"Heaven knows you tried. Got it? Good, now get inside" ella/él || no sé como usar esta cosa || karmaland, amphibia y toh || Lzu cubito el dueño de mi corazón
I've been working on this Caleb and Veth playlist for literal years and I figured it was finally time to share it. Since Spotify still doesn't let you annotate your playlists, enjoy my lyric-based annotations below. 🧡💛
Maybe In Another Life (Caleb + Veth)
Songs for two people who found each other at their lowest lows, who loved each other even when they didn’t know how, who followed each other to the end of the world, who saved each other. Songs for what was, what could have been, and what could still be.
1. Better Version of Me / Autoheart
I wanna be a better version of me / I have a vision that one day you'll be proud / Instead of saving me from every mistake / I'm deadly serious (I’m deadly serious)
2. Body Terror Song / AJJ
I'm very sorry that you have to have a body / One that will hurt you, and be the subject of so much of your fear / It will betray you, be used against you, then it'll fail on you my dear
3. Would That I / Hozier
True that love in withdrawal was the weeping of me / That the sound of the saw must be known by the tree / Must be felled for to fight the cold / I fretted fire but that was long ago
4. Under my Skin / Jukebox The Ghost
I can fit two people under my skin / Yea I can fit two people under my skin / And I will prove it if you will listen / You crawl up in there and join me within
5. ANTIFREEZE / hard life, Gus Dapperton
Maybe in another life / Maybe…
6. Something About Us / Daft Punk
It might not be the right time / I might not be the right one / But there's something about us I want to say / 'Cause there's something between us anyway
7. Jenny (I Wanna Ruin Our Friendship) / Studio Killers
I wanna ruin our friendship / We should be lovers instead / I don't know how to say this / 'Cause you're really my dearest friend
8. Church / Fall Out Boy
Oh, the things that you do / In the name of what you love / You are doomed but just enough / You are doomed but just enough
9. My Body / Young the Giant
Hey, is it my fault that / The fallen embers burn / Down in a spiral / 'Round your crown of thieves / My body tells me no / But I won't quit 'cause I want more
10. Bad Habit / Foals
'Cause I'm a bad habit / One you cannot shake / And I hope that I change / Don't follow me / Don't follow me
11. Collateral Damage / Shovels & Rope
They say you better learn to be a good wife / And make everyone a comfortable life / I'm trapped on the wheel like a circus mouse / Banging on the windows of my glasshouse
12. Ghosting / Mother Mother
And this is why I have decided / To leave your house and home unhaunted / You don't need poltergeist for sidekicks / You don't need treats and you don't need tricks / … / And you don't need me
13. Saint Bernard / Lincoln
I said "Make me love myself, so that I might love you" / Don't make me a liar, 'cause I swear to God / When I said it, I thought it was true
14. Be Gentle With Me / The Boy Least Likely To
So just be gentle with me / I'm not as young as I was / And I'll be gentle with you / I'm not as brave as I thought / 'Cause my heart gets broken so easily / So just be gentle, be gentle with me
Of course I love the "he's my boy speech", it's one of the most amazing moments in the campaign, but honestly the whole aftermath of it is golden too.
Like, the conversation with Fjord and Beau and Molly ends with her saying "I'll talk to him" (and then there's a round of Beau threatening her, and Nott being mad about Molly casting charm person on her when she was trying to steal from Fjord etc.), but like then she goes and finds Caleb, and he asks how it's going up there, and the first thing she says to him is "I stole this fucking scroll for you"!!!!!!
The scroll that the whole fight was about! The scroll that all the others were mad at Caleb for trying to steal, literally the thing that set off the whole fight! She just had that in her pocket the whole time!
And it's not until after she has given it to Caleb and they've been all excited about it that she even mentions that the others were mad at him. And when she does, she is still so firmly on his side about it!
"They were very upset that we tried to take the scroll box. They are in the firm belief that it would have left some sort of clue that would have led the authorities to us by stealing something, after we had broken into two houses, stolen other things, torn up a rug–"
Like, every aspect of the sentence makes it clear she disagrees (and she says "we" tried to steal it! They were only mad at Caleb for this, they didn't even know she took it, but it's "we"!)
And idk that whole conversation is just such a perfectly clear illustration of the very sharp divisions that still exist within the group, with Nott and Caleb firmly on one side and the rest on the other. And I guess I just love how real that feels, because I was kind of expecting her to actually convey the grievances of the group, but the closest she comes to that is saying that "they are under the impression that, and this a fair point, that we are not very communicative or… We don't behave as much as part of a team as they would prefer."
Right, yes, perfect, their issue was that you two are "not very communicative", not you know, that they're worried you have your own agenda and will sacrifice the good of the group for the sake of your own goals, and might even stab them in the back if you decide that's more advantageous for you personally. "They're mad because we don't communicate" is all Caleb needs to know to be up to speed about the fight he just missed <3
"I said that I would tell you and discuss. And so that's where it stands with the weirdos."
I love her so much.
tldr Veth being in love with Caleb is unequivocally canon, and Caleb being Weird About Her (tm) is also unequivocally canon
Following that, post-campaign Essek trying to ask an oblivious Caleb about his feelings for Veth is both funny and compelling to me
Un-tldr:
So Widobrave from Veth's perspective of being in love with Caleb is canon, and imo (/ in pretty much everything I’ve written for them) Caleb is also in love with her and realizes that but doesn’t want to say anything due to uhhhh everything else about them and their situations
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I also think it’d be interesting character beat if he didn’t understand or contextualize that, and just felt these complicated, ‘foolish’ ‘probably jealous’ ‘very awkward’ ‘not knowing what to do with himself’, feelings without having a proper name for them
Especially with his eventual floating wizard boyfriend
Essek, for his many faults (including warmongering), is not stupid, and not half as inept with reading people as I feel like we in fandom make him out to be
He's also not un-weird about Veth either. I think he likes Veth and respects her skill with research as an alchemist and one-level-dip wizard, and is aware that she's a significant part of the reason he was welcomed into the Nein with (mostly) minimal hazing,, but he still fully did order the kidnapping and torture of her husband that one time which is a bizarre undercurrent to have to a friendship and on top of that his boyfriend is in love with her
Imo on a cultural level the Dynasty would be more familiar with complicated love situations than the Empire, due to (potentially massive) lifespan disparities and consecution. Someone’s full-on death could become the equivalent of seeing your high school sweetheart ten years later except also they're a bugbear now (many fantasy Hallmark, fantasy Christmas movies to that effect [/jk]) so Essek would have a frame to work from in approaching it
So imagine if you will
One [perma-]night among their seventeen fae and real cats, Essek thinking like,, okay Thelyss be chill, it’s a sensitive topic, he didn't know she was married, and he lost two of his previous partners in a pretty deeply horrific way, he might not be ready to talk about it, maybe just offer communication: “Hey Caleb I want you to know I love you, I do think we should talk about Veth sometime?”
And Caleb’s like: ‘How do you mean?"
Essek: “I mean you two have a very,,,,, special relationship,, and I think now that we’re together we should be open with each other on what that entails?’
Caleb (looking up from outlining a Nein-Sided Tower reno that accommodates, among other things, Veth and Yeza’s extended individualized sex room) : “I'm sorry I really don’t know what you mean?”
Essek:
Essek: "Babe"
"I am the parent--you do understand that, correct? I keep him safe, so he can get better and stronger and achieve great things. When I found him he was nothing, just a scared little boy in the corner of an alley. It's my job to protect him. I protect him. He's my boy, and he'll be a great man someday."
Fascinating that they kept Nott's parent speech from the campaign. It's almost verbatim, but where they've placed it in the events of the episode recontextualizes it.
Nott insists that he was a "scared little boy" while the audience is being shown that he is a full adult with incredible power and agency. He may have even been holding back during their friendship. Caleb's backstory in the animation also feels more brutal than I remember, with active missions instead of just trauma tests.
The new speech does more to reframe what we know about Nott, rather than Caleb. She needs to be a parent, and needs to see him as helpless and in want of a caretaker.
This crystallizes the relationship as something both characters need right now but will eventually have to change. Nott will someday have to admit that he's not her child, and more importantly that's not how she wants him to see her. Likewise, Caleb will lean into having a caretaker for now, but he'll eventually chafe against that and probably want the chance to protect and care for Nott in return. In the campaign, they grew out of that dynamic gradually over about 50 episodes, but didn't address the shift.
How the writers placed this moment in the story sets us up to have a more direct arc for their relationship. We the audience can see already that Nott means well but that her view of Caleb is more about her own needs than she's willing to admit. It also seems shockingly rushed for such an early friendship--Nott got SUPER attached to Caleb super quickly. It's been, what, a week? Two weeks they've known each other? Nott, you're in trouble girl. ((Edit: maybe several weeks per Beau's comment))
I'm quite happy; this feels like an intelligent adaptation choice that still keeps a beloved moment from the original show.
They prepared an awesome date for their boyfriend ♡.
I can't believe this is the FIRST day I finished sigh. I like to think Willy grew the veggies/fruit and Luzu cooked. Anyways follow me on twitter (sargsoup), I am very active there and very obsessed with my ot3, but this event is on tumblr sooo.
💙❤🖤 Thank you so much @polyamships for this event!!
Ps. Edit: Hii I saw this tagged as rpf and I don't know if mcyt rp characters shipping is catalogued as rpf, so I just wanna clarify this is about the karmaIand series characters, sorry I didn't tag it, I'm used to avoiding general fandom/character tags when mcyt content involves shipping
Un rejunte de ideas sobre qué creo que pasaría si c!Luzu recuerda sus vidas pasadas. Son solo ideas generales.
Sé que, de recordar todo su pasado claramente, Luzu estaría aterrorizado. No por los horrores que pasó, sino por en lo que se ha convertido. Darse cuenta de que es un reflejo de todo lo que le hizo daño, de que la sonrisa que nunca pudo proteger es la suya. Extrañaría y adoraría a Good Luzu, por fin se daría cuenta de que la estabilidad, la felicidad, la luz y el amor que tanto busca en otros es simplemente lo que extraña y quiere devolverle a su propia persona.
Le tendría miedo y pena a Evil Luzu de karmaland 4. Pena porque entendería por fin que es de ahí que viene su maldad, ese fue el momento donde el dolor quedó arraigado en su corazón. Entendería por qué empezó a buscar venganza y hacer daño, por el dolor que sufrió. Vería como perdió su camino. También sentiría miedo porque se daría cuenta que ese sendero de maldad fue lo que lo condujo a destrozarse aún mas y destrozar a su alrededor. Al final, incluso hizo el mismo daño que le hicieron a él. Vería toda la ira von la que Evil Luzu veía a quienes lo dañaron y sabría que él es merecedor del mismo trato. Sentiría muchísima culpa y remordimiento, se sentiría indigno de ser él quien cargue con el nombre de sus versiones pasadas y por fin entendería como se siente Quackity. Se arrepentiría totalmente de todo lo que hizo.
Con Luzu espora se sentiría muy, muy mal. Entendería muchas de las visiones que tiene y los flashbacks que le vienen al involucrarse con la magia. Los recuerdos de Luzu espora le darían náuseas y asco, se pasaría noches llorando y con arcadas porque los revierdos le traen ese sabor a hongos en la lengua. Serían recuerdos bien horribles y una época que jo querría ni siquiera recordar. Los recuerdos de la posesión llegarían a eclipsar los otros recuerdos sobre Tortillaland, porque trataría de bloquear todos los recuerdos de esa época y no repararía mucho en los momentos felices.
Luzu tigrito le traería melancolía, pero con toques de felicidad. Le haría feliz saber de dónde vienen esos recuerdos con los otros miembros de Karmaland. También, suponiendo que recordara todo en orden cronológico, le calmaría saber que tuvo momentos felices después de las elecciones, momentos donde pudo estar con sus amigos. Viendolo desde una perspectiva externa, le haría pensar que quizás no estaba tan solo. Quizás Evil Luzu se equivocaba al pensar que estaba totalmente solo, y quizás en la actualidad el tampoco lo estaba. Ver ese sentimiento de total soledad como un miedo compartido con Evil Luzu le hace pensar que tienen cosas en común. Que quizás si Evil Luzu lo conociera, lo sabría, y no lo vería como un enemigo ni como una persona horrible sino como a él mismo a quien puede entender y perdonar. También le da esperanza, y le hace soñar con volver a esos momentos de felicidad con sus amigos después de la tormenta.
Me dan ganas de profundizar un poquito más en la idea, o quizás hacerla AU. ¿Cómo actuarían las diferentes versiones de Luzu interactuando entre ellos? Casi fijo que Good Luzu abraza al resto mientras lloran 🕴. En fin, que el cubito necesita un psicólogo, pero como él es el psicólogo no creo que lo vaya a tener pronto,,,.
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