Your Forever Valentine

30 F | San Diego, CA | 🏳️‍⚧️

[touchmytylenol]

do u wanna come over & watch me cry

[grlstlker]

heavily interested in being the only girl you know

[samara-valentine]

Oh hi 🖤

[samara-valentine]

being bipolar sucks because some weeks I think life is lovely and easy

and other weeks I think everything is wrong and I want to die

It’s the dumbest thing lmao

But at least I’m aware of this oscillation, it makes the impact a bit less heavy

[grilledpeachh]

curiosity is such an underrated love language

[samara-valentine]

I hate feeling like this.

[samara-valentine]

I wish this relationship felt more like sharing experiences rather than me experiencing life with others and reporting back to you the cool things I do

[samara-valentine]

rewatching A Star Is Born (2018) with friends and ugh I’m getting too many feelings from it lol

I’ve hated that my heart had always been so willing to love people easily. I know it to be a good trait, but god damn I’ve loved some really awful people that I thought I could help or fix.

[rebelculture]

[bled]

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[kunosoura]

I think it’s normal for people to be mad at each other sometimes even if they’re close friends or family or intimate with each other. Like I think that’s a normal and healthy part of relationships that can happen sometimes

[kunosoura]

“Why were you on Mad At Me island” because at the time I was mad at you and yet our friendship has weathered that without trouble

[tiredragedemon]

I went to Mad At You island because my feelings are my problem. I needed to stomp down the beach until I could sit and watch the sunrise. I built a sandcastle and did some thinking. Then I boarded the good ship You Matter To Me and sailed it all the way to meet you on the Let’s Talk Shore of I Love You Island.

[1018hz]

[samara-valentine]

Me, trying my best to heal from my past

“Your ex boyfriend who broke up with you like 6 months ago got married!”

AAAAHHHHH GOOD FOR HIM I’M SO HAPPY FOR HIM

[samara-valentine]

I’ve had the shocking revelation tonight that while yes, I’ve been in therapy for 7 years, most of my therapy has been learning how to cope with what was actively happening.

Like my therapist knows my background, knows experiences I’ve gone through, but most of what we’ve done was work to get me through abusive relationships or complex situations I was dealing with. Because that’s how I’ve approached therapy - as a tool to help get me through things in the moment and not necessarily something to help me process what I’ve been through completely.

I can’t say we’ve really worked through in therapy these lingering feelings. And that’s really cool, in a way. I feel a sense of direction with this.

[mechamedusa]

dick from a man who has waited lifetimes to meet me again in my reincarnated form

[samara-valentine]

I’ve been working overtime these last 9 ish months on dealing with the piled up mess of traumas from childhood and formative relationships that I’ve carried with me and holy shit it’s heavy.

It’s interesting because I know I’d done a lot of work prior; I’ve been in therapy for 7 years. It just wasn’t until last May that I got the medication to help with Bipolar II, which would have been beneficial *years* ago.

So now, with plenty of tools and a safe environment to do said work, I’ve been dismantling the system of pain and suffering that has been my brain for a long time.

I can see it working in real time, and it’s lovely. It hurts a lot, but I can see it working.

[muzzlesandboots]

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