ahead of time. The lady was very nice and didn’t say any of that and that is why I’m not meant for customer service. I asked if she wanted to take some things to my aunt’s house and she said that would be too much trouble. Well, lady. We either put it in another fridge or let it spoil. There is no magic third option.

Our power is going out today for maintenance and I woke up and realized some of the food in the fridge will spoil. So I went to tell my mom and she said to call the electric company and ask them about it. Why? Why would they care about that at all? They can hardly keep their equipment up to date and keep starting fires but they will care about the food in our fridge. Anywho, I said I’m not doing that but you can call so she’s currently on hold. I pray for the person who answers.

Sunday dinner!

Some guy started messaging me on here and I indulged him for awhile because I wanted to see what he was up to. Welp, as soon as he asked my age and I said I was 40 he stopped answering so that was interesting. And now I had to block him because I felt weird about posting.

Facebook keeps trying to convince me I’m autistic and it’s very confusing. Because what they are saying does sound like me. But is that because of all the data they have on me? Maybe they try to convince everyone they’re autistic? I wanna ask my therapist if I should get screened but I don’t want her to laugh in my face.

My mom and I have been watching a bunch of junk journaling videos on YouTube (shout-out Johanna Clough) and I was getting inspired. I had this vision of a two-page spread with a pink/brown/vintage vibe and lots of pockets and flaps and things and it came out how I envisioned it! It took a couple of days and was so much fun to do!

Latest page.

My mom is so into junk journaling/scrapbooking now! It makes me happy to see her excited about stuff. She’s a sticker-fiend so I ordered a bunch of sticker books that will come today. I’m trying to get her out of the house more and really pay attention to my energy levels so we can do little field trips. Like we went to Costco and got a membership and went around trying samples and looking at stuff. And on Sunday my dad came up from Orange County to see our apartment and we went to see a movie. My mom hasn’t been to the movies in over a year. I found one in Pasadena where the disabled seating was in the back row and it was perfect. I also can’t believe my dad came all the way up here to visit and is already talking about next time. That’s good. I kind of wish he would move to this area too so I can keep a closer eye on him but he says he likes Orange County. We’re finally feeling like we’re settling in and it feels good.

I went to another junk journal event and this time I brought my mom to get her out of the house and so she can do something creative. She loved it and wants to do it at home to pass the time. Here are the pages we did:

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I just took my mom to Trader Joe’s and she used one of those motorized carts for the first time and it was hilarious.

Had a pretty great Mother’s Day. My mom and I went to Harold & Belle’s, which is this great creole restaurant that she loves. I made a reservation for kind of early because they have valet but the parking lot is crazy and my mom is disabled. But when we got there they were only serving brunch. Oops.

It was still nice though because the wings and grits she had were tasty and I was very pleased with my breakfast po’ boy. And a guy was going around with a saxophone playing jazz which is right up my mom’s alley. But then at the end of the meal, my mom asked if she could order off the regular menu and it was just then that they started serving it. So we ordered it to go and I heated it up for her later at home and she loved it so much. I’m so relieved. I would have never heard the end of it.

We also went over to my aunt’s house to visit her because it’s the first Mother’s Day without my grandma. I thought she might be having a hard time. We actually stayed for a few hours. I think she’s lonely so at least we could visit. It’s so much easier to get along with her when I don’t live with her. I guess some people just aren’t meant to live together.

Also when we were home an episode of The Love Boat was about to start and my mom actually let me watch it in the same room with her. It was one with Kim Richards and I got to tell my mom that she’s related to Kyle Richards and Kathy Hilton because I also make my mom watch Real Housewives of Beverly Hills.

Tried to make this woman into Beyoncé. My mom thinks she looks like a white woman. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Ooh, and the back looks cool too.

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