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Watching a Japanese Drama and the quote "I am at home but I still got the 'I want to go home' kind of feeling" Like damn. Straight to the heart.
Law and Order is so islamophobic. Idk if I'm misinterpreting or whatnot but I skip every ep even if it mention islam bc there so many negative connotation.
Another rant.... I start Legend of Dugu (2017) bc old cdrama is always goated.
And it have such an interesting concept. It was prophesied that the Dugu will rule the world. And we have three brilliant and cunning sisters playing the game of politics and human chess. I... Am so scared to get attached to anyone honestly bc with these kind of drama I just know someone gotta die early and HE is not even guaranteed.
BUT I COULDN'T HELP BUT TO FALL FOR THIS GIRL OMG. This Is Dugu Ban Ruo, the eldest of the three sisters and she. Is. A. Badass. This scene over here? SLAY. LITERALLY. She slayed a horse without blinking an eye just to make a point and man that point was delivered. Homegirl is the coolest, richest, most influential woman ever and she knows it. I couldn't express just how calm and clever she is and she proved it in just one episode.
And this couple.... Her and Yuwe Hu...... THEY HAVE ONE SCENE TOGETHER THIS EP AND THEY COMPLETELY STOLE THE MOMENT.
I find them so intriguing bc im not sure if they really love each other or not. They're definitely using each other tho and they're not hiding it at all. Ban Ruo want to be empress and Yuwe Hu want to be Emperor. He needed her family and her influence, she wants him on the throne. It's transactional but at the same time they're just so appealing to me. Him getting horny hearing her plotting and look so ready to worship her, and Ban Ruo love having that power. They're like the evil couple, Scarlet Overkill and her husband lol.
Ban Ruo and Yuwe Hu are so good together because they're both ambitious, cunning, ruthless and will cut a bitch. They complement each other well. I'm rooting for them even if they are low key evil ð (I just know they're not gonna have a happy ending bc villians just could never ever in cdrama... But I hope they stayed until the end of the power game bc so far they're the strongest players).
LOOK AT THEM. Threatening each other in a caress whisper (legit their foreplay) , the tension between these two is insane. And another thing about their relationship is how fragile it could be. Again, they're both won't hesitate to get what they want even if it means hurting each other.
The line that Ban Ruo drew is her family. They are absolutely off limits (and this makes me love her even more). But at the same time, if her father become the prime minister, he would be a threat to Yuwe Hu. So if that did happen (and based on how the ep end, it's most likely), then Ban Ruo and Yuwe He might end up being enemies. So it all depend on the Dugu father. Both are not afraid to turn the table on each other.
It'll be such a shame though because they feels like the IT couple. They complement eahc other so well and match each other's freak and ruthlessness. They make me root for them just by how competent they are together and individually ð.
Some quotes I absolutely love:
"You're so cruel everytime I don't understand why I would like you."
"Isn't it because I'm the only one who can help you to become emperor?"
DBR *insult YWH low family bg and brag about her influential family while they were close enough to kiss* innocent ask: Did I say something wrong?
YWH *heart eyes*: In this world only I can tolerate such an ambitious woman like you.
YWH, threatening but also flirting: I don't wish to fight my future father in law.
DBR, threatening but also flirting while whispering lovingly in his ear: You dare?
DBR: I'm telling you seriously, my family is off limit, I'll fucking gut you if you do anything to them.
YWH, turned on: Why so serious? I'm is it joking.
DBR, smiling: but I'm not.
YWH: *gets even more turned on*: so let me tell you seriously, stop flirting with my cousin/br (idk lol).
Then they almost kissed.
THEY'RE SO FREAKY IT'S SO FUNNY. THEY'RE FLIRTING WHILE THREATENING EACH OTHER AND THEY WERE SO TURNED ON. GOD PLZ LET THEM WIN THE THRONE. IDC IF THEY'RE EVIL.
Okay moving on to the second sister: Dugun Man Tuo
She definitely showed that she is smart and as cunning as her sister. She, however, have jealousy and daddy issues. She thought her father didn't love her and was jealous of her other sisters esp Ban Ruo bc she's not legitimate. She always compare herself to them and all that. Man I hate character like her ð. As ambitious as Ban Ruo is, at least she would guard her family with her life. She have loyalty to the family bc she loves them. Man Tuo have no such qualm. I feel like even if she have to sacrifice her sisters or family she wouldn't bat an eye and that is dangerous. But we'll see more about her and again tbf, she proved herself a good schemer and is as calm and cunning as Ban Ruo.
For the third sister, Dugun Jia Luo, she is my least favorite and unfortunately, she is the protagonist (if the poster is ant indicator) and I got a feeling she gonna win everything.
She is the youngest. And she have this typical "I'm not like other girl, I love horse riding, archery and I hang out eith boys only and I'm spoiled and bratty af but always get away with it bc I spoke coquettishly and act like a child." She was dancing on my nerves I'm so sorry esp in the beginning of ep2. GIRL PLEASE. she's daddy's favorite and act so bratty I want to bash her head against the wall. STOP SPEAKING IN BABY VOICE.
That being said, she's the one without any political ambition between the siblings and ofc she would be the one to triumph because she's so selfless and good *roll eyes*. The scene in ep2 pissed me off so bad I'm ranting but goddddd you stupid spoiled child what is wrong with you???
We have have to see her character development I guess. I don't want to judge her too harshly so early in the show but I reallyyyy wish that she got a development and grew out of her spoiled naive phase. If she's gonna win the whole thing I want it to be because she's worth it and gain it and not because she have plot armor and kindness and the power of friendship. Please spare me. Especially when her two sisters are easy to root bc they showed more nuance, ability and effort more than she did even at this stage.
DUGU BAN RUO YOU'RE THE ONLY BITCH I RESPECT IN THIS HOUSE. Literally though, she have the most common sense and an iron grip over the situation. She managed her family household, she managed her siblings, she maintained the Dugu family reputation. She's literally holding the siblings together.She's the calmest and most rational I'm not even freaking kidding and this scene illustrates that.
"Maybe your husbad will show disloyalty. Maybe your children will be unfilial. But only your parents and your siblings will support you forever." SHE IS SO REAL. SHE'S A FAMILY WOMAN. SHE'S EVERYTHING. she's the only one setting her priority straight and use her head ðð. The whole family depended so much on her but her father still favored Jian Luo more. The curse of the eldest sister ð
GIVE HER A THRONE IF SHE WANTS ONE PLZ.
Okay it's probably gonna be a long rant. But I recently watched the first three ep of Blossoms of Power and I think its really good yk but at the same time I have the same problem with this drama as I do with Ashes of Crown... Both are neck-breakingly fast paced. And this sounds weird coming from me, who love fast pace bc I have low attention span lol. Idk I guess it felt jarring and it doesn't give you enough time to warm up to the world and else.
But I also feels like the intelligence and authentic of the fmc doesn't feel authentic (for both drama). Idk why maybe it's the fast pace or something else but the way they just know almost everything and was able to predict everything to a t just doesn't feel real. Like I stan a brilliant scheming queen but it felt like plot armor.
A scheming character I absolutely adore (and was so irritated by how good she is bc she's technically the fmc) is Qin Ban Ruo and also the iconic wolf-in-sheep-skin Consort Jing from Nirvana in Fire. The former is a professional strategist and the other scheme for survival and she is so damn subtle no one suspect her.
The point is, the characters felt more grounded and I can actually believe they are these geniuses. It also helps that they are not a teenage girl with a sudden rebirth.
I'm join complaining at this point but I do enjoy Blossoms of Power and Meng Zhiyi absolutely ate her role. I love the character I just wish its a bit more grounded before setting off.
I mourn the fact that the knights were almost 24/7 in their armor cause their civilians clothes are so distinct with personality and so cool.
Merlin fic recs bc I found some gold back then!
Lowkey crack
- Coming Up Roses by MerlinLikeTheBird - gwaine pov, everyone loves Merlin, magic reveal, merthur
- The Devil's in the Details by somethingaboutwriting - magic reveal, everyone's an idiot
- Family Matters by watchriverdale - Merlin and Morgana bonding with Aithusa. Love this.
- You're Awful, I Love You by raven_of_hydecastle - Mergana but love potion. Funny af ð.
- doe eyes by Sharedo - Mercelot. Cutee
- I Also Have Magic by OwlsWithFins - Mercelot. What the title said lol
- Capes and Cornflowers by injeong - Arthur get the shovel talk
- Finding Merlin by Drag0nst0rm - I read this every week lol.
- Think Think Brain Blast by Bonfirefly - everyone have magic... Or do they??
- Sweet, Angelic and Clumsy Boys Dominate the World: A Guide to Conquering Camelot Before Lunch by Daegal by quotidian_void - Merlin and Daegal ðð
Not-crack
- Merlin's way by Donaji25
- The Parallel Palace by PaperInfinity - angsttt
- A Loyal Traitor by the_fandoms_have_risen - this one gives me shivers.
- Dark; Dark and Deep by bad_peppermint - the vibe y'all... It's so alluring and dark.
- As You Held Me Down, You Said: by Ynnealay - literally my comment:
Long fic
- Crown to Rust by Xenosangui - incomplete/ongoing.Royal! Merlin. So so good!!!!! I would give my kidney to read another chapter.
- The Waking Hour by The_Pen_and_the_Sword - it's just angst and extremely powerful but detached Merlin. I love this sm but if you're looking for bromance or merthur this wouldn't be your cup of tea.
- A Warlock's Wish by vividpast - a fandom classic.
- The Impersonated Self by fourleggedfish - not even kidding, this series is my favorite fic EVER. It's the existentialist crisis of Merlin and exploration of his lore and destiny and so on. Merlin and Arthur needs therapy more than they need each other honestly.
- Only A Boy by RiddellLee - another fandom classic. Merlin in HP world. Reread this three times sue me.
- Loyal 'Til the End by misti4492 - another classic.
- Destiny's Path by MonJoh - Mergana. My favorite.
- When Love Was An Act of Defiance by Artugus - Mercelot my doomed baby.
- in my end you were my beginning by no_nutcracker - anything by this author honestly. Heart wrenchingggggggg. Author got PhD in the art of heart wrenching and tear jerking and a Master is devastation and angst.
Mercelot corner â€
- Tethered by Personaje - it's so sad I don't know what else you want me to say ð (also check out other work by the author)
- (In)convenient Coverups by Wh0re4Hugs - fake relationship hehe
- If It Is Not for Love by discoXena
- Will You Still Love Me When I Got Nothing But My Aching Soul? by nie_narzekam - also check out other work by the author for more Lancelot shade angst.
- with these tender hands (love me gently) by Imagined - ABSOLUTE FAVORITE.
- Arson in Scotland by Uniasus - this is technically more Merlin/Gwaine but the endgame is Gwaine/Merlin/Lancelot. I LOVE THIS. It gave another take of what happened during those hundreds years for Merlin. He actually moved on, get with other people, build a business. What I love the most is the dynamic of Merlin with the others when they came back. It's so realistic bc it's not perfect, far from it. There's a hundreds of years gaps between them and it showed. Lancelot is the best one and only, Gwaine is trying, Merlin is tired, the other knights including Arthur are doing their best but it's awkward and jagged. I wish that this fic is longer or there would a be a fic based on this one because the concept is so interesting and unique I want to see more of it ð.
- Between Then and Now, Life Happened by mollrach13 - okay this is another Gwaine/Merlin/Lancelot but HEAR ME OUT: I love angst. When Gwaine is trying to be Merlin's wife when suddenly Merlin's dead wife come back to life (rhetorically ofc, the wife part, not the coming back to life).
- Some Sunny Day by longleggedgit - endgame actually Merthur and I respect the author for that. Their writing is simply stunning. But Arthur's a major asshole.
I shipped Mercelot bc Lancelot might be the only person (other than Gaius) to truly see and love Merlin for what he is and I ship Mergana because they're probably the only two person who truly understand each other down to every pains and bone but can never see eye to eye.
Albus Potter might be the only teenage-angst-daddy-issues-jerk that I accept honestly.
A mini drama Review but I've watched until ep4 of Marry My Husband (Japanese version) and IT'S SO GOOD OMG. I have 0 expectation honestly bc I found the drama from tiktok video that kinda summarize everything then leave you hanging for part 2. And I was actually searching for trashy vertical cdrama because I need to fried my brain a bit (I've finally finished the first book of Reverend Insanity and needed a break from reading lol). Then the tt video came and the plot looked good (again I have zero expectations).
But then I actually watched it and it hooked me so bad??? It's insanely good!!!! Honestly, I love the Misa so much she's so cute and have the whimsical, awkward vibe that feels absolutely natural to her. She adorable and endearing. At the same time she tryna grow a backbone and GO OFF QUEEN. She deserved the world honestly. And the actress is so pretty omg her bangs are to die for, they're so cuteeeeee. The male lead?? MAN WHO YEARNS IS MAN WHO EARNS. This guy have a PhD in Yearning and Master in Act of Service. He tryna look cold and nonchalant â WHEN HE'S THE BIGGEST NERD EVER. Seriously, he's a nerd and a dork. Baby should've been a researcher like he wanted instead of boring suit and tie corporate work.
Personally I feel the chemistry between the two off chart. THEY'RE SO CUTE PLEASE. I love that she was comfortable enough to actually go off at him instead of trying to be a people pleaser. He encouraged her to be mad and like her purely for who she is. And I love that at the same time her growth is entirely her own journey to explore. Her past life was horrible and she is learning from that. He was just there for occasional moral support. BUT HE'S DOWN BAD LIKE OMG. They both were two nerds geeking out on their favorite desserts and genuinely LOVE THEM ARGH.
The best friend, Reina....... God I haven't feel this much rage for a character since Fang Zheng. This is the opposite of Girl's girls. This is just someone who like to make her friend's life miserable so she could feel better about herself. Always playing the victim and the good guy. SHE PISSED ME OFF SO BAD BRUHHHH. LIKE CAN'T YOU JUST LEAVE MISA ALONE YOU MISERABLE EXCUSE FOR A HUMAN BEING???? Stop trying to tear people down to make yourself feel better ð. And genuinely I think there are people like her in real life, this "fake friend" And it scares me. That being said, I gotta give it to her, what she did to her cheating boyfriend was badass. Like let's not lie, that's a queen moment.
Horrible person overall though.
ALSO THE CHEF GUY. OMG HE'S SO CUTE TOO AND HE'S A GENTLEMAN. He and Misa are adorable I'm ngl. A dessert chef and the girl obsessed with it?? High school first crush?? They're so cute I was lowkey rooting for them and I hate that they introduce him to be such a nice guy because now I ship them and I jsut know he's gonna end up heart broken ðð. Can't Misa have both of them??? Both men yearns and love so much I can't â (I hate love triangle the most but it's not a big aspect of the show. It's jsit the way someone is feeling and he's not really doing anything with the feelings. We jsut know he likes her which makes it sadder ð).
So yeah, it's beyond my expectations, is ridiculously good and I'm addicted. I've never watched a J-Drama before but damn maybe I should start.
And here's a particular shot and that got me love-strucked. It's so beautiful!!!
Bai Ning Bing and Fang Yuan morally are incorrigible but aesthetically and as a duo? They're so funny and iconic ð.
About Fang Zheng... If you look at it from his perspective, I absolutely understand how he felt living under his brother's shadow. Fang Yuan is also cold and not particularly nurturing even in his first life. But Fang Yuan still took care of Fang Zheng through their childhood and he never did anything against him. It's normal to gloat and feel pleasure when he discover that he is better than Fang Yuan, honestly. It's natural. But the constant competition he have with Fang Yuan in his mind is absolutely irritating.
He is a good person but he constantly villify his brother for no reason other than to feel superior to him. He just couldn't stand to watch Fang Yuan succeed or be more than him in any form. That, my friend, is your own damn self esteem issue. He feels like everything Fang Yuan did is to belittle him or to make fun of him or something. Girl, Fang Yuan don't give a fuck, if you're not in his eye sight your name wouldn't even come up in his mind. Not everything is about you. You just have extremely inferiority issue and taking it out on him.
Stop blaming him for your self esteem and stop depending on his high and low to measure yourself. Fang Zheng, you're the one torturing yourself. Just live for you. Advance or do whatever you want without having this weird mental competition.
That being said, Fang Yuan is the villian. He indirectly almost get Fang Zheng killed and couldn't care less. I can understand why his apathy grated on Fang Zheng, but tbf, Fang Zheng wasn't a good brother either. Even before the Awakening Ceremony he was resentful. So I guess they're always doomed. Fang Zheng for his resentment and envy, Fang Yuan for his apathy and inability to care.
Siblings will always get me weak
Did anyone also read "Crown to Dust" In ao3? I remember reading that in 2021(?) and was happy to see it was updated in 2025 but there's no update anymore so far. Absolutely love the work!
This a long with "A Warlock's Wish" are one of the most goated Merlin fanfic (in my humble opinion).
BBC let Merlin be happy for two seconds challenge: Failed.
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I love Reverend Insanity so far but chapter 151-152 is particularly hard to swallow because 1) the bear eating thing. I don't even like the girl but is it necessary? I don't know it's plain uncomfortable to read. The book itself so far have so many misogynistic tone to women in the way they were described. The thing itself was in character for Fang Yuan, but...dear author is it really necessary to be that way? It's weird. 2) is animal cruelty ð. I mean I shouldn't sympathize with a bear that literally eat a girl up but forcing it to swallow spine that hurt him and stuff...
Funny how I can put up with murder but draw line at animal cruelty and misogyny. Everything was good so far but this particular scene just put me off.
man I wish they had more episodes together where they just did random shenanigans:)