[sailor-sutcliff]

Finally ready to admit that I DO want romance in my life, but I am very afraid and it is so hard for me to feel romantic desire for anyone. Everyone is kind of chopped and does not have my best interest in mind.

[sailor-sutcliff]

tried dating again and alas, I am listening to Lana Del Rey sobbing on my bed room floor once again

Not crying for no reason btw. This person seemed like a real one. Too bad it's just the same uncommunicative avoidant once again.

[misophonie]

i am feeling some type of way that is secret but also kind of really isn't

[birdplushie]

"it's not that deep" START DIGGING!!

[phantomrose96]

You can be talking to someone and she'll be like, "Oh I made a silly mistake. Women don't deserve voting rights teehee." And you'll be like, "What." And she'll be like, "Oh I'm sorry! That must sound so bad out of context. No it's this Tiktok meme where, if you're a girl and you do something dumb, you say 'Women don't deserve voting rights teehee.'"

And you'll be like, "That sounds bad." And she'll be like, "No no. It's totally not that bad. It's just a meme. Men say it too. Like if a man does something silly he'll be like, 'I am like those women who do not deserve to vote.'" And you'll be like, "Does that make it better?" And she'll be like, "Well there was one guy who tried to make 'Men shouldn't vote' a popular meme. But it never caught on and also he got yelled at a lot."

And then you drop it there because like, you're harshing the vibe.

[wake-meme-up-inside]

God this makes me think of this screenshot:

"it minimizes you as a person" really wraps up my entire discomfort with the whole "oh but i'm just a girl" thing when used in most situations.

[aries-of-spades]

[sour-echinacea]

how am i so obsessive and so avoidant at the same time

[sailor-sutcliff]

OKAY another life update my dumbass is going to Italy in august on a whim cause

ticket price dropped to be a really good price I can pay off FAST

healing my inner child aka: the part of me that convinced myself I was shunned or shamed by my external family

food bro

beach bro

don't need to pay for a hotel

Cons:

mosquitos

have to talk to my mom who I have gone no contact with for the first time in five years (I already cried about it I've accepted it now and keep reminding myself it's only for a couple hours)

[sailor-sutcliff]

guy who I strictly called "muscle man" during the duration of our short time dating: I am so sorry for ghosting you three years ago. I hope you've been doing well. me who friendzoned him and didn't realize he ghosted me: FLEX YOUR BICEP BIG BOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW MUCH CAN YOU SQUAT

[sailor-sutcliff]

hey guys update he ghosted me again and lowkey .......... I feel kinda dumb cause looking back he just wanted external validation for a little bit before his Hinge matches got back to him

[sailor-sutcliff]

Hello long time no see sorry I BOUNCED off of tumblr once again I kept getting overwhelmed having social media on my phone but I am back for just this very moment (on desktop)

However life updates:

Started figure skating again like REALLY REALLY figure skating and it has been very fun and I have my first ice skating show in May! (I have one more session for this season tho and I might be taking a two month break just to help with saving money and also I need new skates soon AHHHHHHH)

Started lifting weights more and it has secretly become my personality

I've been dwelling on my ex boyfriend A LOT this past week and after being like "ok what is the trigger for this" I think it's cause of how much he would make fun of me when we use to go to the gym together gurl BOOOOOOO LAME

Been really into burritos lately..............tomorrow I may get another one

Decluttered my whole closet and gonna sort and donate some clothes woo but I decluttered my closet in an effort to declutter my room so I can get back into sewing cause seeing how piled my sewing desk is with random stuff? oh hell no

lowkey cosplaying again...already over it again

[ryebreadgf]

[achillesinhighheels]

choosing to ignore my strangely symbolic dream

[razerbackbitch]

[blakyoo]

this is so fucking funny man

[girlmostlikely]

ENOUGH WITH THE PROTEIN MARKETING! PROTEIN POPCORN THIS PROTEIN WATER THAT NOT EVERYTHING NEEDS 50G OF PROTEIN OK. WHERE IS THE FIBER. WHERE IS IT. WHERE IS IT?????

[fapper]

My friend: what does it mean when a straight man likes your story

Meanwhile me in my apt:

[omtai]

Im sorry I didn’t reply to your message for three weeks. I did not forget about it infact I thought about it regularly every day. It will happen again

[boamerry]

charge yalls vibrators this storm looks BAD

[iamoutofideas]

- ben frankling in slutty 1752