Julian Larson and Santana Lopez have been together four months and we haven't broken them up this time and they're still cute and lovely and amazing and otp jultana 5fuckingeva
Very rarely did they have the time to just be them, to smile and laugh and be sweet. Too many kids, not enough time for each other anymore. Thankfully, all the kids were school aged now, but that also meant that both Santana and Julian were in their mid thirties now, not that that had ever stopped them.
After Julian had come from dropping all of the kids off at their respective schools (Christian was 14, and Juliana, their youngest, was 4 in preschool), he came straight back home. Work wasn't a priority today. He wasn't sure he'd go at all. Not that Santana knew that. He walked into the house to find her cleaning up around the living room, picking up toys. He walked forward and wrapped his arms around her, making her jump.
"What the hell, Jules?" she asked, smiling. "You scared me."
"Sorry babe, but it was too good to pass up." He shrugged, a grin on his face as she turned around and smacked him lightly. "You know you love me. Don't act all moody."
Reposting here because ff.net deleted it because the word bitch is in it. All other parts in my drabble tag.
There was a soft knock on Logan's door from housekeeping alerting him that dinner was ready. Logan didn't feel like eating, but he also felt like he shouldn't just lie around and mope all day.
The first clue that something was different was the big cat lounging on a pillow on the back porch. The second clue was the blonde girl, sitting on Santana's lap, making out with Santana.
"Um Jules? Are you aware that a girl is making out with your girlfriend?" Julian turned around in his chair, catching Logan's eye before, "Oh. Logan, this is Brittany. Brittany is Santana's girlfriend. They've been dating for almost 14 months." Julian closed his eyes, waiting for the bomb to blow. He knew it was risky to drop this all on Logan at once, but Julian didn't know how else to tell Logan that he and Santana weren't really dating. Besides, it seemed easier to have a visual go along with what Julian was telling Logan instead of Julian just telling Logan.
"Um. WHAT?"
"Oh, that's your unicorn, J?" a soft female voice stopped Logan from yelling. Julian turned back to see that Brittany had disentangled herself from Santana's lips. Brittany slid off of Santana's lap and walked over to where Logan stood rigidly in place. She reached up and sort of, petted Logan's face. "Oh he's so angry J. He reminds me of Sanny. She gets angry too. But the secret is to cover her with sweet lady kisses – which I guess you can't do because you're not a lady, but you can just pet him between the legs, I do that with Santana too. I know that's what Blaine does when Kurt gets angry, and Kurt doesn't get angry anymore."
"I'm never letting you and Blaine have sleepovers ever again." Kurt grumbled, even though his voice was missing the usual heat.
Julian looked over at Logan again, noticing that his face had gone from red with anger, to looking mildly uncomfortable at Brittany's awkward but well-meant advice.
"Um…" Logan trailed off, not sure how to respond.
"Britt leave the poor guy alone." Santana snapped, causing Brittany to flash Logan a blinding smile before she skipped away from Logan and back into Santana's lap. The group was quiet for a moment before Julian got out of his chair and laced his fingers through Logan's, trying to ignore the tingly sensation shooting through his body.
"Come on Logan. I think it's time we talked." Julian said as he pulled Logan back into the house and into an empty room where they could talk.
"Why did you lie to me." Logan asked quietly as soon as the door closed and the two of them were alone.
"I didn't mean to lie to you."
"DON'T PULL THAT BULLSHIT ON ME." Logan yelled now. "You had me believe from DAY ONE that she was your girlfriend, you even CALLED HER YOUR GIRLFRIEND, to my FACE. You made me think that I had lost out on you, you made me MISERABLE this summer, what, so you could test my love? Is that what this was? A test to see if I'd pursue you?" Logan was visibly shaking in anger now, and while Julian understood why Logan would be upset, Julian also knew that his 'test' as Logan called it, wasn't completely unwarranted.
"Yes. That's EXACTLY what this was. It was a TEST for you Logan. Because at the beginning of this summer I was still so stupidly in love with someone who COULD love me back, but didn't because he was my best friend and had told me that he was flattered but just saw me as a friend. So when Kurt showed up with Santana in tow and hatched this plan for me to be unavailable to see if you cared either way, I thought, sure why not. It's not like you would actually be jealous and care about me anyway because why would you ever love me the way I loved you? And then this afternoon when you told me you loved me, I knew there would be no way for me to tell you that you could still have me, that my heart never stopped belonging to you for one moment, without you being angry with me. And I'm SORRY. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you three years ago. I'm sorry that I lied to you this summer. I'm sorry that I played games or whatever you think this was to get you to tell me how you really feel. I'm sorry that everything is coming out like this, but what would you have had me do? I have spent my entire high school career thus far watching the boy that I love, love everyone else but me. I've watched you get your heart broken and I've watched you break hearts and I've been there to pick up the pieces and watch you move on faster than I can say Something Damaged. And how am I supposed to set myself up for that? I am just as scared, if not more, of loving you as you are of loving me. You wear your heart out on your sleeve for the world to see, but I'm an actor by trade. It is my job to pretend like I'm someone else; to lie about how I feel. So I am so scared to be honest with you and to put my trust in you to not break me into a million little pieces, but I'm going to. Because I'm in love with you, Logan. I'm so stupidly in love with you and I'm not going to hide that anymore. I've been in love with you since the moment you and I first bonded over having to sit through boring speeches."
Julian finally stopped talking, taking a deep breath, and staring at Logan, waiting for him to respond. Julian closed his eyes, taking a few deep breaths, before opening his eyes again, watching the way that Logan's face remained perfectly blank – as it always does when Logan is thinking really hard.
"Logan." Julian whispered softly, breaking the silence. "I am fighting every urge in my body to run out of this room right now because I am done running away from my feelings and I'm done running away from you. But you have to say something, anything, soon, or else I'm going to lose my fucking mind." Julian closed his eyes again, willing the tears that were threatening to spill, away. Julian opened his eyes to the sound of footsteps, and found himself staring straight into Logan's green eyes, which were now merely inches from his face.
"Julian, I…" Logan started, his voice soft. He reached a hand up to Julian's face, like he did earlier that day, and wiped the tears off of Julian's face. "…So what now?"
"Can we try dating?" Julian asked hopefully, still overcome with emotion from yelling at Logan, and confessing his love TO Logan, and with the potential that Logan loves Julian back.
"Julian Larson-Armstrong, will you go out with me? On a proper date?"
"What, you don't want to be my boyfriend?" Julian joked, his voice a little raw from all the yelling.
"Um excuse me, I'd like to woo you a little bit first before we get to the stage where I stop wearing clothes around you because I'm too lazy to figure out what to wear to impress you."
"No, no can we go straight to the you being naked around me stage please." Julian pleaded, his voice laced with laughter.
"You don't want to be wooed?"
"I'm pretty sure you've already got me."
Logan rolled his eyes, even though Julian could see the smile in Logan's eyes. Logan brought his other hand up to cup Julian's chin and pulled Julian in for a sweet kiss that was full of promise for the future.
"I guess I'll go out with you." Julian mumbled against Logan's lips, squealing as Logan snaked his arm around Julian's waist and pulled him in closer.
"You guess, my ass. I just made your dreams come true." Logan growled before covering Julian's lips again, this time with a kiss that was not sweet at all, but messy and passionate and just right.
Reposting here because ff.net deleted it because the word bitch is in it. All other parts in my drabble tag.
"What is your problem, Wright? Seriously?" Julian burst into Logan's room, slamming the door behind him, not even letting Logan have a chance to answer whether he wanted Julian to come in or not? Logan was laying on his bed, his eyes shut, his headphones in. Julian stalked across the room and ripped the headphones out of Logan's ears, throwing them across the room.
"….Isn't it my job to be angry and yell and throw things?" Logan asked calmly, slowly sitting up.
"Yeah. Yeah it is your job. Except you haven't showed interest in ANYTHING all summer. All you've done is sit and pout and been a bitch to Santana and act like you're all high and mighty and I'm sick of it!" Logan's face had twitched at the mention of Santana's name, and although Julian knew he was playing with fire, he knew he needed to get Logan angry to say what he really wanted to. "I see your face clenching at the mention of her name. Why do you hate her so much? What has she done to you that's made you act like such an ass around her?"
"I don't know what you're talking about. I have no problem with her."
"BULLSHIT. She is the toughest girl I know and she came crying to me a week ago about how she really wanted my friends to like her but apparently she just can't make one of my best friends like her, and that matters to her!" Ok so Julian was lying a little bit, ok a lot. Santana would never cry over something like that, she'd probably punch Logan in the balls and be over with it, but Logan didn't know that.
"I have no problem with her."
"Then why have you been such a SQUID towards her all summer?"
"BECAUSE SHE HAS YOU."
Both boys fell silent, staring at each other. Sure Santana had told Julian that she overheard Logan say that he had feelings for Julian, and looking back on the way that Logan had been treating him all summer, there were a lot of typical Logan flirting signs all over, but Julian would have never thought that Logan was flirting with him.
"You…what?" Julian whispered, still sure that Logan would never feel the same way about him as he felt about Logan.
"I don't have a problem with her, I'm jealous of her. I hate watching the two of you giggle and laugh together. I hate watching you kiss her. I hate watching you rub lotion on her. I hate the fact that she gets to spend the night with you. I hate seeing you happy with her, and not with me, and I tried in the beginning to get in between you two, but you were so damn happy with her and I realized that if I really loved you, I had to let you be happy, even if it wasn't with me."
"….If you really, what?"
Logan took a deep breath and got off his bed, crossing his room until he was right in front of Julian. "I love you, Julian Larson-Armstrong. And I think I always have, in a way. I mean, I've always found you attractive but I never thought I could have you so I found people to substitute as you, but none of them were ever you. And when I heard you tell Derek that you loved me, it had been so long since I had entertained the thoughts that I could have you, that it completely blindsided me. And then for that month when we weren't speaking and everything was super awkward between us, I began to remember everything about you that I fell in love with. But you seemed so uncomfortable around me, so sure I was going to rip your heart out, and you know me, you know I have the tendency to fuck up everything good in my life, and I really didn't want to fuck us up. So I told you that I wanted to be just friends, because I needed time away from you to figure out if I still wanted you when you weren't around. And I did – I still do. I showed up at your summer house a month and a half ago, determined to win you over. I just didn't plan on you getting over me so fast. And I know you're with Santana now, and I'm happy for you, I am. I just wish you had given me the chance to make you happy with me."
Logan finished his speech and reached up towards Julian's face to wipe the tears that had started to fall down his face. "Oh Logan." Julian whispered, letting his face rest against Logan's hand. "Please don't hate me." Julian leaned in and softly kissed Logan on the mouth, but pulling away before he could let himself get too lost in the kiss. Julian pulled out of Logan's arms and murmured a quick "I have to go do something" before he was out of Logan's bedroom, leaving Logan to catch his breath and wonder if he just messed up the biggest thing in his life.
Julian made his way out of the house and over down by the pool where Kurt, Santana, and Derek were all hanging out. Derek, knowing Julian was in the house and not coming back out for awhile, was trying all his tricks to get a very uninterested Santana interested in him. Julian crossed the back quickly before reaching the group. "Move Derek, game's over, you lost the bet." Derek leapt up from the lounge chair, trying to look like he didn't know what Julian was talking about.
"What bet?"
"The one you and Logan made about who gets with me or Santana first, respectively. Logan just told me he loved me, Santana is not my girlfriend and she's a lesbian, Santana give me Brittany's number I need to fix this before I lose Logan." Julian finished, holding his hand out expectantly, ignoring Derek's look of surprise on his face.
"Lesbian?"
"I was serious when I told you what you could do with your penis if you tried to get it anywhere near my vagina." Santana tossed her phone to Julian, looking unfazed about the whole conversation.
"This is great. I was worried for awhile that I had lost my touch."
"Nah you've just been hitting on the wrong kind of gays all summer. Don't think I don't know about you and Sebastian last semester."
"How did - ?" Derek started, but was cut off by Julian who put his finger up to silence everyone.
"Hey Brittany, it's J." Julian spoke into the phone. "How is Lord Tubbington? Oh he stopped smoking? I'll tell Santana that. Hey look, I was wondering if you wanted to come out to my beach house for the last few weeks of summer. Santana misses you a lot. Yes you can bring Lord Tubbington. ….Yes I'll be on Fondue For Two. …Uh huh. Yes, where are you? …Yeah I'll send a private jet to pick you up, sound good? Yes I can't wait either. Thanks bye." Julian hung up the phone and tossed it back to Santana. "I need to go alert housekeeping that there will be another guest and to have Santana's crap – "
"Hey! – "
"Moved into the new room, and get a jet sent to pick up Brittany. Derek – you don't know that Santana isn't my girlfriend, ok? Logan needs to hear this from me, my way, so don't say anything to him, ok?"
"Fine."
Julian nodded, satisfied with how things had turned out, then turned around and went back into the house to start the preparations for Brittany's arrival.
