⋆˚𝜗 Lilah 𝜚˚⋆

She/they ⋆ 18⋆ Black Lesbian I post my thoughts, this is basically my diary ¡Go to arab.org for daily clicks for Palestine!

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I’m even almost 2 months clean

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I haven’t used tumblr like a diary in so long and whenever I come on here and decide to look at my posts I can’t believe I was that depressed and it makes me realize no negative emotions I’m feeling rn are that bad

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I actually think I have to delete this app and try to recover

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I can’t even cry anymore honestly I just feel numb

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I need to get better but I don’t know how, I need medication I need a therapist I want to get better

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I hate myself so much what even is the point

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(⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠) teehee

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I wish I lived alone so I could just cut wherever I want

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As soon as I wake up the only thing I can think about is how much I want to kms

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i wanna push everyone away from me so i can kill myself alone without anyone noticing

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God I just want to kill myself

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I honestly don’t even deserve to feel the way I do

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Sometimes I wonder if it would really affect the people around me if I just killed myself

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Wait guys why do I lowkey not deserve life