STILL YOU
Re4!leon x reader(mission buddy), angst, not proofread!
Synopsis ; leon spirals under the weight of old trauma from 1998 until you becomes the only thing grounding him.
You and Leon have been ordered to escort Ashley Grahams - the daughter of the president from an abandoned island in spain.
It was going factually smooth, encountering the villagers infected with Los Plagos, as you both went out of your way to find the keys and essential parts to enter the church where Baby Eagle(codename for Ashley) is said to be taken hostage.
Leon trained rigorously after the events of racoon city, the incident alone leaving a deep scar in his mind, which mentally took away his peace. He had not expected to encounter yet another so called 'parasitic infection' again and seeing it being there shook him from the inside, almost as if the rookie inside him was revived again - but he managed to fought through.
Later on in the afternoon of the mission, you guys were exploring the lakes around to gather the stuff which was essential, his calm demeanour maintained but something radiated his sense of disappointment, fragility, rawness - all quietly unraveling.
One of the infected villagers attacked him, attacked him too close to almost dying but you jumped in enough on time to save him, you took out rest of them as he lied there injured, you finally came up to him finding him leaning on the rock, bleeding as his face was shuddered in fear, his eyes went blank, like the trauma of that night returned all at once, with nothing but tears forming through but not actually falling. Seeing him like this you shook him roughly on the shoulders panting
"Leon? Leon??.. Leon!?" You panted.
Being clapped back to reality leon holds onto your arm ruffling a low shriek and he looked around trying to take in what happened, and your voice folllowing through him - muffled ; "Are you okay? Leon? Look at me?" You didnt stop shaking him, till finally his grip on your arm hardened as he managed to spill out a rough "Yeah, I am okay".
You helped him with the aid, him getting up saying a "Thank you, Y/n."
You laughed it off with a - "no worries." The look in his eyes told a story far worse than the one you’d been given. You knew it had been a bad day in September 1998, just not the kind that leaves someone looking haunted.
You followed up the line just incase he needs that containment "We are going to get through this okay, you and me?"
He laughed weakly, more exhausted than amused. “You make it sound so easy.” His voice softened after a pause. “But I think we will do this." You followed up again "what?! You are Leon Ass Kennedy! You will get this through." You said reloading your gun enthusiastically and he chuckled softly leading to what you guys require next.
Time skip; Evening where you guys decided to rest your asses off.
Leon was catching a quick nap as you gaurded the place, strolling back and forth keeping eye for any danger. You sat at some open cave near the lake and you finally sat down, looking out, taking in yourself of how much of a bizzare day you had been taking in, you were just rubbing your eyes till you heard him panick in his sleep muttering words like "Lieut--...enant Marv..Marv--in Brana---gh..---no--" he visibly struggled to breathe as you quickly ran upto him, your hands wandering around his shoulders not sure what to do, in a panick you tried to wake him, and again shaking his shoulders. His reaction was immediate - his hands gripping your arms as if he had mistaken his half awake instincts for danger, him quickly taking you down as you screamed "LEON!?" you huffed as his eyes shot open, his blood vessels almost about to pop, tears in his eyes as he scanned the situation realising what he had done, he quickly gets off and tries to run away, kept turning away, trying to conceal tears that were falling and you followed behind him muttering "leon..? Leon? What? Are you..?" As you finally grasp his arm and pin him down to sit, you kneeling while doing so as you finally saw his tears, your expression changed to concern and you relived his arm from your hands to rest on his shoulder, you asked "Leon, what is going on?"
He looked at you with his tear filled eyes..
"Have I ever told you that.. September 1998 wasnt a particulary good year for me?"
"Yeah." You replied.
"It wasn't just bad Y/n, it left me scarred for life."
You quietly sat beside him, softly held his hand as he spoke.
"September 30th, 1998. It's a day I'll never forget. The cop inside me died that day. And that night, Raccoon City was wiped out, thanks to the bioweapons created by Umbrella. Somehow, I made it out. But too many others...weren't so lucky. I was "asked" later to join a top-secret government program in which we are in of today time. Its not that I had a choice, and neither you and you know the training, the punishing missions...nearly killed me, but at least they kept my mind off everything. If I could just forget what happened that night - the pain, even for a second? ITS killing me, and the memories are tracing back y/n.. I am hallucinating stuff.. its.. getting to me.." he said sorrowful.
His words hit close to home for you as well, you worked as a newbie alongside Jill Valentine(though you and her were separted) and had seen the outcomes of racoon city and you could definitely correlate to him on higher levels, your eyes teared up, instantly hugging him - it was almost done involuntarily by you.
"Its going to be.. fine. We will get through this."
He said resting his hand on your back..
"I am afraid.. these mission can kill us and I cant risk you--" his voice breaking and you find your way to cup his face.
"Me and you, Leon? We will do this, I was trained alongside to you, dont you trust me?" You spoke staring deep into his eyes, his eyes fluctuated around your whole face. He hugged you tightly crying quietly in your embrace "yeah..- fucking hell we will."
He broke the hug, and later you both find yourself sitting alongside looking at the lake for a minute till you broke the silence "Leon.. whatever you went through that night, you are still you. Dont ever give up..not on me...not today. This time, it has to be different." You said calmly.
He took in the depth of your words, finding himself calming down as it was you which kept him grounded.
He scooted closer to you as you were about to turn to ask him about the ammunition, you didnt realise his face was so close that your lips brushed softly against his. After a second of silence he didnt hesitate to pull you from your waist into a deep kiss, his lips softly melted into yours and you kissed him back with some passion, you arched against his body flushing closer as you broke the kiss and spoke -
"Alright leon...- got some baby eagle saving to do." You said chuckling, to which he replied in a panting laugh - "oh her- yes! I almost forgot.. and by the way I did so because, I didnt expect you to be such a good kisser!" He teased releasing you from his arms as you guys conquered the mission and saved Ashley.
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👹👹👹👹👹👹 A/n : LEON IS A CRYBABY TO YOU SUCK IT UP. HE NEEDS TO BE BABIED IM TIRED OF SEEING HIM WRITTEN AS TOUGHH LORDDD I LOVE HIM:(((
