Saturday Evening

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okay, 7 days ago i suddenly missed him

and you know, this week he’s gonna leave to sweden for study

what a coincidence

i don’t even know he’s leaving this week….

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after scrolling through old photos just made me realize how much i missed him.

i miss u so much.

i’m really sorry that i used to hurt u so bad

i didn’t realize.. i used to be very selfish

i’m crying so bad right now, i can’t handle it anymore

i really really really missed you H

you know, when we were just started our relationship, we were very very happy

like this world just you and me lol

i really missed those happy memories

like our first date watching marathon movie at PIM

the day we started our relationship after we had ice skating at Taman Anggrek

when we were riding the boat ourself in PIK lol

watching ghibli movies and ghibli exhibition together in our first anniversary

and we share our common taste of musics and films and dreams

are you remember our dream in 2021? hahaha

oh my god…

i reaaally love u so much

i hope you are happy with your life now

❤️

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taken by him

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new crush <3

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miss u guys! 

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me digging and found some good music

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bingung

sampai rasanya menangis pun udah ga bisa lagi

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jangan lupa bahagia katanya.

tapi, definisi bahagia itu sendiri seperti apa?

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when you realized you don't know anything about him.

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terlalu banyak harapan

terlalu banyak kekecewaan

harapan tak tercapai

timbulkan penyakit dalam diri

sakit

kecewa

hampa

tiada yang menolong

tiada tempat tuk bersandar

tiada tempat tuk pegangan

hampa

kosong

untuk apa semua ini?

hanya untuk bersenang-senang?

hanya untuk singgah sementara?

lelah

tujuan

arti

harapan

perjalanan

hilang

bagaimana semua ini terus berjalan?

semua telah hilang

kapan semua ini berakhir?

lelah tak tertahankan

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I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you simply, without problems or pride: I love you in this way because I do not know any other way of loving but this, in which there is no I or you, so intimate that your hand upon my chest is my hand, so intimate that when I fall asleep your eyes close.

Pablo Neruda, 100 Love Sonnets

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be beautiful :)

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Rich people don’t have to struggle to get what they want. How can you forget that?!

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Menghargai uang itu penting, karena nyarinya susah.

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Like he can do almost anything while I can do nothing 😔😔

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When you feel unworthy of being loved😢