hey it's gonna be okay

23. learning to accept myself. Addicted to iced coffee, rap music and leggings. TWLOHA intern alumnus.

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[sarahrisingstrong]

You are worthy of connection.

You are worthy of hope and help.

You are worth it.

[sarahrisingstrong]

I’m so tired of freaking out over food but I DON’T KNOW HOW TO STOP. I literally just had safe food today and I’m still freaking out. fuck this man 

[sarahrisingstrong]

Highlight of my month right here. Got some quality time in wit my best friend Kait. She’s working so hard on her recovery and it’s making me take inventory of my own. We ate together, talked and did a little self-care.

Therapy has been slowly challenging. Sessions get upped in March to twice a week. The challenge is to look at the reality of how things are and to take action for change. My dietician reached out to me after I kind of ghosted her and asked her if I wanted to meet. So there’s that. I keep telling myself things are fine with food. But I’ve dropped weight since my previous doctor appointment and is continuing to suggest going to residential and it makes me think maybe I don’t have things under control still.

I really am liking the hustle of my job and feeling important and needed. So it just seems again hard to consider leaving before being eligible for FMLA.

[sarahrisingstrong]

Omg theres girls pictures everywhere in your blog whats going on

Ok so I figured it out, whatever asswipe hacked my account put hundreds of pictures in the Tumblr queue which I legit didn’t even know that existed! They had the queue set to publish 44 fucking times a day. NOT TODAY BITCH!!! So. it’s all been deleted and my password changed, so hopefully no more porn or weird pics. I’m so sorry to everyone.

[sarahrisingstrong]

Hello buddy i think your account got hacked or something u just posted a girls pic with a link. Im confused anyway if its not you stay safe

I definitely was hacked!! I just changed my password and deleted the posts! SO sorry!! 

[millyredhead]

Remember that 💕

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[sarahrisingstrong]

re-fucking tweet! 

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New Kitchen Open Shelving Remodeling Trend

[angelaeleni]

“People are always rushing to get nowhere. Be present and patient.”

— Growth Getters

[sarahrisingstrong]

Update on me:

Hi guys,

It’s been a little bit since I’ve said anything on here. Mostly because I don’t want to be negative. Things are hard. I sent in part of an admissions packet at Carolina House and did an assessment with Fairhaven Treatment Center. Both recommendations have been residential. However, my therapist and I have decided to up my weekly sessions to 2️⃣/weekly staring when he has availability for it in February. I really think I want to try that before making a decision to go to treatment. It seems better, more accountability and I get to keep working. So that’s what’s going on as of right now. Food intake and body image have been at an all time low as of lately. But I’m trying to focus on my goals for therapy we’ve set.

TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ step on my scale less and throw away my diuretics. Also I canceled on my dietician.

I’m stressed about food for tomorrow and the holidays.

[sarahrisingstrong]

my recovery is absolute shit, but at least my hair is cute AF 👌🏽

[happydayssuggestions]

You aren’t worthless.

Starving yourself will not pay off.

You need to eat.

You need to realize your worth.

Your worth shouldn’t be based off your weight, because it’s not true.

You are worthy of love from everyone, especially yourself.

Think of very much younger you. Would they be understanding of this? Would they approve? Would you tell that small child how horrible their weight is and that it makes them worthless?

[sarahrisingstrong]

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