I want to be thin

18~160cm/5"3~CW143lbs~GW140~GW130~UGW120

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Is it just me or when you see mealspo in here iv got no interest in eating "healthy" like i just want to eat a pack of kit kats all day and nothing else why would I waste my calories on cucumber or strawberry's?

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Hi, I'm 18 now my bf of 3.5 years just broke up with me im not that sad but it's triggered something inside of me that I can starve and be left alone.

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I'm back to 143 but it's fine cause going to do fasts

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Was 143lbs this morning. I've lost 3lbs in 4 days. I'm so happy

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Weight this morning was down to 144lbs only 2lbs down so far, but I'm happy it's only been three days.

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I went to weatherspoons today and got an 8" pepperoni pizza, which was like 500 and sumin calories

And that's all I've had today

My weight went down a pound, so I'm 145lbs now

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So we got scales, and I am 146lbs 4lbs overweight. I'm gonna cry. But my mum wants to go to actual restaurants in the weekend I'm going to cry.

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This is really random, but as a trans dude, taking birth control was the best decision ever. I got put on it at 13, and I haven't had an actual period in years.

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I really hope by the time I get scales, I weigh like 120 lbs? Cause I think rn I'm about 135lbs, but I am 5"3, so that's not that great :(

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I binged (ate a normal amount ig) all weekend and Monday but today I decided to eat meals and not try fast so I had two meals which in total came to 530Kcal and I dont feel hungry at all which is good. I think I'm going to try to eat like that more often, still restricting but not binging cause of it

We still don't have scales. idk how to get it. I dont think my bf would be willing to order them for me :(

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I've been fasting for 21 hours now, and I'm still not hungry. I did a 36-hour fast, broke it with toast , and started this one.

We don't have any scales, and I can't weigh myself at the gym cause I can't be clothed, so idk if I'm making any progress. My stomach is a lot less bloated, though.

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I never want to get better.

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I THOUGHT I LOST MY ACOUNT

I did a 36-hour fast yesterday and today , and I ate a slice of toast with like low fat jam now fasting again, not feeling hungry at all, though I'm very proud of myself

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Just went to the gym i felt so fat i didn't do any high intensity workouts just light cardio for an hour i burned 369kcal and I've eating nothing today.

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An introduction to me.

I am 16 yr old from the uk, I am a trans man who just wants to be thinner to hide my feminine body.

I have a boyfriend of 1 and a half years

I developed anorexia and bulimia at 11 yrs old

My stats are

Height 160cm/5"3

Cw ? (we have no scales but i would guess 135lbs)

gw 120lbs

gw2 110lbs

gw3 100lbs

lw 120lbs

hw 140lbs

All i want to do is lose weight before the summer and hold myself accountable.

also i need friends so if anyone is interested please DM me