pulling through

everything that flows through my mind. from going through a breakup to overcoming an addiction, here the venting lies.

[mortally-sad]

It’s getting worse

[rigormorgue-deactivated20210309]

Well i stand in front of the mirror and look at myself and i don’t make a sound but my eyes scream out help. and i start to struggle to hold myself back from thrusting my head straight through the fucking glass

[patientlights]

[samijeanlove]

You said you needed someone to talk to. So i was there. You said you needed someone to be with you. So i came over. You said you needed to leave the house. So i came with you. You said you didnt want to be alone that night. So i stayed over. You spoke without words, feeling my skin for hours. I let you. You wanted someone to help you get over your exgirlfriend. So i was that girl. You wanted to have sex with a girl, you said it would make you feel better. So we did. I said i would always be there for you. And i was. You promised the same.

Now here i am. Needing someone. Just wanting to talk. I cant stop crying. You wont answer my texts. Or my calls. You shut me out. Youre ignoring me. I have been there for you for years. The one time i need you, youre nowhere to be found. Where are you. Where the fuck did you go. Where did i go wrong. What did i ever do to you. Why can i never do anything right. I fucking love you. Why cant you just talk to me so i can hear your voice. So i can stop crying. So i can fucking breathe…

[weltenwellen]

Anais Nin, Mirages: The Unexpurgated Diary of Anais Nin, 1939-1947

[capitalizetop]

[kilg0]

“Days are passing but it’s all blurry to me. I don’t know if it’s 3am or 3pm. Whether it’s a Tuesday or a Thursday. It’s all passing, sometimes quickly and other times painfully slowly. No one has figured it out yet. How numb and empty I am. I wonder if they see me at all... or do they see me like how I see the days passing? Blurry.”

Me Tillie (Kilg0).

[extramadness]

[sangura]

if they vent, it means they’re hurting and deserve support and love. if i vent, it means i’m selfish and attention-seeking and deserve to be ignored.

[nakedtruthxo]

[heyluchie]

My comic; “Introversion” is finished! Please go to the main page of my blog to read it in full size (the text is kinda small)

I really hope you’ll like it!

[shrineart]

This is so very, very perfect.

[kickingshoes]

If only I could buy this to hand out to friends/family/everyone when they ask why I don’t like to go anywhere.

[h-yesung-blog]

perfect. 

[icanbeyoursuperheroyo]

A very beautiful and meaningful comic.

[stormy0cean]

~ Depression Blog ~

[ashenveins]

// thoughts at 00:18am //

[samijeanlove]

“I’m laying in my bed, in my house and all I want to do is go home”

— This means something different to everybody (via redmysteryalexx)

[hplyrikz]

Find your inspiration here

[samijeanlove]

“I know you and I are not about poems or other sentimental bullshit but I have to tell you even the way you drink your coffee knocks me the fuck out.”

— Clementine von Radics  (via calmitate)

[h0pefulkid-withaninkedupheart]

She’s stubborn and hard headed but god knows I love her. There’s days when she’s grumpy for no apparent reason other than the fact that she’s grumpy. When she’s sick, she’s helpless and all you can really do is hold her in your arms and comfort her till she falls asleep. There’s days when she’ll complain about everything like the weather, people, music, or even you and you’ll just have to deal with it. She’ll complain about the room being too hot, to only result in closing the windows in the middle of the night because she’s too cold. There are days when she shuts the world out, she’ll ignore everyone because she just wants to sit in silence. Sometimes, she’ll claim she can eat an entire cow because that’s just how hungry she is. So we’ll make dinner plans and I’ll pick her up just to have her say, “I ate already, I was too hungry but I’ll still eat a little something.” There are days when she suffocates me with love. She’ll kiss and kiss and kiss, till I beg her to stop. She’ll tickle me until my insides hurt and hold my hand till it’s sweaty. There are days when she’ll claim every part of my body with her lips. And there are days when she’ll need her space and I’ll have to pull a chair up alongside the bed because she just needs her own space. There are days when her hair is messy and all over the place. Days when she’ll cry and you don’t know why but you won’t ask you’ll just let her cry. Days when she’s nervous and jumpy about everything. Days when she yells at me for no reason just to apologize two seconds later. Days when she’s a pain in the ass and pushes my buttons just to settle it with kisses. Days when I’m listening to my favorite song and she’ll talk over it because talking is more important than music. There are days when I need her to make decisions, to do the littlest things like pick a place to eat. She’ll refuse and say “I don’t know” until I give up and decide myself. Sometimes she’ll swear like a sailor and make jokes during times when she should probably be serious. There are days when it’s 3 in the morning and she won’t let me sleep and days when she’s too tired and fast asleep by 10pm. Sometimes she’s clumsy and sometimes she’s a walking contradiction; but she is everything I’ve ever wanted. I’d do everything to have her bad days, her grumpy days, her “I need space days,” her love me days, her laughing days, her clumsy days, and her happy days, because she is everything I’ve ever wanted and I wouldn’t dare trade her for anything in this world.

This probably means I love you (via h0pefulkid-withaninkedupheart)