Santi (he/him)

Multifaceted geek/nerd. I'm really into gaming, ttrpgs and miniature painting

[kinschi]

She doesn't want to see you get hurt either you self-sacrificial dumbass

[bunnilily]

(WIP) still thinking abt the twice lollapalooza performance… absolute insanity… 🫣😳💖

[santihnas]

Rant incoming: my paternal relationship and my longing of family

I dunno how to start this rant, but consider yourself warned about, this following text may be messy and long.

So, last weekend I was watching the fan animated version of Epic: the musical (as one SHOULD do, it's amazing) with three of my friends. It was the first time watching the animations for two of my friends and I and we were enjoying enormously. We were reaching the lasts two songs (spoiler warning for the Odyssey, a two thousand year old poem), when Odysseus reunites with his son and then his wife. My friends were nearly sobbing and I wasn't feeling it as much as them. When the tears stopped we talked about how, for one of them, they really felt the moment when Odysseus opens up to Telemachus and they're so happy to see one another. They told me about how their father was a piece of shit, as a father and as a person, so they longed for the feeling Odysseus shows for his son.

And this got me thinking (no, I didn't hurt myself in the process). Because (just so you know, internet strangers) my father was also absent most of my life and when I turned 18 he basically told me he didn't want to see me. But what I felt in that scene wasn't lie "Gee, I would looove if my father was like Odysseus" because I know my father would never do any amount of effort to see me. So then I looked at the other side of the coin. "What would I feel if I were Odysseus and I came back 20 years later to see my son?". And that's when it hit me.

I personally want to have kids in the future so when I inverted the roles and saw myself as Odysseus I started to feel more. Apart from the fact that Telemachus is a boy and I want a girl to be my daughter, but that's minutia. Now, with this renewed way of thinking I felt this song way more. Not as the child wanting for my father to come back but as the father who went to Hades and back (see what I did there, kinda genius ngl) to see my son/daughter.

Anyway, thanks for reading all the way through, if you haven't, go and listen to epic, is a wonder of a musical ❤️

[jadetea-writing]

Zoey ordered a custom kimbap shaped toy for Rumi to deepthroat

That is all

[santihnas]

Damm, some of you are really horny. Obviously not me, obviously

[redfoxraccoon]

[santihnas]

First one, guilty

Second and third one it's literally me

Fourth one is me with my homies, we're homoerotic af

[lexithestarqueen]

K-Pop Demon Hunters weapon concepts! (By Euni Cho (I think??))

[santihnas]

Hell yeah 😎, love this concepts

[ybz]

@paulinaklime Rumi 💜

[santihnas]

So beautiful omg

All credits to Paulina Klime

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Digital Artist

[enchantedbook]

'The Embrace' by Beneš Knüpfer, 1890

[santihnas]

Love the lil serpent leading the way

[konetainkarr]

burden of the past

(some dnd art with my current character bc I love him)

[valeri-roots]

Detective Harry is searching for Phasmid in the cane fields with great diligence

[thememedaddy]

[santihnas]

This:

[rainyzzel]

it def feels hotter now, right zoemira?

lmao it's super hot in my country rn, decided to draw this ahshahsh

(edit: yes, that is zoey's shorts.)

[santihnas]

In this blog we pray to women's abs

[andry-di]

I know this has already been made several times, but

Is she- you know... purple...

[santihnas]

Jejejeje

[latehawke]

Sometimes all you need is Derpy. And Jinu is alright. *plays free nonstop*

[santihnas]

So cute

[latehawke]

My king, my liege, my lover.

A little warm up for today.

[santihnas]

Me when someone hands me something small

[yuumei-art]

Working on my Inner Growth 😉 This one took way longer than it should 😞 I wanted to try out a new style in Procreate but the brushes didn't want to cooperate so I ended up with my old style, except it looks kinda off. I will have to repaint this on properly in Paint Tool SAI one day.

[rynli]

I can do what I want