self para|| Knowing Me, Knowing You: Santana/Brittany, 5/17/2015
Santana stared into the mirror above Brittanyâs dresser. Â She focused on the reflective surface, the frame still covered in pictures and notes and various scribbles that made the room seem lived in, instead of the space beyond the Latina in its view, almost as boxed up and empty as the bedroom down the hall. Â The witch wasnât certain about her friend, but she pretty much hated being in the dorms anymore, with this constant reminder of the different directions she and her best friendâs lives were taking so quickly. Â Even now, as they both dressed and primped for their first time on a yacht/cruise-ship thing for a freaking socialite formal, it just felt so bittersweet. Santana couldnât even bring herself to smile at the beautifully crafted appearance before her. Â
âWe look hot,â the siren commented as she sidled up beside the other girl, forcing her friend to push her features into something more amiable to the event and throwing in a laugh. Â
âWeâll definitely be the hottest bitches there,â the witch agreed with a nod.
Brittany shook her head, âWeâll be the hottest people there, girl or guy,â she corrected seriously. Â Santana smiled and nodded again before turning away from the mirror and sauntering toward the bed, hand trailing over the bedspread. Â The winged teen could hear the thoughtfulness in her friendâs tone as she asked, âTana?â
The other simply shook her head as she gave a half-shrug, allowing her raven locks to slide from one side of her to the other and kept her face turned away from her friend. Â As stupid as it seemed, the Latina sort of wished she wasnât going to the dance now, regardless of the opportunity to sail away from this Devil-forsaken town with her boyfriend and do cute sappy things that he always had a knack for that always had a way of making her glad she did just about anything near him (even the shit that didnât include sex). Â She kind of just wanted to curl up with some slutty pjs and Top Ramen and sulk over her lack of a future. Â
Brittany apparently didnât like the quiet that replaced her friendâs usual wit or confident words, however, and softly moved next to the Warg, placing a hand gently on her tanned shoulder. Â âTana, whatâs wrong? Â Is it the dance? Â Because I didnât suggest we go together this time because I didnât want Suzy to be uncomfortable, since you and I are so close and you and Monroe areââ
Santanaâs gaze shifted over to her friendâs clear and yet worried blue gaze. Â âWhat? Â No Britt; thatâs not it. Â Me and Carino are okay going solo if you want some time with the Siren Suit. Â Iâm just being a stick in the mud for a second. Â Donât worry.â
âOh,â her friend replied, nodding her head as she processed the information before looking back up in confusion. Â âWhy?â
The Latina didnât like bogging down her friend with her worries; she liked admitting to any weaknesses any less.  But her thoughts were in the blondeâs head now, even if she didnât know what they were, and so Santana felt obligated to tell the girl something.  âI guess Iâm just sad that after graduation we wonât see each other as much, thatâs all.  I mean, Iâll be moving into the apartments and youâll be training to be a SuitâŠâ
âBut you could be an Agent too,â Brittany replied enthusiastically, offering a supportive smile to her friend. Â âRemember? They think youâre special too, Tanaâthey just want to see if a little more training can make your magic as st5rong as you are already without them.â Â The siren watched the girl expectantly as she reminded her, and Santana thought about her Sergeantâs most recent assessment when theyâd been discussing her options. Â Apparently pulling yourself and a Fed into a coma wasnât a disqualifying act when it came to who could and couldnât keep training, although they had definitely wanted to keep a closer eye on her efforts to develop her jumping, âI bet youâll be the best witch ever before I even finish training; and then we can do the beginner level togetherâtogether forever, just like always, right?â
Santana nodded, but her expression remained hesitant.  Of course she wanted to be an all-powerful Witch Bitch, and get the hell out of this stupid townâmaybe even travel the world.  And doing it as a Suit?  WellâŠmaybe that could be okay; if Britt was going to be there too.  It wasnât like she was going to get a lot of chances to walk around Croatia with her current wingspan happening.  But if she left, sheâd be leaving Gilbert, and Furshine (whether she wanted to admit she missed their friendship and wanted it back or not), andâŠwell, everyone.  She didnât want to think about the fact thatâŠsome people probably couldnât leave this kind of placeâthat it may never be safe for them because of fucking Rebels that were still looking for them after years  to permanently shut them up.  And if she joined the League of Badges, sheâd go a long time between seeingâŠpeople.  People that she loved--that loved her.  Those kind of feelings didnât just pop up around every street corner; was she really in the right to just walk away from them?  Even when faced with the decision of leaving with Brittany, Santana just didnât know.
âTana?â Brittanyâs voice broke through her train of thoughts, and the witchâs dark eyes shifted to her friend. Â âIâm sorry if I messed things up.â
âWhat? Â Oh, Brittany, no,â the Latina was quick to reassure the girl, turning their hug around so that Santanaâs arms now pulled the light-skinned girl into her. Â âI donât like change, but Iâm not going to let you stop living just because shit throws me a little. Â Iâll be fine.â
The sea creature watched her carefully for another moment.  âYou know, Iâm glad you found Monroe,â the blonde told her, causing the witch to quirk an eyebrow at the turn the conversation seemed to have taken.  âHe really likes you, and if you decideâŠwell, whatever you decide you want to do, I know that someone will be looking after you. Even if itâs not me.â
The Latinaâs mouth dropped slightly in surprise, and Brittany smiled as her hand lifted slightly to comb back a stray strand of hair from the girl in front of her. Â âNow letâs go to a dance and make everyone jealous of our dates,â she said with a mischievous smirk, grabbing her wrap before exiting the room and a moment later the dorm.
Santanaâs scoff and subsequent smile was much more genuine this time, and she quickly followed after her friend.