Shy Asian female who listened to bimbofication hypnosis hoping to become less shy. I think it's working. Logging the changes I noticed for record. 18+ only please.
Sorry to have disappeared for so long. Honestly, the first few months was for some legit reasons like everyone in my family taking turn to have minor medical problems (all is more or less well now, no need for concern), and then being busy catching up at work etc. But the latter half is honestly just procrastination - the longer I haven't posted the harder it is to think of what to say when I post.
But with the 17th coming closer and closer, I have no excuse to keep delaying. Seriously, WTF Tumblr.
I will try to give a proper update later, but in case I don't get to it, I just want to thank everyone who has messaged me and or read my posts here. I'm sorry I'm not more active and I almost always chicken out of replying. Please know that I really appreciate your support. I love the community here, people are so supportive and friendly and accepting, and there are so few rude people compared to other social platforms (at least I've been very lucky so far).
I feel comfortable being open and honest here (well, as comfortable as I ever get anyway) without fear of being ridiculed, and I love how the informative posts and the kinky porn and the in depth discussions are rights next to each other's.
I'd hate to see the community scatter. Hope to catch up with you all elsewhere again - will look into alternatives and check where everyone is going over the weekends.
My work is having a Dress Pink Day next week. Taking that as an excuse to do some shopping. I haven’t actually have anything pink before... Since it’ isn’t on a casual Friday, I wonder how far I can get away with claiming that “that was the only thing pink in store that would fit me!”
A long while ago, I recommended someone a scifi novel series called Bobiverse. The books tend to throw in terms without explanation, and the friend usually just ask me to explain those terms. That was back when my mind wasn’t all fluffy and blank.
They asked me what is Fermi Paradox today. After a brief panic, I was happy to realize that I still remember what that is, and started explaining: “So, like, there are many many pla...plan... stars, right? Stars like our sun. So with that many stars there should be many other stars that has life right? Some of them must be highly ci.. civil... I mean, very very smart. It is so strange that they haven’t talked to us yet. Some people say that means something like really awful must be happening to highly developed civi...stars!”
As I was hearing myself talk, I realized I sound like a 5 year old who think they are “like, super smart”. I cringed hard but couldn’t figure out how to not sound dumb. I tried to play it off like I was ELI5-ing to my friend as a joke. I hope they bought it...
It’s like the hornier I’m, the more I sound like a silly bimbo, and the more that happens, the hornier I get. It’s a vicious cycle. To be completely honest, I was a bit turned on by how much of a dumb bimbo I sounded like. Still, I need to function enough for work, so I’m laying off on the bimbo hypno files for a bit.
I’ve downloaded a bunch of Japanese hypno file just for fun. It’s interesting how the Japanese seems to have a very different style for hypno audios. Most of them are very hands on. Like they ask you to prepare like 10 different props and use them at different time. It wasn’t working out for me as a hypno file at all. If I’m getting up to change or grab a clip or turn on the light to find a string I’m never getting back into trance. It’s interesting as an audio guide to playing with yourself tho.
The Japanese sites also recommended using these stickers with tiny tiny needle (originally for pain relieve) to stick around your nipple for a few days on and off to increase sensitivity too. I’ve decided to try it out and put them on last night.
They don’t hurt at much as you might think. Since the needle is tiny, it’s mostly just a bit itchy, and a tiny bit of pain if I press on it.
Not sure how it’s doing in terms of sensitivities (I’m supposed to put it on 2-3 days in a row, of a few days, and on again for a few times), but it’s making me constantly aware of my nipple and breasts. I accidentally pressed on it when hugging some files in front of me in a crowded elevator at work. It almost made me jump. I ended up running into the toilet at work to play with my breasts a bit... I really really hope there is no surveillance camera in there.
Do you have a current playlist of files you are listening to? Would you be willing to post it to help others train themselves to be wet little good girls?
I don’t really have a specific play list. I just download almost anything I see and put them in a folder, and then either randomly pick some files or search by keywords depending on what I feel like.
I’m ashamed to admit that I’ve got a lot of files um... not legitimately... downloaded, and I don’t want to mention those (Sorry!!! but I haven’t found a way to pay without disclosing my identity and having them show up on bank statements. I’m too paranoid for that).
For the free files:
I listen to Vive’s files a lot - his HFO files are one of the few that works on me, it works so well that I accidentally had it on during a flight and woke up twitching. I can only hope the person next to me just think I had a nightmare or something...
Nimja I also like, it’s one of those thing I enjoy listening to but don’t feel like it works on me right after listening, but obviously I’ve been proven wrong about things I didn’t think was working before, so who knows.
Stuff on warpmymind - the quality runs up an down hugely there. I usually only download things that has 4/5 stars and then delete the ones I didn’t like (eg, ones that spends 30 minutes attempting to trance you, and then at the last 30 seconds goes “oh hey so you bimbo now kthxbye”) and kept the rest.
I like queuing stuff on my phone to listen to, so I don’t really know about the ones on youtube and stuff.
I had a few days off and spent some time looking through my old posts, both on here and on my “public” social media accounts. While I’ve been documenting the my changes, it had been more or less gradual, so I always thought it was mostly little changes. Looking back, it’s scary how far I came (one example is that I just giggled at "I came”)...
Here’s some example of the subreddit I was subscribed to in my old reddit account http://i.imgur.com/JC5sqz7.jpg and I don’t care about half the things on there anymore.
Interest
Build my own PC? That sounds so complicated. I remember picking each parts and putting them together myself, but that feels like watching someone else doing it. Now I barely remember what parts a PC has other hand ram and harddisk. (and wow I just realized PC parts has some interesting names if you have a dirty mind)
I still tell people I like games, but more and more I feel like one of those fake gamer that I disliked. I was quite a hardcore gamer once, and now I can barely name the latest console out there and the last new game I kept track of was Nier. I feel like I want to play, but who has time for that when there are files to listen to and tumblr posts to look at.
Same thing with books, I used to love to read so much that my room was practically a library for my friends. Now I still think I want to read, but I only have one pair of eyes and ear, and reading isn’t a high priority option.
Smart(?)ness
I used to be the smart one in my group of friends. I got so many questions asking me to explain current events, scientific discovery, how to fix their computer problem, suggestion on what tech to buy etc. Lately I had to tell them “sorry, haven't’ had time to keep track of that” more often than not... Now I can’t even answer my friend’s 3 year old kids’ “why is the sky blue” type of questions. Hell I can’t even figure out how to count money most of the time and keep giving out bills and wait for changes instead. I’ve got so many coins now my purse is a weapon.
Feminism
This is a difficult one. I was never the militantly feminist type. But I do believe in equality, equal access and such. I think women are capable of doing great things, as much as men are.
For a while I feel really conflicted about this belief and my current interest and deposition. But I’ve settled on this: All genders are equal. Women can dom, men can sub, vice versa. As long as people are free to do what they want to do, it’s fine for me. Real misogyny is despicable, but “fantasy” misogyny is like any other role play, as long as it’s consensual, there’s nothing wrong.
Sexuality
Oh wow I forgot I suspected myself to be asexual for a while. I was so busy being shy I never wanted anyone sexually, male or female. I masturbated may be once a month or so and even then I looked at erotica text because I wasn’t interested in porn videos.
Now I’m wet like 24/7 and spend my free time looking at strangers getting aroused at my nude pictures. I think we can safely say I was very, very wrong. Cocksucking theme is very common in hypno file, I didn’t think they were doing anything much to me until recently. Close up pictures of people’s dick got me all tingly. Typing about it now got me all bothered too.
Years ago, my then boss got drunk at a farewell party and showed me his dick, I went eew and walked away. If it happened today, I think I might have reached out before remembering that coworkers can walk by any second. That’s a scary but tantalizing thought....
Still shy as hell tho, I’m not sure there’s much progress in that area lol.
Sorry for disappearing for weeks - I was tired and procrastinated on reading my message one day (one-on-one interactions stress me out somehow, even when the message are mostly from very kind and helpful people), then the unread number grew the next day, which gets even more daunting so I put it off, it then snowed ball to the point I didn’t dare to login for a while. I’m just gonna ignore that number for a while. Sorry.
Anyway, on to the updates. Mentally, I think I’ve hit a plateau (in a good way) - I’m functional at work, may be not as proactive as I were, but I can handle my current tasks. However, in my free time I am often very blank / serene. It actually makes daily commute much nicer - it feels like I get on the train, and the next thing I know I’ve arrived already. Not trying to change this any time soon, since I definitely need to stay functional at work to not get fired :p
On the physical side, last time I mentioned that my breast doesn’t have much sensitivity, some suggested that regular massage helps. While looking it up, I came across information about natural breast enhancement, and that sounded very fascinating. I sort of wonder if this has anything to do with the breast sensitivities hypno files I have been listening - 90% of them include something about growing as well, which I didn’t thought I'd want (since I’m self conscious enough as it is, and I actually looked up breast reduction not long ago), but look where we are now..
Unfortunately a lot of the supplement recommended doesn’t seems to be available locally, I’m trying to gather the courage (and excuses) to buy them online. International shipping sucks tho :/ Been working on the massage part, no change so far in terms of sensitivities, but I’d like to think the skin condition is definitely improving, which is nice.
Didn’t think I’d dare to post a photo online, no matter how anonymized and tame it is, but here is a “before” for record so I can compare in the future to see if there’s any change.
(just spent 30 minute staring at the post button contemplating. gonna click and go off hiding again before I lose the nerves. bye)
Is there some release or relief involved in sharing these things behind a screen of anonymity? Do you get a little extra bimbo charge out of sharing your experiences?
Yes and no at the same time. I do enjoy sharing my progress, the fact that some people enjoy reading them motivates me. In the mean while, actual communication with people stresses me.
Like, I love the idea that some anonymous people are reading these records, and love that I get messages that tell me they enjoy reading them. But I don’t want to think about actual *individuals* reading them, and communicating with these actual people is frightening to me. Self contradictory I know...
Hi, I found your blog from reddit. Congrats on your journey. Not trying to be insensitive, but your fear of sex strike me as similar to what some sexual abuse victim suffers. I am glad you are working past it, but if you were abused, you should seek professional help. I enjoyed reading your journey, just wishing the best for you. *hugs*
Hi, thanks a lot for your concern, it doesn’t sound insensitive at all.
Apologies if the phrasing I use was misleading when I say I’m “scared” of people, I don’t mean literally fear. Sort of like most of us probably have stage fright and fear of public speaking, but it’s not like we’re traumatized by speaking in front of people. It’s like that for me, for interacting with strangers. It terrifies me in the sense of wanting to run and hide, not in the sense of wanting to scream and cry.
In a way, there was some abuse in the past - there were an old neighbor that used to baby sit me when I was around 10, who like to have me very closely in between his leg often gave me popsicles and told me not to tell my parents (of course my parents won’t like to hear that I’ve so much sweet, right?)
Luckily I was completely oblivious to what’s going on back then, and by the time I thought about him while reminiscing about the past and realized that sounded off, the guy is long dead and I just was glad he didn’t try anything more extreme (and I can’t remember there being any other little girl around the neighborhood, so hopefully he didn’t try anything on anyone else either), and thought he was pathetic and sad more than scary.
All in all, I think I’m just extremely shy due to my own personality and conservative upbringing.
What's your age zone? Not asking in a creepy way, but considering hypnosis for motivation reasons. It probably works better the younger brain age you are, so it would be interesting if you are older. Are you post college?
I’m not that young, I don’t want to say anything too specific since for fear of people I know IRL finding out (not likely, I know, but I’m paranoid), but yes, post collage and worked quite a few years after.
Sorry I didn’t keep the torrent file. However, it was basically just large file dump from WMM.com. You’re better off going there directly to pick out what you are interested, since the files varies a lot both in categories and in quality. (Download links are visible once you sign in. Much of the files are free after a certain period of time has passed)
Plus there are other resources such as Tumblr, esuccubus, Vivi and Nimja’s site etc. I just didn’t know back then and had to grab something quickly to help me sleep.
It’s been one week since I noticed the effect of the hypno files I’ve been listening to, and decided to actively work on my bimbofication. (Details in my previous post). The more focused effort definitely made a huge difference to when I was just listening to all sorts of files for fun without care on what their topics were. Just want to log these changes for references.
It got very long and I didn’t want to take up people’s screen too much, so please click if you are interested.
Mental
The blankness (definitely working and I love it)
I’ve been feeling very blank especially in the last two days after I installed Tumblr on my phone and checking it regularly... When hanging out with my friends I catch myself spacing out and not following the conversation. And I have to really force myself to focus in order to not trail off mid sentence. My friends are asking why I’m acting so spaced out, I made some excuse about lack of sleep from playing video games. I like being blank but I’m having worries about what to tell my friends... I don’t think I’m ready to “come out” just yet.
Speaking of games, I’m getting very bad at games I used to play, since my thought process seems much slower. On my phone I’ve this app that prompts me for what app to use when opening files, if there’s no action taken, it uses the default/last app used after a count down. I set the count down to 3 seconds before. I think I need to change it to at least 8 second or something. Since by the time I understood the prompt and decided what to choose, the timer has long passed.
The dumbing down (more effective than I expected. may be too effective)
The way I always see the dumbing down part to bimbofication is that it doesn’t actually make you stupid, it just makes you not caring about being smart - like sciency youtube channels stopped being captivating, and I feel I’ve better things to do than reading my book. But if I put my mind to it, I am still perfectly capable of comprehending “smart stuffs”.
I still believe this theory. But I found I hugely underestimating the effectiveness and how difficult it is to force yourself to focus. I just forced myself to watch some quantum entanglement videos (something that always took me lot of processing to make sense of), sure, I still do comprehend them. But I had to pause and rewind multiple times since I kept spacing out.
I can see how prolong effect of this can actually literally make you stupid, even if just from completely losing touch with the intellectual stuff (I had the hardest time remembering how “intellectual” is spelled.) On one hand, that sounds very tempting, on the other hand, I need to stay functional to earn a living. So I think I’m gonna force myself to practice staying in focus at least 30 minutes a day either reading my books (which now feels very boring to me) or watch some informative youtube channel (which is much harder to focus on but doesn’t actually feel boring.)
Also, I suck at typing lately. I have been using computers since very young and used to type pretty fast and accurately (~280 CPM/180 WPM), now I keep making typing mistakes and grammar errors that I need to go back and change. This post so far has taken me 3 hours (including the spacing out tho).
I also find myself using less “professional” words a lot more. Just to demonstrate, from here on, whenever I use a word I never used before, I’d stop myself from actually correcting it, and mark it this way instead.
Behavioral / Physical
The Giggles (sort of)
One of the things often mentioned in bimbofication files that I never quite get was the giggling. I never giggle. I don’t mean I suppress my giggles or I thought they were stupid or anything, I just never felt the urge to giggle. I still don’t, but I think I’m starting to get it. I’m very juvenile in my thoughts these few days, even just from typing this post. I’d type “this post got very long” and think “long... tehe”, I type “I suck at typing now” and I think “hehe, I said suck”. There was this post from the reddit front page that starts with “no bones needed” and I thought “speak for yourself *smirk*”. (By the way, I’d be reading everything about some news on archaeology before. I really don’t care now. I might read it as part of my focus practice later tho.) No actual giggle is forth coming, and I still don’t particularly see the appeal of it so I’m not actively trying, but it might just be on it’s way.
The looking sexy (by my prudish standard, which just means slightly more normal than prude)
As mentioned in my previous posts, my clothes got a lot less conservative - just to clarify, I started out being very, very reserved, like black oversized tshirts, so my “less conservative” is still nothing to write home about (actually more like “ist still something I can totally write home about” in this context), but I’m getting bolder and actually enjoying it when I caught guys staring at my boobs* - that used to mortify me.
Enhancement of:
The Butt (on it)
Even after joining the gym, I still used to hate and skip out on doing squats. It’s very tiring, and I felt awkward poking my ass bottom out in the gym.Yesterday I was at the gym, slightly horny aroused from reading tumblr, and squatted till my legs were shaking. I think I caught some guys stealing glances and that made me tingly. The fact that it will help towards a better figure is a great motivation.
The Breasts (not really)
While I’m working on my butt, I’m not sure about my chest for now. Honestly I’m relatively well endowed in that area for being an Asian, that that’s something I’ve been very self conscious about. I’m starting to feel more comfortable about it and even loving it a bit. But going bigger is not in the current agenda.
I am trying to make them more sensitive tho. I’m one of those people who have barely any sensitivities in my boobs (I give up correcting myself), playing with them feels more like me playing with someone’s boobs than my boobs being played with - if you know what I mean. Listening to all kinds of files to see if I can help with that tho. Let me know if you have recommendation.
The Lips (may be)
Injection is a bit beyond me at the moment, but I bought a few lip plumping gloss/lipstick/balm and started applying them regularly. Extra bonus is they all tend to be tingly and fell very nice. I often just blank out and keep applying and applying for a while.
Sexuality (is very difficult to talk about but I’d say a success)
Damn, this topic is so difficult for me to talk about that it literally just un-blanked me trying to muster up the courage to keep going. I have to remember this trick when i need to focus in a hurry for work. I’m feeling more clear minded than I’ve ever been in the past 48 hours.
So, I said I’m a prude, right? That might be a bit of an understatement, I’m a virgin at my age (don’t want to risk revealing my identity but let’s just say I’m somewhere between 25-35) because anytime anyone even make an advance I just freak out and make excuses and run away.
I seldom got horny before, and I blush and avert my eyes/change topic upon anything even slightly sexual. Reliving physical needs was very mechanical for me and I read erotica instead of watching porn for it because even vanilla porn look grotesque. It also stay completely... external... because I tried putting my finger in, but like with my breasts, it felt more like me feeling around something warm than something being inside me.
I know it isn’t normal and that’s a large part of the reason I listened to the bimbofication files even before I decided to start the journey. I didn’t expect the file to change me, but at the very least it should get me used to the idea, right? I don’t want to force myself into having sex just because. But I don’t want to die a virgin, and much less never having any companion.
Yeah, well, the files did change me in that sense. I’m more frequently than not wet - actually I didn’t know “gooey and sticky” is actually the more accurate description until recently, and I can totally look at porn now. May be I’m looking at it too much lately actually. I also start contemplating sticking things other than tampon inside. I catch myself staring at adult shops hoping no one noticed. If only there were a way of buying things online without giving credit card details, nor name and addresses.
As for actually acting on the desire tho. That is still beyond me at the moment. People are still scary to me, can’t say I won’t run away if someone makes an advance. But at least I actually want to stop running, and in my fantasy, I don’t run. Baby steps, right?
Submission (if only not in person)
This is another thing that I’m all for in terms of fantasy. I like the idea of obeying someone and giving in completely. I do quite well in that with audio files. But the idea of someone actually commanding me, like, I have to give an response and/or do something in real time? Is super scary. Let’s just say I’m more shy than submissive and nothing much will happen on that end until I overcome my shyness.
I’d like to think I’m making progress tho. I never would have dared to post something as private at this post a few weeks before.
By the way, I received some very kind offer to help train me, but I just can’t muster up the courage to say yes, and I feel horrible to say no. So apologies if I don’t reply to you. Thanks for the offer but this is not something I’m ready for just yet.
I think that’s it. Have to try very hard to not delete the whole post and actually procrastinating on pressing the post button. Sorry if I disappear for a few days, I think I’ll go and hide a bit.
Currently hiding in the corner of my gym, quivering while I read the messages I received on Tumblr. Sorry if I don't reply, I just.. can't... not yet, at least. I hope people assume I'm just flushed from the workout. A few guys keep turning to look at me tho, may be I'm just imagining things.
First of all, in case it isn’t yet obviously from my posts so far, I’ve been raised to be the prudest of the prudes, so talking about anything sexual in nature is a bit of a challenge for me. I’m working on opening up more, but apologies that this post will be a bit vague...
See, here in Asia there is this thing called facial massage roller, they look like this:
It is supposed to lift your skin a bit if you roll it in your face for 30+ minutes a day. Me and my friend laughed about them all the times, who the hell want to spend that much effort for minuscule improvement that no one cares about, right?
Well I bought one today. My friends looked at me disapprovingly. I explained that I just tried it and it feels nice on the face and that’s why I bought it. Glad they didn’t ask why I even tried it in the first place.
Let me just report that it feels nice on a couple of *ahem* other places as well. I was playing with it while looping some new files, and currently contemplating making use of the handle as well...
ps. the fact that my identity will be blown if my friends somehow happen upon this post is both terrifying and tantalizing.
I used to like watching science / educational youtube. Veritasium, SciShow, Minutes Physics etc. 6 months ago if you login to my youtube account, that’s all you’ll see.
Lately I’ve been almost exclusively watching makeup videos. As if that’s not enough, yesterday I spent hours binge watching gossip videos about the makeup gurus - This is shocking to me because I always thought gossips were dumb. I didn’t care for entertainment news because I thought reading out what celebrities do off the screen was stupid. To be honest, I was disappointed in myself. I like the idea of becoming a dumb bimbo, but not a dumb gossiping bimbo.
So to make up for it, today I went and watch a video by Veritasium. Here’s what happened:
Youtube showed me some skincare commercial. I then spent half an hour looking up review of that skincare product and added it to my shopping cart.
Came back to video, he’s talking about rolling something down a slope, cool I guess...
This is going kind of slow, why don’t I keep listening to this in the background while I look at something else.
Switch window to look at all the bimbofication tumblr pages I just discovered the other day
Actually, this guy has a pretty nice voice... I want him to say dirty things to me
Touched myself while looking at tumblr and listening to a guy talk about physics
I guess my youtube habit is not going to change back that easily... Good news is now I just want to go back and listen to a few hypno files for the nice voices and I don’t care about youtuber gossips anymore. (I like Vive’s voice. Any other recommendation?)
You know I like the whole “good girl gone bimbo”-routine, but there’s a big problem.
There’s tons and tons of content about this out there, but i haven’t found a place, where all these websites are linked. The TG community is organized much better, which is why I was into TG content in the first place.
So I thought about opening my own little link-library of good bimbo (non-tg) websites right here. This post will be updated whenever I find a website that I want to keep or recommend. I’m starting right now with a rather small collection, but I already know a few other pages to add soon.
Feel free to recommend sites for this list.
UPDATE JULY 2015: Sadly we’ve lost a lot of good blogs in the last year. I just updated the list to only include still available websites.
UPDATE MAY 2016: Added some new blogs. Please recommend more new blogs to me. I know there have been some new ones lately, but I didn’t keep track. So message me for any additions .
UPDATE APRIL 2017: Mostly added some stuff that was long due to be added and deleted some removed pages. The Bimbofication Subreddit has helped a lot.
Communities
Bimbofication Subreddit
Captions
Amiee’s Bimbo Stories
Bimboization
Bimbomatic
Bimbo Transformations
Bimbo Puppets And Playthings
Bimbos and Dolls
Bimbo Slave Pets (Mollypops23)
Brains to Bimbos
Catfish 27
Devil in the Details
Control and Surrender
Fantasy Transformations (mostly reposts)
Jukebox (new)
You can never read to many erotic stories…
Mind Control and Bimbofication by The Fish
Mind Control Fantasies (WillbGone)
Mind Under Master
Moq’s Bimbo Fiction
PhD Bimbo (seems inactive)
Relattic Stills
Remedial Education for young women
Silly Bimbo Babes (new)
Suck it Bimbo
The Hands That Lead
Their Only Purpose
The Noble Robin (seems inactive)
The Sane Scientist
The Splash’s TFs and Mind Control
Uplifting Tales for Aspiring Sluts
Yellow cunt
BPAP (Bimbo Puppets and Playthings)
checker
Choose your own transformation
Chrystal Wynd
Downing Street
Kris P. Kreme
Limerick
Lisa Teez
MrGrey
Pan
The Hands That Lead (new)
The Sympathetic Devil
William Pratt
Wesley King
Art/Comics
Amaz2k12 (new)
Avaro56
BimboFans (Group)
Checker 625 (inactive)
Darkoshen
Dynamoob
morphed08 / Keshara Store
Kimplants (new)
LeticiaLatx (new)
Mr_Phoenyxx (new)
relattic (new)
SitryAbyss (new)
sortimid
The6ovner
TheGreatDaeo
VipCaptions (new, even though it should have been here since the beginning)
Games
Bimbo Sequencer (sortimid) (new)
Corruption of Champions (new)
Girl Life (new)
The Collar (new)
Trap Quest (new)
Trials in Tainted Space (new)
SelectaCorp (new, untested)
Virtual Vacation (new)
Yes, Mr. Brown (new)
